Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[LauraN]

Ninde- I LOVE to gamble, but suck at it! I see how people get addicted to it, thank goodness I live in a state that doesn't have gambling for the most part, and the indian reservation that they do have here would require me to drive several hours, and then that would reinforce my gambling addiction. They also have a boat that goes out and you can gamble, but again, would require me to drive hours to get to it. It is different with the cruise, because then I can pretend that I'm there for other things...ha! I love slots......and blackjack. I play all of the time on my phone and online, but only the fun kind, not with real money- I would be bankrupt! I save that for my IVF treatments.

[bodie1011]

Leora, Happy Bunny, JenMink - What a sad day on the boards. Thinking of you all three and hoping for the best outcomes.

Rosie - Congrats on the twins! I hope the next few weeks go by quickly so you can put your heart at ease.

Christy - thanks for setting up the calendar! How fun

[LYD10]

Tess, I ve had an ectopic last spring. In my case there was no pain, nothing, just slow rising betas until they finally saw something in the tube. So that's how they knew it was ectopic and I got a shot of methotrexate to stop the tubal pregnancy. That's how it went for me.

[LYD10]

Julia, menopur side effects are very similar to gonal F or follistim side effects as it is pretty similar med. for me I get emotional when my hormones and E2 rises and I also get a stuffy nose because E2 makes your membranes produce more mucus and hence clogged up nasal passages. Other than that not much. It also stings a bit going in vs follistim I noticed.

[bonnieucwv]

Ninde-- Thank you so much for always asking about everyone!! You are so sweet! i am good just getting all together for tomorrow then waiting to see if we are going back in 3 or 5 days,... beginning to get nervous!!

[blessed143]

Hi ladies... I am still watching and reading the board daily. I am sorry that I have not posted more. I am battling a few things inside and I have needed sometime away. I am so thankful for the pregnancy and so blessed. God is so good and He has been so good to us. I pray that the pregnancy continues to go forward in the right direction. I think its the hormones and the nerves that make me slightly crazy. I am pryaing for you all...

Leora- Thinking of you! I am pulling for you and praying that things are going to end well for you! I am so sorry. What a horrible thing. Thinking of you and DH!

Rosie- Congrats on the twins! What a blessing!

jenmink- I hope that things are going well with you and that the lo is just fine in there.. Thinking of you!

gina- Sorry to hear about DH. That does not sound fun.... ouch.... Sorry about the niece..... My Dh's young 20ish niece said she is pregg again with 2nd kid. First one not even a year old-with a different man... but whatever. I need to look at the positive. It is hard to hear things like that when we struggle to get pregnant... but blah.... thinking of you! Praying for you

Thinking of you all. I hope that you are all doing well... Forgive me for not bing so active.

Figure I would answer the questions.... hehe

1. Your Birthday? April 4
2. Favorite Hobby or Sport? anything with the ocean and the family.....
3. Favorite food/chocolate? Sushi yum yum yum..... and milkyway
4. Best all time movie? ooohhh... I am not sure... way to many to list
5. Your dream vacation getaway? Bora Bora with the hubby.... but would love to go to Italy and see Europe...

[Sunshine1576]

Our Birthday List: This includes my present and past cycling buddies…May our new year be filled with many blessings!
JULIA- DEC 13
LYD10-Dec 13
KERPUPPLES (Amy)- FEBRUARY 3
GINA- MARCH 5
BLESSED- APRIL 4
BLUE-EYE-DREAMER- APRIL 28
LAURA- APRIL 28
KYNLEE- MAY 23
BONNIE- MAY 29
ANTON (Antonia)- JUNE 11
BODIE (Ilene)- JULY 4
SUNSHINE1576 (Christy)- July 15
LEORA- July 31
MARIA (WeHaveHope) - AUGUST 21
AMANDA- SEPTEMBER 2
JAYNE (Amy)- OCT 5
NINDE (Patricia)- OCT 5
JENMINK- OCT 2
TESS (Wendy)- NOV 23

ROSIE
KIMINISH
KALA
NEFFI
LYDIA
FRUIT
KERRI
MARGI
MOOREBABY
FELICIA
INDIGO
AKDELP
KAMINA
CT-MICHELLE
JASMIN
GREEKCHICK
BLISSFULCS
LOU71- November 28
RYPELL- (Ryann)
ANNASHOPE
SUNSHINEANDSTARS
HOPEFULMOMMY
OUTLAW
BLAIRWITCH58
KLINGER13
MAMABOO
HAPPYBUNNY
DALLAS
HOPEISALLIHAVE
RIOGIRL
MELLOW4
BABY_BLU73
SWEETPEA614
TAMARA
TUFFY4U
K8IELOVETT
SAMANTHARAE21
CHERRI76
I will be editing this as I collect more birthdays, going to see how many we can get by the end of this year. I see we have two December birthdays so far!

[WeHaveHope]

Dear friends,
I am so sorry for all of the bad news kn the board in the past few days. Please know that I am always praying for each ad everyone of you. You are all very dear to me and I am praying for all of you. Thank you all for your prayers. DS is doing as well as can be expected. He still has not wanted to talk about his father's death but I try to make sure that he knows that I am here for him whenever he is ready to talk. I love him so much I wish that I could ease his pain. It's been very difficult. I'm still grieving DS fathers passing and I greive for my DS for the pain he is going through.

I have an appointment with a Hematologist tomorrow at 11am. We will see what she says about my diagnosis and treatment. I've heard she is excellent and has worked with IVF doctors on these types of cases.

Sorry for no personals but please know I send you all my love and will continue to pray for all of you.


Sunshine-thank you so much for the birthday calendar. Great idea!

Your friend,

Maria

[Sunshine1576]

Maria, I will keep your son in my prayers. Know it's going to take time for him to accept what happened. All anyone can do is to continue to be there for him and remind him how much he is loved by his family. Your dh spending time with him I know means alot to him too.

AFM: my mom called to reconfirm my visit home for the holidays. As I said before we don't travel home much, but I always keep my door opened for friends/family to come visit me. Most of all I try to protect myself and especially my dh, since he goes through states of depression. I would give anything to tell him good news on Dec. 10th just to tell him we are pregnant again would help us feel one step closer. My plans for Christmas are to spend Sunday the 19th with my oldest brother and his family. My middle brother and his new family (baby Will turned 1 years old two weeks ago) will also be there, so I'm doing whatever I can to remain calm and collected but everytime I see this baby I cannot help but compare him to everything ours would of been into. Please pray that I can stay strong infront of my own family most of all...I know the holidays won't be easy for any of us, but I also know it's not right to hide from them either....although I sometimes whether! I try to remind myself that everything will be so different this time next year...

[LYD10]

Sunshine my birthday is also dec 13, just like Julia's

[Sunshine1576]

LYD10, thank you for letting me know, I just updated the list and will get more creative once we have everyone's birthday. I'm big on celebrating birthdays even at work I set aside a calender just for their special days...It means so much to them too.

[JenMink55]

Sunshine- My BD is 9-2 =]

Thanks for all the special thoughts. I have almost made it 48 hours without bleeding - PRAISE GOD. Once I got another 24 hours I will feel more secure. I have another U/S on 12-12 which seems like forever!! I am still cramping but it's minor and comes and goes. Ugh-- I don't trust my body at ALL. I didn't realize going pee could cause so much anxiety and stress.

Leora- I am so sorry for what you are going through. This breaks my heart that 1 person has to deal with so much sadness. I know the numb feeling all too well. I am hoping you are the exception to the rule! Keep the faith although I know that is easier said than done since I am trying the same for myself. My love to you- I am praying for you. xoxo

Tess-I am sorry you are in Beta hell- been there with a Chemical Pregnancy last year. I don't know about ectopic but I hear you will know based on pain. I am really hoping your little one got a slow start- I am so frusterated for all of us going through stress and heartbreak.

Ninde/Anton - Thank you for the thoughts and well wishes my beautiful friends =]

Fruit- The last few weeks on this board have been full of sadness and loss- I know what you mean. There are some days that I cannot stand to read the heartbreak going on. I find myself getting very depressed because my heart breaks for these woman. I am also lifted up by the courage they all have, the human spirit is amazing!!!

Rosie- congrats on 2 HB's!! I am also measuring 2-3 days behind. I am still concerened but I am hoping for the best.

Damn- my laptop battery is about to die. UGH! I will catch up tomorrow once it's charged. I am heading to bed and praying for all of you tonight.

xoxox Jennifer

[leorira11]

Patricia - I shouldn't be 5 hours ahead of Ireland! We are one hour ahead of continental Europe, which means 2 hours ahead of Greenwich time (and you). (This fluctuates based on daylight savings time - but everyone should be on 'winter' time now.) It sucks when clinics have weight requirements. As if we needed more pressure and more stress! I have no tips for losing weight. I've been steadily gaining since we lost the boys - grrr.

Jen - you can't go in for an u/s earlier because of the bleeding? For me, anytime I have any bleeding at all, I'm supposed to go in for an u/s. You asked your clinic? After seeing a heartbeat, even with bleeding, your chance of miscarriage is low. They say that 30% of women have 1st trimester bleeding, but only half of those miscarry.

Wendy - ugh. This sucks for you too. You'd think getting pregnant would be the hard part... are you planning to try again after this?

Kerri - I know how you feel. A bunch of my friends keep telling me "why do you want a baby? have fun instead!" I know that having a baby isn't any fun (sleepless nights, dirty diapers, terrible-twos, teenage years, etc) - but when I look back on my life in 30 years from now, I want to have children as part of that. Yeah, we could 'take a break' for a few years, but in the long run, we definitely want raising a family to be part of our lives. It's so frustrating how people don't understand that.

Barbara - UGH! I'm so sorry. Did you have any bleeding with Brooke? What did your clinic say?

Rosie - I remember them never being concerned about looking for a yolk sac once we saw a heartbeat. I hope everything is okay with your twins! Previous losses really make you nervous, I know. I hope you can find a way to relax.

Laura - only 10 days until your beta! Good luck with POAS first! How obnoxious that your friend makes judgements about you without understanding the situation. I know the Catholic church is against IVF, but what about Catholics who can't have a baby any other way? Luckily, Judaism is pretty cool about the whole thing (just not donor sperm...grrrr....) --- by the way, I've only gambled once. We were on vacation in Rhodes, Greece and there was a casino across the street from our hotel, so we went. I hated "wasting" money gambling! We played the penny slot machines (the old school ones, with the level you have to pull down). We got 20 Euro in coins and played all night We won back 20 Euro when we were near the end of our bucket and lost it all again!

Antonia - thanks for all your research - but it doesn't help me (see below)

Christy - I think you missed my birthday on the list (July 31).

Lydia - yeah. There are miracle stories, but the vast majority aren't. F*ck. Good luck with your follie scan on Wednesday!

Julia - I've done Menopur on 2 of my 3 fresh cycles. No side effects besides the regular ones (bloating, bruising on injection site, etc). What's annoying is that (at least here in Israel) the Menopur doesn't come in an easy, multi-use pen like the Gonal-F or Follistim. Mine came as vials of powder and vials of liquid. I had to mix it, then switch needles, then inject. Made me feel like a mad scientist!

Gina - ugh. Life sounds so hard. I'm sorry about the news your niece is pregnant. Doesn't it seem that for the WORST people it's so easy?

Bonnie - good luck! Let us know how it goes!

Blessed - the hormones can make you nuts. Try to relax (easier said than done, I know!)

Maria - good luck at the hematologist



AFM - thanks for all the advice. The reason I'm super pessimistic despite all the stories online of women who've had what I've had and been fine is because I know more than most of them do:

1. I know my exact dates - exact date of conception. Even women who are tracking their ovulation can be off a few days. With IVF, I know for sure.

2. I had a trans-vaginal u/s and I know that I don't have a retroverted uterus (because of previous pregnancies).

3. I know there is 0% of a vanishing twin (since we transferred 1 embryo).

those are the main explanations for women who have what I have but end up being fine.

UGH.

I'm just wondering why the bleeding STOPPED. Anyone have a miscarriage at this stage and can share their experience?
I'm hoping we can do our fresh cycle in a month or two. Hopefully, I'll start BCP after this is over and then start a fresh cycle after that. I hope they don't make me wait some stupid arbitrary amount of time.

We haven't told anyone "in real life" yet. I think we want to wait for final news before we break it to our parents/siblings.

I kinda want to post on facebook, if we lose this baby. Miscarriage is so taboo, but a lot of my friends have picked up that 'something' is wrong. I hate that miscarriage is taboo (and sharing early pregnancy news is 'bad'). Maybe I'll post on facebook to explain why we are so depressed...

[Tess69]

Jen - so glad to hear you have stopped bleeding. Is there anyway you can get an u/s more quickly than the 12th? That's ages away. I absolutely agree that it's time we had some good news on this board. It's been a pretty grim few weeks.

Leora - I hope your doing okay and that you get to be the good news I'm thinking of you and realise that this has probably been a really really shit day for you.

Lyd and Kerri - thank you for your advice re ectopics. I'm really hoping it's chemical rather than ectopic. I guess the good thing with IVF is that we are monitored really early on so there should be no need for ruptured tubes! Kerri the story about your story in-law was amazing. Do you know how slowly her HCG levels rose? Mind are drastically slow so I'm really not holding out much hope. I agree that it can sometimes be so difficult to be around family/friends with babies. One of my best friends is 6 months pregnant, and my work colleague who sits next to me has a newborn. One of my other colleagues talks about nothing but her two children and keeps telling me how naughty they are. I got so annoyed with this the other day that I told her that her children would turn out to be naughty if she kept on saying that about them - self-fulfilling prophecy and all that! Grrr!! There's my wee vent.

Sunshine - you are such a lovely caring person. I really hope that you get to share good news before Xmas.

We - I hope your appt at the haemotologist goes well tomorrow and that you get some solutions to the way forward from here.

Ninde - Thank you so much for thinking of me. I'm feeling pretty good to be honests. I only had four days to get used to the idea of being pregnant. That's a whole lot easier to undo than 20 weeks. I'm looking forward to a break from it all and a fresh start in 2012. How long have you been following your eating regimen? I have put on about 15 kgs since doing IVF and know that losing weight would give me a much better chance of conceiving. It's so hard though. I'm a stress eater and every time something goes wrong which is quite a bit over the last couple of years, I seek comfort in the yumminess of food.

Bonnnie - good luck tomorrow.

For all those that have have hard times in 2011, 2012 is just around the corner and it IS going to be a cracker of a year. May everybody's New Year wishes come true.

For those have had had good news in 2011, may 2012 be even better still.

AFM - I've stopped my progesterone pessaries and have started having my daily caffeine shot at the crazy coffee place across from work. I swear the guy is on drugs. He seems to have got his dose rate right at the moment as he hasn't told anyone to f*ck off lately. He just makes such great coffee...I'm quite happy to put up with getting expletives yelled at me in return for a great latte.

[blueeyedreamer]

Yeah, I have a birthday buddy!