Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[WeHaveHope]

Julia-woohoo!!! I am so happy fo you. I just knew it. When is your next Beta?

[Ninde]

Julia: yes!!!!!!! Oh that's fantastic!!!!! Im thrilled for you x

Cyn22: im bleeding and it was reassuring to hear your clinic is so used to it! Keeping everything crossed for you x

Ni.de

[LauraN]

Julia- I told you through text, but thought I would put it here too....woo hoo! congrats!!!!!!!

Ninde- are you going nuts yet? Are you going to POAS?

Cyn- anything yet?

We- sorry you are feeling yucky! I hope you feel better soon. I've had 2 sinus infections over the past 3 weeks so I know how you are feeling.

Leora- not sure if I should say happy passover, or how you say it, but I hope you have a peaceful and meaningful holiday.

Sunshine- ok sweetie. I am so sorry to hear your news about your DH. Right before our last cycle, we found out that my DH was losing his job, we went forward with the cycle anyway and 2 days before, he secured a job. Now, I'm not saying that is the right thing to do, because you have to do what makes sense to you guys, but just know, that God will take care of you. Please know that I am praying for you daily!

I know I am missing sooooo many people, and I'm sorry. I am at home, recovery from the ER. I am in a lot more pain this time than with the other two, and that is totally ok, so needles to say, I'm a little high on hydrocodone right now. Party at my house! 2 days ago, when they did the last scan, they showed 8 follies so I was excited to hear that they got 13 eggs. Of course we know that not all of them may be mature enough. I'm anxious to get the fert results tomorrow. Talk to you guys soon!

[LauraN]

Globetrotter- hey girl! You still doing ok out there? when do they think they will be doing your egg retrieval?

[WeHaveHope]

LauraN-thank you do much for your well wishes. Congratulations on a great ER. I can't wait to read about your fertility report. I know it's going to be great.

[Cyn22]

Hello all.. It's a BFN for me! 6.5 was my beta. I'm in shock & tears just writing this.. He can't understand how everything was on track for a perfect baby or babies. Thinks maybe I over Stimmed? I don't get it 3 fresh IVF cycles & not even 1 pregnancy.
We have 5 or 6 frozen embies & he said he thinks a more natural cycle may work. We never had any to freeze so not sure what that all means??

Congrats Julia very happy for you!!!

[Ninde]

Julia: im so sorry, I really am. And you have had such a long day today. I hope that your dh is with you and that you canfind comfort in each other.

Afm: bleeding definately stronger now and its bright red. Tummy gurgling like it does with af. I really thought it would be impossible for af to come so early - im only 8dp2dt. Ugh

Ninde

[WeHaveHope]

Cyn-I am so sorry. I pray that you and DH can find comfort in each other and that God somehow bring peace to your hearts. Please know that I am here for you.

Ninde-don't lose hope. Progesterone can definitely cause pretty bad bright red bleeding. Especially if the progesterone has caused irritation to the cervix. I am praying for you.

[Julia73]

Cyn, honey I am so sorry. There's nothing I can say to take it away and I wish I could do something to bring you comfort. Please know that my Dh and I are praying for you and your Dh.

Ninde- try to stay calm...this could be nothing related tp af! I'm praying for you as well and so is Dh.

[Cyn22]

Thank you all for your kind words... It's hard to understand the whole process but really it comes down too it wasn't meant to be.. I beleive in things happen for a reason. 15yrs ago I was living life with my boyfriend of 5yrs. Parting, going out, just having fun! 2 months after turning 21 while I was also making big wedding plans to marry my boyfriend we found out I was pregnant. Excited but wanted we planned to move up our wedding date (his mom a bit upset because being Vietnamese its not ok to be pregnant at the wedding) but my husband insisted on a wedding before the baby came. We got married in June of 1997 & our beautiful son was born in Oct of 1997. 2 months later (Dec 1997) on my husbands 24th Birthday he was stabbed & killed at the local mall. I just turned 22 & here I was a widow & single mom. With the help & loving support from my family we made it through some hard times. I met my current husband 6 months after my husband passed & we became great friends (nothing more for at least 2yrs) before I let someone in my life & still it's hard some days husband let's me grieve for my 1st husband & understands everything. My 1st mother in law now thinks of my current husband as her son (since her only son died) she loves him for taking care of me & my son. My husband will do anything for us & my family! It's amazing. My husband has a daughter who's 13 & we are very close to as well. But he wasnt around to raise her to watch her grow up as a baby ) My husband tells me all the time I taught him how to love. We have 2 Maltese furry babies as we call them but I really want to give him this baby & show him the love from pregnancy to birth.. I know timing is everything, & I believe it will happen! Faith & love is all we need!
Sorry for the long story... I'm soking in the tub with a large glass of wine! Tomorrow is a new day so I'm going to enjoy it!!
Thanks again ladies!! Xoxo

[Julia73]

Cyn- thank you so much for sharing your story. So sad but so sweet!! sometimes I think, ok that person has had, enough and their life absolutely cannot get worse, they've had their share of pain. I've thought this about myself...but God being the sovereign that he is has plans for us. Sometimes we see the reasoning behind said plan, sometimes we don't. I wish I could fast forward and tell you his plan for you. Its almost 4 in the morning and I got up to go to the bathroom and thought I'd check on you. I'm laying here thinking about today, I was texting a good friend earlier and said, I don't deserve this. In retrospect, so many ways I've failed miserably as a human. I'm a recovering addict, I had 4 years clean and sober in march. I've gone through terribly difficult things in my life, some my fault, some not. I was molested for four years, starting when I was 4 and ending when I was 8. I've had abusive marriages, watched my mother (who hung the moon!) fade away into nonexistence with Alheimers, lost a brother to leukemia. I could go on and on. But with all these tragic things, some I cant understand, and some because of my own choices, something was pushing me forward. I didn't know then what that was. Now I do. We only see a tiny bit of the plan for our lives, God sees the whole picture. I am now married to a wonderful man, am absolute treasure. He loves me beyond measure, baby or not. I don't deserve that either! I've been given a life that I never thought possible and although it isn't perfect (how could anything be when we are not) its pretty dang close and had I thrown in the towel years ago I would have never seen what a blessing life can be.
I'm sorry, i'm rambling. I just see strength in you and wanted tp encourage you. I don't know that any of this makes sense but I guess really I just want you to see that there IS a plan for you and that He loves you so much too.I'm glad you soaked in the tub and had some wine. Go easy on yourself. This journey is so rough sometimes. Keep your chin up and we are all here for you.

[Julia73]

We, Ninde, Cyn, everyone- my next beta is Monday. Thank you ask so much for the well wishes and congratulations! As Dh said, we aren't at the top but we are definitely climbing the mountain, and we aren't stuck in the mud right now! We don't want to appear cavalier about any of this blessing. Idk when the clinic we go to does us, but I know we go in Monday morning for the new beta and hopefully all will be well! Most places have a beta number they reach and then do the us, right? Anyway- i'm so nervous and anxious and excited all at the same time. I know anything can go wrong even still so i'm cautious but cant help celebrating a little!

[Ninde]

Cyn: what a very tough road its been for you. I cant imaginebwhat it must have been like for you as such a young woman to have your husband die sand to bring up a child when you must have been in so much pain. The strength that you have to have faced that is obviously immense. Im also so glad that you have another lovely man in your life. There arnt words of comfort that can ever take away the pain of grief - from the loss caused by death, or of an ivf not working and im really sorry about that because i wish i could offer you some. Your husband is also a blessing to your first mother in law from the sounds of it which is just lovely. So I wish you support from friends and loved ones and the hope that you will stay with us here online a little bit at least so maybe we can support you too x

Julia: now dont have me get cross with you - you do deserve this If God wanted saints he would have created us all saints and he didnt - he created us human which I think shows he quite enjoys a laugh every now and then!! You reacted to some awful circumstances in your life they way you could get through them. You are a good person who bad stuff happened to. I know you will cherish this baby so maybe give a little bit of that wonderful love to yourself too x

Afm: still bleeding - old and new stuff so im just taking some paracetemol for the cramps and resting up. And if there is a next time im going back to cyclogest pessaries rather than crinone applicator progesterone!!

Ninde

[Gina1976]

Julia- Congrats!! That is a great number! Can't wait to hear the next one!

Cyn- I'm sorry Take this time to heal and we are here for you! Saying a prayer for you. I know that time in your life must have been so hard and painful. ((HUGS)) Enjoy that glass of wine!

Ninde- Hang in there! Hope the bleeding has stopped now.

[LauraN]

cyn-i am so sorry. sometimes this road just sucks. i love your attitude though! i know you enjoyed your soak in the tub with your glass if wine.....sounds fun.

ninde- when will you be able to find something out about the bleeding or are they making you wait until your beta? your beta is thursday, right?

afm- just got the call, we have 6 fertilized. so now, we wont hear from them until wednesday morning after they biopsy them and send them to the lab. i am praying that all six make it, that would give us 7 to biopsy(we have 1 frosty) and hopefully that would give us enough normal ones to transfer a couple and then freeze a couple.