Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[kala0704]

posted from phone...it was terrible. Better post in a minute...

[dogzrule]

*crashing*
Blessed- I want you to know there is definitely hope! My first beta with my daughter (done 9dp5dt) was 31.

[kala0704]

We- I'm so sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you, your son, his father and family. Im so sorry for your DS....how hard it must be on him.
Neffi-That is random...you have a good attitude. We won't hold our breath either...but that would truly be a miracle if all worked out.
Bodie-praying your little beans are growing happy and healthy! Cant wait to hear the u/s news.
Sunshine- my husband took clomid to increase sperm count... we only had 9 sperm or twitchers and managed to fertilize 7 of my 8 eggs. It is worth a shot but it was hard having both of us pumped full of hormones.
Blessed- 46 is not great, but it is still good. It means you are pregnant there is a little something in you producing HCG...now I pray it doubles up very soon! Dont be too hard on yourself...we are all free to have any feeling on this board.
Kerpupples- your AF came....yay! Mine too. Can't wait to hear your FET protocol. This wind is brutal, it got up to 115 on Berthod Pass, Im afriad my house will blow over.
Becca-good luck tomorrow! Let's get a nice strong beta!
Amanda-I may have missed your update how are you doing?
Leora-What is roller coaster. You poor thing! I hope everyhing goes well and praying this little totsicle is the one!
Sorry about missing other personals....I will get better about getting on my computer....personals on the phone is a pain in the ass.
AFM- AF came yesterday and it is the heaviest I've ever had! I start bcp tomorrow.
Protocol: 46 day cycle: BCP-21 days, Lupron-31 days, Estrace-16 days= FET on December 28th. I'm so excited! We have 4 frosties...I hope and pray they survive. Still trying to prepare myself for the trip to Serbia and back by myself with 18 mo DD. I may need to bring the Benadryl...lol!

[leorira11]

Blessed - those HPTs look great. I'm sorry that your beta was on the low side. How many days past transfer are you? Have you seen betabase? There are people who have low betas and are fine. I'm on pins and needles with you until Wednesday's follow up.

fruit - welcome! Long time no 'see'! I'm so glad to hear you'll be cycling again in Jan/Feb - I hope by then I won't be, but I'll be cheering you on! Anything going to be different next time around?

Christy - I've done PIO in the past... I can never figure out which I hate less - the suppositories or the PIO! Are you thinking about doing another IUI? When I had several failed cycles in a year, my doctors ran some additional tests to check for a bunch of things that can cause repeated fails - have your doctors mentioned anything like that? I know we did a HSG to check for hydrospalinx (when tubes are blocked and filled with fluid) and other things. We did a bunch of blood tests for clotting factors and other things. Maybe ask Ghost what his suggestion is for testing after repeated failed cycles. I wish I had a magic answer, or some extra money to donate! Our doctor said the only thing that could possibly help D's sperm count was a thing called Vitamix (?? maybe? I'll double check my records. I'm also not sure if that's the Israeli name for it or what). The supplement cost $500/month - and even doubling D's sperm count wouldn't help us (still need ICSI), so we decided not to do it.

Julia - I'm so sorry. BFNs suck so much. Are you going to try again? Any frosties?

LauraN - how are you? Have you started stimming yet?

Maria - wow. That is so hard. I'm so sorry hon. I'm sure this is so hard for you and your son.

kerpupples - I wish I knew what the depression taboo was about. Sheesh. Almost everyone I know was on anti-depressants at some point. I've tried to wean off of mine several times with disasterous results,so my psychiatrist said I have chronic severe depression and I'll probably take the meds the rest of my life. So what? I take a little pill every day at bedtime and I'm completely stable. Granted, if I stop them, I go crazy, but I've done that a few times and doubt I'll EVER try that again! I don't like being crazy! Hopefully our appeal will work.... --- btw, I hate hate hate my periods during the whole IVF thing. I'd been on BCP since I was 13 (I'm anemic and got super heavy periods. I used to pass out, so they put me on the pill), so I'm accustomed to really light flows. I'd never bought a box of 'super plus' tampons until I started IVF. Good luck with AF! Can you do the FET this month, or has the PGD not come back yet?

Rosie - yea, I figured one cup a day is fine. For the rest of my hot drinks during the day, I steam some milk and then drop a mini-chocolate bar in... yummm. The best hot chocolate!

I'm sorry that this is the year anniversary of losing your last baby. Those days are so hard. Very few people understand. Everyone is always so excited for u/s, and it's such a huge shock to get bad news.

I also know how you feel about the bitterness of 'at least you know you can get pregnant' (which is sooooo hard to hear!). I'm so terrified that it'll take us a really long time to get pregnant again. I've been pregnant 3 times, but my 2 viable pregnancies were more than a year apart. I can't imagine a whole year from now and still not being pregnant, but it's a super real possibility. I'm super jaded too...

Hopefully we'll meet up to celebrate our BFPs next week! In the meantime --

Becca - good luck today! Have you POAS or not? (sounds like not) Let us know ASAP!

Lydia - ugh. Sorry about your head. Will you at least have a cool scar? My brother hit his head when he was 3, and he has a lightening bolt shaped scar on his forehead! I'm sorry you are so depressed. I know how you feel. Big hugs.

Patricia - I also picked up "PS I love you" thinking it was a stupid chick lit book and then sobbed the whole way through. Have you gotten any blood tests to tell you when AF is showing up?

Neffi - OUCH. That is awful. I watch "16 & Pregnant" and "Teen Mom". There was a girl on "16 & Pregnant" that decided to give her baby for adoption to her aunt and uncle (no agency - and more importantly - no counseling for her). When the baby is born, she decides to keep him. Then after a week, she gives him to her aunt and uncle. Then a few weeks later, she flies to see them and tries to take the baby back. How awful. Don't people realize how devastating that is for the adoptive parents? I know that placing a child for adoption is incredibly hard and that these young girls need a LOT of counseling, but being able to contact the adoptive family is out of bounds. We are okay with an 'open' adoption, but I don't want the birth parents to be able to contact us directly. That's too crazy. I hope this works out for the best. Can you suggest counseling for her? Have her talk to an adoption counselor, or other birth moms, and make her see that 'co-parenting' is never going to happen.

Bodie - We watched some of Vampire Diaries - but it was a bit too 'teen drama' for me! I like the sex and gore of True Blood But 100% - Damon and not Stefan. HOT!

Kala - hurrah for AF! Will you be in Serbia for Christmas if your transfer is Dec 28? (apologies if you don't celebrate! I don't, but almost everyone I know from the USA I know does!)

AFM - GAH! Tomorrow! GAH! I hope our frostie thaws well. My biggest nightmare right now is not having anything to transfer tomorrow.

I call my clinic in a little while to see what time they want me to come in tomorrow for my transfer.

I'll POAS in a week or so! GAH!

I'm not sure if I'm excited or dreading it.... we'll see....

I'm keeping SUPER busy today to distract myself. Work, then movie with a friend, then dinner with David.

Hoping for my rainbow in the storm ....

[LYD10]

Leora, I can't believe your transfer is tomorrow! Time flew by. I am really excited for you. Keeping fingers crossed your frosties survive and bring you a BFP.

[Gina1976]

Sunshine- My DH's counts they go by were barely low but I had him take fertility aid. They went up big time!

[Gina1976]

Leora- So excited for you!! Praying!!

[leorira11]

wow. This is making me miss my boys so much....

I have this song in my head. It's from the movie "Enchanted" (which I *love*), but means something different to me than it does in the movie....

You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

(...)

So close to reaching that famous happy ending
Almost believing this one's not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far, we are, so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close
To reaching that famous happy ending
Almost believing this one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

[Ninde]

Just on my way to work so ill post later.

Bet 2 things. Leorira: good luck today! And a question - can I get a blood test to tell me when at is coming? Do you know what its called?

Ninde

[Julia73]

Dh stayed home with me all day. I can't remember who asked but this was my first cycle. So we haven't been at it very long and I feel pretty stupid being this upset but I've never felt this kind of pain before. When u lose someone you usually have memories/pictures/things you think of. How do you mourn lives you didn't know, but knew were in you? Imho they were my babies the moment sperm fertilized them. There is no more beta. They said stop the pio and set up a post ivf consult to discuss next steps. Idk how long you have to wait between cycles but I'm not sure that I wanna do it again until january. I hope the pain on this board eases up. We need some good news.

[Julia73]

Stupid phone. Double post sorry.

[Julia73]

Tmi alert...i have a question...i just went to the bathroom and afm using tampons now since the bfn, when I went to change it, there was a small small white fleshy like thing on it. Blood was around it. Right before I went in there I contracted a bit. No gush of blood or anything and I realize I'm hyper sensitive to what's going on but could that possibly have been one of the embies? I put it in the freezer. I think I'm going crazy. This doesn't feel like a period at all. I keep contracting. But I would only have been 13 days pregnant so how could it be mc?? Am I losing it? If I afm please overlook this post. I just don't have anyone to ask or talk to. Not that understands.

[SamanthaRae21]

Hey ladies, sorry I didnt post my results yesterday but we got sad news...BFN...and the DH and and I needed to take the night to mourn and lean on one another for support. I cried most of the night and just needed some downtime. We will follow up with RE to discuss things and next steps...

Thank you for all your support

[Gina1976]

Samantha- I'm sorry to hear that!! Nothing wrong with taking some downtime. Glad you and your DH could be there for one another.

[Gina1976]

We- Continued prayers for you and your son. ((HUGS))