Christy - I really hope you start soon!
AFM - visit to the hospital went well last night. Thanks for all the advice. I *know* she is a toxic friend and I've been distancing from her, although she hasn't 'taken the hint' so maybe I need to do something direct. Everyone (including her) is still assuming we are best friends. I haven't cut her out of my life yet, but definitely distancing... I'm taking everything she says with a GIANT grain of salt.
The baby is cute. Small (5lb 7oz/2.6kg) but doing great. She keeps calling him "early" and saying she was so surprised how he came so early -- but 38 weeks isn't really early! She had a super fast 6 hours labor - no time for an epidural. By the time she got to the hospital, it was time to push.
We stayed for an hour last night hanging out, the 4 of us (well, 5, but baby was sleeping most of the time!). I held the little guy the whole time. The only time that was REALLY hard was when the 2 of them left to find a nurse to get a diaper and DH & I were alone with the baby. DH had been sitting across the room, avoiding the baby (he has a harder time than I do with other people's babies). He came over and started touching the baby and looking at me. That was hard. Even just typing this, I'm starting to cry.
I really hope this happens for us someday....
This morning was HELL!
Yesterday, I woke up with (what I KNEW) is a UTI. I get them alllll the time. I'm usually super good about urinating after sex, but I forgot on Saturday (ok - to be honest, I was in a happy daze and was too damn lazy), so 'just my luck' I have a UTI. I went to my regular doctor's clinic (they have an on-call doctor in early morning hours for things like this). Urine test and antibiotics -- easy-peasy, but I hate the painful urination feeling. Luckily, I got myself some good drugs.
Then off to the IVF clinic. The lines have gotten RIDICULOUS! Apparently, they are short-funded and can't hire more staff. The u/s tech also complained that most women take forever to get undressed/redressed. is it only me, but I dress specifically keeping mind that I'll need to take my clothes off and on quickly? I always wear shoes that zip/velcro instead of tie, one layer of bottoms, etc. She says it's worse in the winter because people have shoes/tights/leggings/etc... ugh!
1.5 hour wait for my u/s!
Nothing on the u/s, not even the teeny sac we saw last week. I'm still waiting for them to call with blood results and instructions. I'm betting on more waiting -- because unless the beta is lower than before, we still won't know if it's going up or down. I'm betting another blood test on Thursday --- I just hope I don't need another u/s!
I met "Rosie" for dinner last night. She is so cute with a little baby bump!
It's hard that she's exactly 1 week ahead of where I should be.... We talked a lot about clinics here...I think we are going to try to change clinics. I'm not sure I would want to if I had to "waste" cycling time, but we are stuck until March anyways, so might as well use the time.
I spent HOURRRSSS on the phone this morning, trying to figure stuff out about switching. In the end, I made appts with 2 different clinics --- 1 is the same type of public clinic like where I am now - but closer to work (I picked my current clinic because they were closest to my old job -- now the commute is a big schlep!), and the other is a "private" clinic, but I would be using a "public" doctor to do my cycles there -- ie, use the public (ie FREE) clinics to meet the doctor and do the monitoring, but the private hospital for the ER/ET (and their embryology lab). Rosie did this and had a much better experience than at the public clinics.
I have one appt on Jan 22 and the other Feb 5....
and we leave for our cruise on Feb 17!
Anyone been to Barcelona? We have an extra day there -- any tips on what to see/what to skip?
(sorry I've been slacking with personals. I'm reading all the time... just a lazy (STRESSED OUT!) bum)
Rest yourself and try to think positive for your LO. Your beta is super and I will pray that it double’s tomorrow! ((HUGS))
I have different category for these kind of “friends”. I hope your visit at the hospital went well and no bitter words came out of her mouth this time!.... 
...again! it was one of those times that I get hit by a train or a missile! 
... Last summer, we went out for dinner with her and her husband (whom has grown with my DHand have a great friendship between them) and two more friend couples and she was pregnant with her 4th boy at that time and the other friend pregnant with her second. And they were teasing her that she is a having a boy again and not a girl that she wanted and she goes (the toxic one, the one with the 4 boys) “there are couples that go through IVF to have a whatever baby and I have 4! isn't that super! The next one (5th) is going to be a girl! I know it!” ...and again I got hit by a missle! 
I have read a lot on maca and royal jelly, COQ10 and they seem to do magic!There are many ladies in our board that had them and with good results. Suggestions anyone? 
Oh well, there’s a first time for everything. There is this section at the pub where he has leather couches and TV’s everywhere showing the game and we sat there watching the game it was like we were at home watching it 
