Patricia- It's far from being over and I will be praying both will fertilize. I remember not so long ago a former cycle buddy with only one embryo to work with and she is now 23 weeks along. I really believe miracles do happen even when we least expect them. I have you in my thoughts and will be praying hard, please keep us posted. X
Jayne- Sending you good thoughts and I hope your retrieval goes smoothly with a good outcome tomorrow.
Leora- Yes it's frustrating how insensitive coworkers can be but we have to draw the line somewhere I know. As a manager I have to separate those feelings from my job and not let it affect my work. Right now I'm working with ways to improve my outlook and avoid having any more secret meltdowns in the back room. As for the list mistress we know several have moved on over to an August thread and now September thread which makes sense, but I would like to say we made some VERY good friends here along the way and I know these friends will continue stalking all the way until we bring home our babies...
Nicole- I am so excited for you pee sticks...Keep on peeing and posting, we LIVE for good news!!!!
MadameX- I heard that's a huge pregnant side effect, but how sweet of your husband to make waffles at 2:30am. Good man!
Annashope-I appreciate you sharing how you dealt with a very similar situation to mine. I'm glad you were able to set them straight with what you needed and expected out of them. Often enough unless out voice is heard we'll find ourselves miserable. So at some point in this journey when it gets to be too much, we owe it to ourselves to advocate our coworkers and family. I need them to know it's ok to celebrate her unplanned pregnancy but I'm having a tough time handling it. Thank you for reminding me it's ok to speak our minds. x
With this "termporally situation", I know mentally beating ourselves up to the lowest point is not going to get us ANYWHERE, because we're stronger then that and deep down we CANNOT give up! Each new day there is given opportunity to make a difference in our lives, maybe sometimes we need to vent and breathe.. Dh took me to church yesterday to an 8:15 service at a new church. We rarely had been attending and I was personally starving for some spiritual energy, we sat with some of our newest neighbors lol imagine that. Afterwards dh took me out for breakfast, then drove me to and from work but he didn't seem to mind...I know here lately we've felt like "roommates". Over breakfast I did bring up counselling and his response was "I'm too cheap for that." This man wears T-shirts with holes in them, lol he even gets mad when I even try to throw them away! Bringing that up reminded him of me asking him countless times when he was going to see a doctor about that spot on his back. Are most men like him?
Dh has a support group at the college and I'm very thankful he confides in these friends. One of the librarians (like a mother to him) gave him a big bag of therapeutic books to read. I know his friends can relate to what he's going through, even when we had the miscarriage two years ago support poured into his office sharing their own personal tragedy and that helped him get through hardship. He came home one day telling me all about it...how he never knew miscarriages were so common and said but they went on and tried again giving him much encouragement. He's very frugal BUT when it comes to a baby he wants me to go through the entire experience our very own so much he's willing to spend whatever it takes. Of course I'm the one fussing over the cost but we have to focus on the outcome. He often tells me he doesn't want his job holding us back. He's very determined applied for more then a dozen jobs over the summer. I know we both worry about what the future will bring and it's especially hard not having control, but I keep reminding him we're in this together. I often hear him say he would had jumped off a bridge a long time if it had not been for me, but in the big scheme of things he should know I need him just as much. I'm very blessed to have a man who loves me unconditionally, someone who picks me right back up whenever I fall.
This next u/s for me is going to feel like a year away! I just feel I need constant reassurance!
