Step away from the sticks...or at least don't buy any new ones. People are always saying how strong I am for not POAS, but I seriously think it's crazy to put yourself through such torture. I'd much rather go through the 2ww with a glimmer of hope then to POAS, and have to still wonder if it was too early. Were you able to get an answer out of the nurse? Tuesday seems sooo far away. Trust me, I've been told ever since my first full cycle that even though I only made 1 or 2 of them, that they were the best "perfect" whatever day embies going into a perfect 10 lining with a triple stripe, and look how far that got me. To be honest I don't even care anymore because it doesn't seem to really matter. Anyway I hope you are ok, and I still am holding out for another surprise BFP for you! Love ya girl!!! Oh, and so what happens to the rest of your embies?? Do you get to decide what happens to them, or are you just turning them back to the clinic, and they will donate them? xoxoxo
[bchris[/b] Where are you on vaca? Ahhhh vacation sounds so nice right now!! I would love to be poolside or beach side with a drink in my hand right now. Delicious foods and delicious drinks!! haha I think I just zoned out thinking about it! Hope you are having a blast!
Claudia How are you mama??? Hope everything is going well. Please stop by and give us an update soon! I miss you! xoxo
Amanda You are so sweet for always following my pathetic attempts to get pregnant, I'm sure it's gotta be hard to keep cheering on someone for this long! haha thank you! I need all the cheering I can get! How are you? How's everything with the babes? Any plans on a trip to NY this summer?
Libby I don't know if you ever check on here anymore, but I wanted to let you know that you are always in my thoughts, and I hope you are healing. I'm here for you if you ever want to talk. xoxo
AFM Just plugging along on my Estrace 3 times a day. It's that middle one that I always almost forget, and I'll look at the clock at work and I'm like "ahhhh crap!!" haha then I have to run and take it. I'm always on the move at work so I can't really set my phone to go off or anything, but I do eventually remember to take it. So the pharmacy called yesterday to tell me that they are shipping my intralipids to my clinic on Monday!! Yay!! I also talked to the head nurse, and I will be doing them at the same time I go in for my SnS on Friday if my lining looks good. I must remember to bring a book. I'm going to be sitting there for 2 hours hooked up to an IV. The nurse didn't say anything about coming back for another round, but they put 3 refills on my prescription. Not sure what that means, but I will ask on Friday. I am excited to have a new "something" to try with this cycle, but it's really really hard to get my PMA up. I mean..come on...I'm becoming a lost cause at this point, but I'm a glutton for punishment, and I always love to route for the underdog, and would love to have a miracle story of my own. Ya never know unless you try. I'm a big believer in living in the moment so I'm just going to take this one day at a time, and hopefully I wont lose my mind.
I'm so glad I have you girls to talk to! Love you all tons!
Lets see, what did he say last time? oh, yes - "I'm so surprised that it didnt work" Ummm, yeah., me too Dr. Me too.. I will ask him why he thinks this failed and if he tells me that theres a higher power to this I may scream. I'm kidding about screaming, but he did say that to me last time. If I'm feeling really brave I may ask if we would be wasting our time to use the last of the embies or should we just sign them back to the clinic? Right now neither one of us is sure that we even want to go through this yet again. I'm just numb from this round, you know? We've had to pay for a years storage fee as part of the FET fee, so we have time to decide. I'm just not sure how I feel right now. Oh, and dont forget your book for Friday's appt or it will be a long one 
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