Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[WeHaveHope]

Neffi-honey, I know how you feel, but please do not stop your meds until you have your Beta, please. I know it's awful, I've been there but you don't want to ruin any chances just in case the Hcg is not being picked up by the HPTs. With my first MC I continued all my meda for several days but I did not want to regret it later. I don't want you to regret it later. Please don't loose hope. The chance is still there. Sending you a big hug.

[Sunshine1576]

Gina, thank you for always being there, it's good that you all can relate to what I'm going through with the family stuff, and I know somehow we will survive this Christmas, because we focus on the blessings we do have. We have a loving family, they are just lazy when it comes to traveling. lol

Leora, Retail isn't that bad where I work because it's a ladies boutique, high-end merchandise catered to a specific demographic market, most of them who shop are planning a 2 week cruise or vacation resort. Quite fun outfiting them but it has been kind of slow these last few days... I think with our staff of 9 and most of us working today, we were chatting more then working, looking back probably could of up hours somewhere to help store payroll. Hoping it picks up for them this evening!

Anyway, I am about to walk out the door to make our roadtrip to Alabama, will be home midweek and talk to you all then. Enjoy your upcoming week!

[moorebaby]

AFM-thanks for asking. I was on BCP before my D&C and endometrial biopsy. Im on 2 Estrogen Patches right now and go up to 3 patches tomorrow and then 4 patches two days after that. I go for lining check on 12-23 and start PIO on Christmas Day 12-25. IM injections for Christmas, just what I've always wanted. We are leaving for our trip on Christmas night and will return on 12-29. If all goes a's planned, transfer is set for 12-30. I'm pretty numb to this whole process this time. I feel like I'm just going through the motions. I guess it's just a protective mechanism because of all the dissapointments. I had my repeat blood work for the Type II Protein S Deficiency, but the Hematologist is convinced that the first test was accurate. She said that she's never seen a resultthat low that hasn't been a true Protein S Deficiency but repeating the blood work is just part of the protocol. So if an when we get a BFP, the plan is to start Lovenox 40mf SQ Injections daily.

Oh, Maria, I'm really hoping that the Lovenox is the key to a long & healthy pregnancy for you! I will be praying for you. I know whatyou mean about feeling numb & just going through the motions...I felt like that w/ the 4 BFNs. I'm really hopeful that this time will be different for you.

[moorebaby]

I just poased to make sure the Internet tests were working and I am glad I did. The line - detecting my trigger hCG - 6 days after the trigger - was very faint. And it took a fairly long time to come up. So now I know what to expect form these tests. And I guess I almost missed my trigger. I thought the trigger was supposed to hang around for 10 days... I guess we ll see. I'll try again in a few days to see if it's gone.

I'm praying for a nice BFP for you...I'll be "watching" you, lol!

[moorebaby]

ok...beta #1....328.... next beta not until Tuesday.

Congrats!!! Can't wait to hear Tuesday's number!

[LYD10]

Neffi,I am so sorry. I know it is so hard. But please don't stop the mess before talking to RE. Who knows maybe you've got a bad batch of tests.

WE,sounds like you
Be got a solid plan for this cycle! I am very hopeful for you!

Leora, nice move on saving those beta scripts. I wish I could do that here.

aFM, i am watching my trigger line get fainter on my amazon HPTs. It's nice to see a positive line even if it's fake. Leora, believe those are the same strips you use. I am now very familiar with the location of the positive line,so i know what to look for next week. Oy you yoy,I am so scared this cycle won't work. It is so weird, when we were discussing how many embryos to transfer with m husband and doc and embryologist,everyone but me is so conservative. Are you sure you want to put in 3 they ask me? I am like, people, you have very bad memory. I ve transferred 10 embryos so far of similar, maybe slightly worse, quality, and got one pregnancy and one ectopic. So at best it's 1 out of 5 for me. And you are worried about triplets and twins? You've got to be kidding me! I am lucky to get one strong beta at the end of this 2 week wait. I would not be surprised to get a negative frankly. Also, since we didn't do PGD, becaus we didn't think we were going to have strong enough embryos to do it, probably half of the embryos are genetically incorrect. Which means 1 good embryo out of 3 transferred. Here is hoping it finds a good spot and is not kicked up a tube or something. Urghhh,I can't wait - I am only 5dpo, not even at the implantation stage.

[moorebaby]

Sorry that I'm usually MIA over the weekends - somehow I'm much busier when not working than working! 7:30am on a Sunday morning -- and sitting at my desk at work. I don't really have much work to do - so I have plenty of time to catch up with my gals!

AFM - ugh. I thought I had stopped bleeding (no bleeding at all over the weekend) but it seems to have started again - maybe because of our <ahem> activities last night. Ugh. I just want this to be OVER already! I'm dying to start my new cycle.

I'm debating when to get my next blood test. The nice thing about Wednesday is, that if my beta is zero, I can do baseline on Thursday. My clinic is closed Fri/Sat, so if I do my beta on Thursday and it's negative, I have to wait until Sunday.

BUT --- all blood taking labs are open only for 'urgent' things on Wednesday -- all the doctors offices are closed because of Chanukah (only the first day, which is Wednesday). So... is my follow up beta considered "urgent"? If I show up, will they do it? Should I not risk that, and just go a different day? Which different day, Tuesday (when it's more likely not to be zero because it's earlier) or Thursday (when I couldn't start until Sunday)?

I guess I'll go Tuesday.... Fingers crossed that it's super super super low - or even zero!

I've got everything crossed that you get the green light on Tuesday. I cannot believe what an emotional rollercoaster you have been on! You're such a strong & admirable woman...don't ever give up!

[LauraN]

Neffi- please don't stop your meds before talking to your RE. There is always hope.

AFM- We had a great time on the Riverwalk. I would like to go down there in the evening to actually see the pretty Christmas lights. So, when we were having lunch, OMG- I got so sick, I wanted to throw up, but never could....reminds me of when I was pregnant with my first son- except with him, I was sick the entire pregnancy and was sick all day long. That was the only time yesterday that I felt sick. It was a great seeing my ex in laws and the boys had a great time, so that was what is important. I was a little sick to my stomach this morning, but it went away quickly. So far, I'm just really, really tired all of the time. I swear, I guess I'm not sleeping enough or something. I wake up and then within a few hours, I'm ready to crawl back in bed. The weather has been a little yucky around here the past few weeks and so there hasn't been very much sun- that could also be making me tired. Who knows!

I will catch up later and do more personals, and of course, I will post on Tuesday once I get my 2nd beta results.

[Gina1976]

Neffi- Praying for you. Yes please don't stop your medication! Hang it there!!


Maria- Praying for you also. I really hope you get a BFP and have a healthy pregnancy!

You and Leora are truly an inspiration for us all!!

[indigofire]

Hi Ladies,

Sorry I've been MIA...I've had exams and family holiday obligations.

I haven't been on the boards again in a long time. So catching up I will be doing soon. Just wanted to let everyone know that my lining check on Friday was good. Started PIO today and transfer is on Wed. Dec. 21. Yule. Which is such a perfect date for us, as we're pagan and Yule is the celebration of rebirth! It's a renewed chance. The nurses at the clinic are so hopeful as they say these embryos are very strong and come from a great family, they're donated. So keeping our fingers crossed. We chose to transer 2. Hoping for a singleton.

Baby dust to all!
Indigo

[Neffi211]

Dont worry ladies....I haven't stopped the PIO or the Estrace, just the Viagra which is not going to make or break this pregnancy. The Viagra costs me $20 a day and I was not going to refill it without a + HPT. I would have stopped it soon anyway even if I was pregnant, which I'm not. I am sick though. UGH, hope I feel better by Christmas.

[bonnieucwv]

i am not sure that POAS really makes or breaks proof for a pregnancy does it??.. according to my md the meds you take before your transfer will keep you from a positive POAS so please dont give up hope and stop your meds!! I am 7dp5dt and i also had a neg POAS this am but i really are not going to be to concerned till i get that BETA,.... How many have been able to get a + POAS before a BETA????

[Ninde]

Evening ladies

Christy: well done to your dh about the travelling. I realize its harder for people with kids to travel, etc, but it shouldnt always be that this without them have any the less reason for not travelling! As for yournsister-in-law?! You are making a huge trip the very least she could do is drive 45 minutes. After all that, have a wonderful trip

Bonnie: how are you feeling now?

Leorira: we didnt get any embryos to freeze last time so it will be fresh. Im hoping the supplements and accupuncture will improve the quality so we have some to freeze should we need them. I would wait until Thursday and then start on Sunday, christmas day, I know you dont celebrate it, but it would be a day when the world's energy is definately more positive

Blue: you arnt being whiny. Your parents in law have to be told, its just too unfair on you to have to go on pretending. Does your sister in law know about your m/c? If she does then shame on her for pushing you to be there and if she doesn't, when she knows hopefully she will back off. I hope you dont have to go to them on christmas day x

Gina: that's tough in terms of being away from family. But next time your mum asks - challenge her - invite her to cme, there is no reason why it should all be one way

Maria: being numb is difficult but as you said, its protecting you too. The only thing is that numbness actually takes a lot of psychological energy to maintain because its holding back so much emotion. So please go gently x

Neffi: im sorry you feel that this cycle hasn't worked. Im hoping its just late implantation but i know this must be awful for you

Lyd: here's hoping one of those embryos is making a bee-line for a lovely spot in your womb

LauraN: you sound exhausted. I hope you sleep well. Sending you some sun

Indigo: best of luck. Probably because im of celtic heritage, I've looked into pagan and wican festivals and traditions in the past. And yule is beautiful. Its an important day where in ireland with the tomb in Newgrangebeing a very important place for gatherings from all over the world for the solstice. So as the sun is reborn on the 21st my wish is for a beautiful creation and rebirth in you

Afm: nice day. My twin sister and i invited mymum's family to my dads for a christmas tea. My mum died 3 years ago on our birthday and my dad is awful at making an effort so we did it in their house. It was funny and nice and my mum was definately hovering. You might remember my uncle died about six weeks ago and he was her youngest brother. He had a wonderful wit which my twin has inherited and so we have a saying here that really fits "he will never be dead while she is alive"

So I'll say good night now and offer a prayer for all of us who have lost parents, babies, loved ones and friends. May they walk with us on our journeys

Ninde

[kbillsy]

Sunshine - hope you have a great trip!

Nefi and Bonnie - good luck to you with your betas! I only got the + POAS pre-beta with the early results test. The dollar store tests were showing negative even up to day before my beta.

Lyd - I agree with you putting 3 embryos in - we did too and I've had people asking me if I'm afraid of triplets. I don't think they get that the bigger fear is not getting even 1 that sticks. After many failed cycles, I was just so happy to have 3 good ones to work with!

Leora - good luck for a LOW number so you can get your party started!

Moorebaby- so good to see you here and that you are pregnant with twins!! I'm so happy that it finally worked for you! Hope to be joining you on the pg board soon - just want to have my u/s first to confirm everything is ok.

AFM - today has been much better than yesterday - no more bleeding! I did pretty much lay flat for 14 hours straight between last night and this morning. This afternoon has been much of the same - Christmas cookies can wait! I still think I'm going to call the dr office again in the morning to see if we can get the U/S done earlier to make sure everything is ok. Until then, just going to continue praying

[blueeyedreamer]

Leora- I have started the BCP for the FET. I haven't rec'd my schedule yet but it should be the same as before. That was 5 weeks of BCP, suppression check, then 2 weeks of Vivelle dots (estrogen patches) with lining checks working up from 2 patches every other day to 4 patches every other day, then on to the PIO shots and transfer.

Ninde- Yes, SIL knows. Dh told his brother the first time we talked to him after the D&C. We had a talk about this at dinner Fri night. SIL did support telling them ASAP, but advised against it last week when we were there. That was mostly because MIL had had a rough day.

DH knows this is a sore subject for me and I can tell he is just as bothered as I am. He just won't say it. I told him he is in charge of telling his parents. I told mine, two hours after the u/s that showed it had ended and 4 days before the D&C.

I've gotten to the point of just saying F*** it. It is what it is. We are now one month past the D&C so it is becoming quite ridiculous.

On another note, I'm trying to figure out what cookies to make for my neighbors this year. I always bake, wrap, and deliver! It's become a tradition. I think I'm going to make dog biscuits for Bella's friends