Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Gina1976]

Jenmink- Just curious. You don't have to wait 2 weeks? Now I've never done IVF so I'm not sure how the counting works. You are 8dpt, wouldn't you have a longer wait until Beta? Either way I know it's a BFP!

[Julia73]

I am feeling so depressed tonight. I am @ work so this has to be quick. My pee test have been so faint I feel like it is going to be a negative. I know we ad that good looking one from the serum but I wish the pee test were darker. Maybe I feel depressed from the hormones. I don't know

Amanda- do not give up hope! I'm praying that your mood lifts and that you can again see the hope. I really hate that feeling of let down and doubt that I sometimes get but when it happens I pray and it usually lifts. Its good imho to voice it as you did tho.

Jenmink- oh my gosh! That line is so freakin dark. Wtg! Very excited for u.

Leora- I'm up! Fell asleep at like 8pm last night and I'm over here wide awake at what I thought was 5:30am, but time change so dh rolls over and says, you do know its 430 right? I was like noooooo! I just lost that extra hour lol.

[amanda1979]

blessed- Have you POAS yet? I am not having any symptoms unless you count being depressed Maybe that is my symptom. Tomorrow will not come fast enough.

sunshine- thank you for the warm support

Neffi- Yay for AF coming!! Isn't it sad we get excited to see her come? LOL

Moorebaby- So glad to hear from you!! How are you doing? How are the twins?

rosie- what a great fert. report!!!!

Leora- British iris cream to hot choc sounds wonderful. I hope your secret plan is working for you:) If I have a negative tomorrow I will be hitting the crown & coke hard. I am not much of a drinker so it won't take much! If I get a positive then I will celebrate with a happy dance Good luck with the adoption appt. let us knows how it goes. We thought about doing that ourselves. I was awake with you I worked all night so my 12 hr shift turned into a 13 hr shift bc of the stupid time change.

AFM: Who all is getting their beta with me tomorrow?? I am still depressed. I don't know if it is a symptom or not. Maybe it is just me. I will post tomorrow as soon as I know as long as I am not on the road to my parents house which is almost 5hrs away. I am going to ask them to call me as early as they can instead of making me wait all damn day. All the ladies at work are so being so sweet & supportive even the nurses in the units I go around to get their xrays. they are more excited than I am right now. How funny is that? The nurses are telling me not to be upset over the urine test & just be happy about the home serum test we did..lol Anyways I hope everyone has a wonderful day. I am off to sleep. It has been a long night.

[Gina1976]

Amanda- Sorry you are feeling down. I hate when I have days like that. I'm praying hard that tomorrow will be awesome news and you can feel great again! That's great to hear everyone being so positive around you! I've had friends that will get a neg or faint urine test and get positive only through blood test. Hang in there!

[jayne321]

Amanda~ You have a positive test so at least something is going on. When I was pregnant with my son, I didn't test positive on a hpt test until really late and he turned out perfectly normal. I'm hoping for good beta news tomorrow.

Leora~ I lost my girl in premature labor. My placenta must have been leaking as well because the fluid was gone. They couldn't stop my labor. When she was born, she was alive and died in my arms. Never had her genetically tested. To prevent premature labor with my son, they put me on IM progesterone once a week at week 18 or 20 (I can't remember). I went 38 weeks with him. I was induced due to preeclampsia. And no I don't think you're crazy for not giving up your son's clothes. I still have clothes of my daughters. That the only thing I have to remember her by.

AFM~ Somehow I feel like this cycle hasn't worked. Ugh. Lots of cramps. Even a touch of brown this morning when I wiped. Not a good sign. The reality is definitely catching up to me. Tears down my face.

[bodie1011]

Amanda - good luck tomorrow. Thinking of you and hoping for positive beta! The + HPT has to be a good sign.

Jayne - Could be implantation bleeding right? Try to stay positive!!

JenMink - Congrats!!!! Yay!!! that line is darker than mine at 7dp5dt, and I've got twins in there. Maybe you do too!!

Rosie - congrats on your fertility report. 8/10 is great. Hoping for lots of greats embies to transfer and freeze.

Leorira - just to second what Julia said, you are my total hero for still being so positive and continue to try multiple avenues after what you have been through.


AFM - still feeling nausea on and off during the day which is reassuring, but getting very nervous about the next U/S on Tuesday. Hoping for some strong heartbeats!!

[Sunshine1576]

So the time change really didn't matter over here since I slept until 11am, I'm having brunch either way. Really wanted to go to church this morning since I'm actually off on a Sunday for a change but I stayed awake until 1am waiting for dh to get his butt home. He helped some coworkers move furniture and afterwards he went over to his friends to watch the Alabama game. I would rather him watch football over there because they get so raudy and loud with all the guys drinking and last night was quite the upset.

Poor dh has sore shoulders this morning from moving furniture. He always comes home to fill me in with the office gossip except he never gets enough questions in, and I'm left hanging lol guys usually don't like drama, it's mostly all about girls, cars and beer-- except sometimes, the beer can get them really talking it's all too funny. He told me last night he's so glad he's not living the single life, he sees how they go on talking about their exs and how hard it really is. So anyway even though I didn't make it to the worship service, I'm still going to continue to pray for so many here, this week is going to bring about a brand new chapter in our lives.

[Gina1976]

We- How are you doing? Were you able to get further testing done? Sorry for being behind on that!!

[rosie84]

Sunshine - I really hope you will still get approved for the Attain program (actually more than that I really hope you will get pregnant from this IUI cycle!). I feel your pain being unexplained…it would be nice to know that IVF is at least directly addressing our problems.

Amanda - (((hugs))) I have faith that you are going to get a great beta. Thinking of you.

Leora- So much good luck tomorrow! I hope you get a great report and a time table for transfer.

Ninde - Thinking of you and hoping AF comes soon! I really hope today is a better day.

I spoke to my RE again today and our 8 embryos are still with us, so we are going to plan for a day 5 transfer. I really agonized over the choice of day 3 vs. day 5 or the option of transferring one on day 3 and one on day 5, and I know we could lose everything in the process of trying to get to blastocyst, but I feel good about our decision and I do believe if we come up empty-handed on day 5, it is because none of the embryos were genetically competent and wouldn't have survived anyway. Here's hoping for good news come Wednesday! I know I must still be missing lots of people with the personals - I still do not feel totally with it

[Ninde]

Hello ladies- bodie - apologies this got messed up and my comment to you is after my "afm" and it wont come back!

Jayne321: thanks a million and yes I think the hormones have been messing up my weigh. When is your beta?and how was your nephew? I didnt realize you had lost your daughter. Im so very sorry.im really praying that the brown discharge when you wiped is implantation or possibly just progester

Jenmink: oh that's fantastic, congrats. How are you feeling?!

Blessed: thank you for your kind words. It will be so great when you can join the other bfp'ers here

Sunshine: thank you so much. It eventually passed after 8pm. I had my hair cut and colored and realized things were bad when tears were pouring down my face in the chair! We dont have Thanksgiving here in ireland just christmas. But I've always thought it was a lovely holiday. So how are you doing?


Gina: I know its tough for you with your grandmother. Sending you hugs

Neffi: oh im sorry, really really sorry. How are you today?

Blue: thank you so much, I think you are right about the hormones and weight. Im doing "the four hour body" by Tim ferries, its low carb but lots of veg and lentils and lean protein and you can have one day off a week. How is your neck and shoulder?

Moorebaby: we met with the clinic 10 days ago and they were wonderful. She feels I responded so well I can go with long or antagonist cycle. Still waiting for af 4.5 weeks after d&c so once that comes I'll be happier. We are going to start again after christmas and im taking tones of supplements and first acupuncture on wed. How are you feeling?

Kiminish: trigger dancing for you

Rosie: yay that's brilliant. You must be thrilled? Thank you for your kindness

Amanda: I know its hard to hold on to the positive and the hop. Its hard to hold onto that but im sending you lots of strength x

Leorira: I cant believe people dont recognize what you are going through and what you have gone through. I laughed at your too early to drink comment!

Afm: hormones seem to have backed off today, thankfully. I've noticed a huge difference between emotions and hormones. With emotions yes I'll feel sad and then cry but with hormones I find myself crying without a cause. What was lovely today was my friend had booked a spa day for me for my birthday and because thankfully could hold it together I was really able to enjoy the day. Than you so much ladies for your support. I was at my wits end yesterday and your kindness really lifted me.

Ninde

Bodie: just think how much bigger your twins will be on this u/s

[Neffi211]

Leora-- wait, I am confused....did you live in PA? You don't live in the US now though do you? Did I misread....is pinkboots in Harrisburg?

I think I am going to suck it up and do the Viagra for the $500....unforuntaly I cannot get DH to get them (although he would do anything for me ) My insurance is a $5000 deductible so we basically pay for everything. Guess its going on the credit card for now. I will probably start that tomorrow, but I will have to see what RE says. I dont want to do the same protocol as last time.

[blessed143]

neffi- I hope that it works for you. I know that it helped in another woman that I read about...still for the life of me cant remember where that was... errrr but I am thinking of you and I am looking forward to hearing how your cycle goes..

ninde- ooohhh spaday.... that is awesome! I would love a spa day.... WHat a good friend. Happy birthday! I understand the hormones. I am seeming to mellow out a little bit. I think its because I try to stay over aware of it. Yelling at random people and then crying is just not ok... I hope that you are doing well and have a great day!

rosie- That is great that you still have te 8 embies. They are going strong! That is a hard choice but I am sure you made the right one. They seem to be going strong now.... I will be thinking of you and I hope that you gett wonderful news on WED!!!!

sunshine- thinking of you! This week is going to be great! Praying you get your bfp!

bodie- I cant wait to hear what the u/s shows on tuesday. I will be thinking of you and I am sure you will hear some wonderful heartbeats!!! Thinking of you!

jayne- SO sorry for the loss that you have experienced. Brown is old blood. Cramps could be that your uterus is expanding.... Still could be a good outcome! thinking of you!

amanda- I so want to poas. I was going to see how soon I could poas. I really want to do it! I am sorry that you are depressed. It could be a symptom. Emotions are so weird and crazy trying to get pregnant and getting pregnant. hehe.... I am thinking of you. Dont be down... I am so sorry. There is still hope... Thinking of you!!!

AFM- still trying to figure out how soon I can POAS.... I really want to but I dont know how early it will detect... I am trying to take it easy. Feeling a little crampy but not like period cramps so that is good right.... Sometimes I do something and I feel like I strained myself and try to take it easy. I am so worried. I just dont think that I can handle the emotional rollercoaster... ahhh... Praying for a bfp! Thinking of you all!

[kala0704]

Jayne-I'm so sorry about your DD. I can't imagine. Now you have a beautiful son and praying another LO comes your way. Dont lose hope...many a woman have spotting or full blown like AF and are still preggo. Have you POAS'd? Keep up the PMA!
Amanda-a line is a line is a line! The hormones are prob affecting your mood. Praying for a beautiful strong beta tomorrow!!!
Jenmink-Congrats on you big beautiful BFP!! Wooooooo hooooooo!!!!
Leorira-You are too funny...we have a few ladies playing doctor/mad scientist on here. Hope you SNS and adoption meeting goes well on monday. Prays for you and your future baby!
Bodie-i know the nausea gets old....but isn't a wonderful constant reminder that you have two little miracles in your belly?!? Hope your U/S goes well!!! Im so happy for you!
Rosie-a 5 day transfer will be great. Those little embabies will be ready to get a nice and cuddly in their home. I had 7 embryos my first IVF, we transfered 3 and froze 4. How many do you plan to transfer?
Ninde-glad you are feeling better! A spa day...how nice and what an awesome friend! Im doing the Af dance for you (I really do a little dance, good thing no one is around
Neffi-wow...viagra...let us know how that goes. I HATE deductables! $5000 is a lot Is this your first cycle since DS? Most the ladies that cycled with us in 2009 are already preggo again! I couldn't bring myself to wean DD til 15 months to try again.
Sunshine-praying for a strong beautifuil beta!!!!
Blessed-we are praying for a bfp for you too. How many dpt are you? Maybe you can POAS Monday or Tuesday?
We-hope you are doing well! We are thinking of you and look forward to hearing from you soon!
AFM-Im getting so anxious as I wait for AF to come on Friday. I feel like I have been getting kinda of PMSy. I constantly pray and send good thoughts to my little totsicles in Serbia and think good mental imagery helps. My DD just discovered my belly button and likes to look at my belly so I keep reminding her about her important job to tell the embabies what to do once they are in mommy. It looks like Im a weekend poster, but I am still reading all ya'lls post everynight on my phone. I love all the pics of BFPs!!! Im so happy for all of you and hope we have lots of good betas this week!

[Neffi211]

Kala-- No, we have done 5 cycles after DS. two m/c. It has been 18 months since we have tried anything, we have been waiting on adoption. My milk never came in so I couldn't breast feed anyway so we did a cycle when DS was only 10 weeks old, got a BFP but I miscarried at 9 weeks. Our deductible is high, but our premium is low monthly and we have an HSA.

[Sunshine1576]

Ninde, I'm glad you are feeling so much better! Why not have a turkey just for you and dh this year, I'll send you one via FedEx if you message me your address, but come on anyone is welcome to stop in for a turkey sandwich! I've been fixing turkey sandwiches all weekend and about tired of turkey already. lol I saw someone leaving Target yesterday with a Christmas tree with a box of ornaments...Feeling like I'm about ready to bring out mine but I'm trying to wait until at least Thanksgiving night for dh's sake everything is up in the attic and there are several cobwebs, but at least we don't have bats like someone I once knew. The spa package sounds so wonderful! My mom treated me to a manicure on Saturday and I glanced over to find a young lady getting a pedi and they were wrapping the hot towels around her calves with a nice massage, I thought how nice, but instead I rationize bought some holiday glitter polish and did my own feet. However a massage sounds like THE perfect birthday gift and I hope you throughly enjoyed it!

Amanda, I'm saying a prayer right now that God will calm your nerves and rest your mind remember as of right now HE is in control and we need to rest everything in His hands. xoxo

kala, Thanks for the positive vibes, we have several betas going on this week and I'm praying for every single one!
May AF come by the end of the week, I'll need to coordinate my dance with the girls just for you!

Gina, I received another email from my aunt today that she knows several people who are interested in buying my grandmother's house. My uncle (her husband) and my Papa built this house with their bare hands so it's emotional. My grandmother 92, (still adjusting to the nursing home) doesn't know my aunt has moved her and Papa's personal things into the garage. This is really all disturbing to me, but I'm really trying to understand that she believes with nobody living there the house is slowing depreciating. My aunt said the house probably won't last through Christmas as several people are already showing interest in buying it. She is putting together a box of sentimental things for the grandchildren to go through, told me my oldest brother will have this box for me and my middle brother to go through. But here's the thing, my granny IS still living and this is her house it would make her sick to know all of this is happening and the heartache would cause her distress obviously she wouldn't be able to handle, so my aunt decided that none of us should tell her. Dh thinks I should wait until my beta to get wrapped up in all of this. I just wanted to really tell you I understand your emotional distress, and I pray God will let us have one more family Christmas together with our precious grandmothers.

AFM: lower back pain but really sore breasts. I begged dh to massage them while nobody was looking in the Lowe's parking lot.