Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Gina1976]

Christy- Thanks. I will say this year is passing by pretty quickly! You will be cycling very soon! Glad to hear your DH's SA's have improved!!

Leora- Less than 1 week away, that's great!! I understand wanting and not wanting to test. I take one every so often just in case and it always gets me down no matter what. Miracles happen though, so you never know!

[Ninde]

Hello ladies

Maria: they are beautiful names. How are you?

Julia: how are you doing today?

Nicole: how are your legs?

Gina: any news on your date yet?

Cyn: how are you today? Isntbit awful that the symptoms dont stay?! But dont worry, that doesn't mean they arnt happening.

LauraN: you just be getting close to er?

Globe: how are you?
Christy: believe me im a beginner! That's great you dont have to be on bcp for both months. How are you feeling?

Hopethisworks: that's quite a regimen!!

Leora: did you take a test?

Afm: oh im so symptom spotting!! I've had a fairly crappy headache since last night and a bit of backache today. What's hilarious is that my dh cheers whenever I tell him of a cramp!!!

[kynlee]

Leora- I wish I had the right words to say I know how hard this Journey is, I cant imagine going through what you have been through on this rollercoaster... Please know you are always in my thoughts an prayers and I know your dream will happen for you... You and David so deserve to have a child... Sending you a huge hug from RI

[kynlee]

Leora- I wish I had the right words to say I know how hard this Journey is, I cant imagine going through what you have been through on this rollercoaster... Please know you are always in my thoughts an prayers and I know your dream will happen for you... You and David so deserve to have a child... Sending you a huge hug from RI

[kynlee]

We- Congrats how exciting Team Pink

[kynlee]

Ninde- & Cyn Thanks for the Acupuncture info I am calling someone this week to look into cost etc..

[Julia73]

Leora-glad you feel a little better. 3 more days to wait feels like 3 weeks at this point! Still no bleeding though and not too much cramping right now, it happens off and on through the day though. You're getting close to starting, I totally understand the apprehension.

Ninde-i'm ok, thank you for asking! How are you?? Any new twinges? Hope everything is calm. So funny about your Dh!

[LauraN]

ER on friday. I have another appt in the morning and then we will trigger tomorrow night.

[Cyn22]

Had a mini break down last night.. But after my DH said its not over until its over plus we have frozen embryos so we can try again and again and again.. Just hearing that gave me the boost and hope we can do this!! 4 days to go too scarred to POAS so I think I am going to pass...
Feeling some pulling and slight cramps with a headache but also very dizzy like my blood pressure is up. Here at work but I have a sofa in my office so I get to lay down anytime I want..
Just had to vent...
thanks ladies!!

[Julia73]

Cyn- I totally understand how you are feeling! I was pretty good compared to last cycle) until the last couple of days. I'm cramping as I type, and of course it is amplified to the nth degree! I want to poas and almost had my primary physician talked into testing me today until he decided that the clinic would be miffed about it most likely...but i'm not doing it. Dh feels strongly about it and frankly, I wouldn't trust the results either way. Hang in there chick. Not long now!

[rypell1985]

***crashing***
Leora-I know I never post, but I check on you multiple times a week. I just wanted you to know that you have one more cheerleader on your sidelines and I'll keep praying until you bring a baby home with you. If anyone is deserving of a baby, it is you and David. Sending you hugs!

Sonya-nice to see you back! I'll be rooting for you as well DH and I have decided not to get back on this ivf rollercoaster ever again! Props to you, and tOns of baby dust your way.

To all the other ladies on here-you may not know me, but I add each and every one of you to my prayers every day. I'm wishing you all the babies you so deserve

[Sunshine1576]

Dear Friends-

Unfortunately there are a change of plans for me...How do I best say this other then I'm mostly still in shock from dh losing his job today (due to a huge budget-cut back). I mean seriously all he got was a short letter stating his contract isn't being renewed and he has to the end of the semister which is ONLY four weeks... I'm thinking we'll be relocating once again all depending on where his job takes us but I made the mistake of telling him I like it here. On the flipside of things, my mom is still coming tomorrow....omg what am I going to do???? dh doesn't want my family knowing but I'm definately going to need some support. Why does life have to be so unfair???

I'm figuring the next best thing is for me to go ahead and take the promotion at work to full-time so I can pick up some benefits and hold off fertility treatment for a while...truth is with my job alone it would barely cover our mortgage pymt and I wouldn't even want to attempt to sell right now just knowing what the housing market looks like right now! Even though dh doesn't want us to cancel everything with IVF I cannot go in there with a major loan costing us $500 in monthly payments with not knowing what our employment looks like, heck to be honest and brutal it wouldn't be feasible. Maybe this is God's way of saying He has bigger plans out there for us? I cannot even wrap my mind around what just happened and my whole house needs to be cleaned before my mom comes..ugh what if we lose our house...oh no I won't let that happen! This feels like I woke up from a bad dream and I cannot even tell the girls at work. I don't want sympathy just a place to journalize my feelings so I don't go COMPLETELY insane. Dh needs me to be strong and supportive as ever but right now I am not that person, right now I'm just falling apart. I just want to fast-forward my life 5 years down the road to see how we get through this trying time. I never would wish this life-change upon anyone, it feels like somebody died, well our dreams just vanished in mid-air...and I feel so depressed right now and life-less. How does one get through this trying time other then praying for God, I just pray for my dh so much that he doesn't lose his sanity.

So here's to my last post related to fertility treatment for a while, I wish you ladies all the best in the whole wide world! Yes I'm afraid to get back on here because I know I would just cry, but there's nothing I want more to see you all make it.
With All My Love,
Christy

[babysoft10]

Hi Ladies,

Sorry I've been MIA...instead of going straight home from our road trip we decided to take another trip I'm completely exhuasted and have missed you guys a lot! I have so much catching up to do, so I'll probably hog the board for the next couple of posts.

Maria - CONGRATULATIONS!! I'm sooooo happy for you....two little ladies! How wonderful!!

Ninde - I've thought about you a lot and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for your BFP!! I hope you are resting and the days are zooming by!

Christy - I know you don't want sympathy, so I'll give you something better (I hope)...strength through prayer! I will pray for you and your husband. GOD willing, everything will work itself out in time!

Julia - Hang in there not too much longer....crossing fingers for your BFP

Cyn - Hang in there...I understand how you feel....I felt a little depressed right after the transfer thinking about it not working especially since they at first told me I wouldn't have any frozen. When they called a few days latter and said I had 2 frozen left...I felt a whole lot better. Finger crossed for your BFP!!

Laura - Good Luck with trigger and ER...hope you get a good amount of eggs with great quality!!

Leora - I glad to hear you are feeling better today! This journey is definitely hard on all of us, but we are all entitled to our good and bad days. Stay strong and positive! I understand what you were saying about twins and ivf, but I will say I think it's only normal to want the best outcome and since two embies were transferred, my hope for twins is just wanting the best! At the end of the day I think we all just want to have our BFP, reach full term and have the opportunity to raise healthy children.

Greek - Not sure if you are still checking the board, but I hope you are okay!!

Okay I know I missed a lot and I am sorry, but I'll read more and do more personals later.

AFM, Went for my 3rd beta and they messed up my sample and couldn't give me my numbers...so I was a little upset about that. I go tomorrow morning for my 3rd (really 4th) beta and if it's at 2000 then I'll have my u/s on Friday! My clinic is really starting to upset me...would it be wrong for me to leave early and possibly start seeing a high risk ob? I just think them messing up my sample is unacceptable. I mean if there were something wrong they wouldn't know because they don't have my numbers...I may just be overracting.

Loads of babydust and positive energy to everyone!!

[annashope]

crashing for sunshine

Oh dearest sunshine I am so sorry I feel just awful for your situation. I know it seems just terrible right now but I will keep you in my prayers and you are right God does have a plan even though sometimes it makes no sense to us. 4 years ago 2 months after DH and I started ttc I was diagnosed with cervical cancer and told that a complete hysterectomy would be my only treatment. On that SAME day my husband lost his job. I too felt like our life was over. With a $900 a month cobra payment plus all the other bill I thought we were gonna lose everything. Even after my cancer went into remission and we found out we needed fertility treatment we still had to wait a whole year before we could get any health coverage to at least do iui's but we prayed and even though things did not quite work exactly as we wanted back then here we are 5 years fast forward with a beautiful baby---no hysterectomy after finding the only doc who was willing to try an experimental treatment which WORKED. I won't lie it was a very difficult patch for us,,,a very difficult year. Both my father and my grandparents were in near fatal car accidents that year and needed weeks of ICU but we just held on to our faith and God delivered.

I will keep praying for you and even though I don't post on this board I am constantly reading and I was so excited for you cycling in May but it will happen you will see and I will still be here to cheer you on Feel free to vent to us all you want and if you need someone to listen please feel free to pm me. Hugs and please try to take it one day at a time...this is not fair

[Globetrotter]

Sunshine1576, I am so sorry. I hope your DH find another job quickly. Not the kind of stress you needed. In the meantime, it sounds like the promotion may be a good back-up while your DH finds something else.