Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Sunshine1576]

WaitingKay- I am praying for you girl that you have a fast recovery from the ovarian torsion and can get home soon! I am so glad the twins are doing well, you certainly have a figher in there! Wishing you all the best, keep talking to those babies! XX

Jayne- Enjoy the Dodger game, any distraction from all this is always good!

Ninde- You will always find support here no matter what you and dh decide to do. I know it's hard letting completely go, take all the time you need but if there is anything we can ever do don't hestitate-we're here for you girl. Yes I had a little talk with dh and everything is fine now but lol he better vacate when these hormones shots begin!

AFM: A little confused when dh gave a sample last March (in case he got sick around ER) they told us his sample would be good for 6 months...They told us his sample was necessary and part of the process with the IVF ATTAIN program but of course we had postponed everything last March when he had found out about his job... 6 months later the lab sends us a notice in the mail that gives us an option to continue storage by paying 195.00 or discard the sperm. *Why would they send me this notice if sperm only can be stored for 6 months OR can sperm be stored over a longer period? DH said he would be willing to collect again but here's the thing THIS was his BEST sample ever so I hate to discard them IF we can keep this sample. Yet I don't want to pay the 195 to store them longer and not even be able to use this sample. What are ya'lls thoughts??? I'll call the clinic on Monday but wondered if sperm can be preserved longer then 6 months?

[Ninde]

Kay: I teally hope you get home son. Im sure all the information is hard to process. But I hope with all my heart you can keep both little ones x

Jayne: thank you, that's a really lovely thing to say and i absolutely feel the same x

Christy: my dh has sperm frozen and it has been frozen now for 18 months. We get bills for storage but they are happy to keep using it and Noone said it expires after six months to the best of my knowledge.

Nicole: Im. Really hoping you feel better soon. Dh bets migraines from his ms too and is on Sibellium - has your doctor tried that. Takes a couple of months to build in to your system but acts preventatively

Afm: great I start watching my food and I've gained two pounds - seriously!!!!

Ninde

[blueeyedreamer]

Christy, I think you are getting a bill for continuing frozen storage. If you choose not to pay for storage then they will discard. Same thing with embryos. We pay every 6 months.

[blueeyedreamer]

Ninde- I feel your pain! Why does weight loss have to be so hard? Thanks for the tip. I'll check on that med.

[Sunshine1576]

Thanks Patricia and Nicole I had no idea that they charge $195 ever 6 months to store a sample...we certainly might need that this time next year. I already feel guilty for making him take a day off fm work to drive 4 hours round trip to the clinic with me...wait until he gets that job out of state w/ flying home every weekend so that's when I would need that sample! lol
BCP kicks off tomorrow so must remember to pick up presciption before heading into work today... Have a great day ladies!

[Wondercat]

Christy -- We have had sperm on ice since early 2009. No expiration date, as far as I know! We know he can do another surgery to get more, but he has a family member whose count has dropped from "not good" in his late 20's to "nothing" in his late 30's.... So we will hold on to these little guys until we are positive we no longer want them for anything!

[Sunshine1576]

Wondercat- oh my goodness girl how have YOU been?! That's what I love about this board you'll always find some new and savor the former cycle buddies!! Thanks for stopping by and giving me some feedback! Spoke to my clinic about my IVF ATTAIN paperwork should be coming this week, she also told me it's less expensive to keep the sperm frozen then for dh to go through the whole process again. I'm happy and of course he's happy lol and hopefully we'll move in fast motion onto the next cycle.

WaitingKay- I'm thinking of you and hoping the pain has eased. Please update us when you feel up to journalizing. XX

Ninde- Life can be emotional or stressful, if only we could find a healthy balance and let go of uncertainty. I was researching yoga last night and remembered how much I enjoyed yoga when I had gym membership. It would be nice if someone designed a yoga class for fertility offering support along the way. Youtube has videos but these average 5 minutes long and a class would be more beneficial in my opinion. What are your thoughts?

Jayne- How was the Dodger's game? We're Atlanta Braves fans and I hear this is Chipper Jones last year until retirement.

AFM: Spoke with my boss today about my upcoming IVF treatment, she told me I would need to consistantly work 35 hrs to keep my full-time status, I told her I should be eligible for some vacation time and her response was she'll have to look into that for me. I know the girls would work for me anytime I need them to but asking off with my boss is like pulling teeth. I told her I would keep my 40 hr work week and close every night for two weeks up until retrieval. Monday 10/29 is tentative ER...5 days later (normally we have 5 day transfers) would be Saturday off and then ask off for the following three days... I can say that in the past I've stemmed longer because of lead follicles so it's tricky to pick the days needed off from work. I explained to the other assistant that during the week of retrieval I would know how my body will respond to the meds so the dates could change.

[blueeyedreamer]

Headaches have lifted, thank goodness! Dh is asking for us to have a follow up appt so I guess I had better get on that. I thought we would have more down time. Oh well.

[WeHaveHope]

Good morning ladies,

Sorry I haven't posted lately. I've been quite busy with the girls.

Pocos-I hope you're feeling a little better. Feel free to text me anytime.

Ninde-thanks fir being such a great friend

Sunshine-So happy things are moving right along for you. Sorry your boss us bring a bit difficult, it sounds like. I am praying all falls right inti place for you and thus cycle is a successful one.

Jayne-how are you?

Blue-glad your headache is better. How is everything else?

Kay-I am praying so much for you. I'm hoping that you are able to go home soon. Keeping you always in my thoughts. Sending you a great big hug.

AFM-we are all doing well. I can't believe the girls are a month old already. They are getting so big. Anna is already weighing 9.1 pounds and Katerina 8.2 pounds. For those that asked, sleep is a distant memory. The girls are waking up every 2 to 2 1/2 hours to feed and them they are fussy at times in between so not much time for sleeping . On a happier note, the girls had their newborn photo shoot yesterday. It was a lot of fun and I was so pleased with the results. I posted some of the photos on the PAT board.

Sending you all my love,

Maria

[Pocos]

Sunshine – I am going to a community college near my house called HCC. I just want to have my head busy so I don’t think so much about TTC (very hard!!)
Sorry to hear about your husband’s job situation. You are right, what he is going in is kind of ironic. I met 2 ladies that are going back to school so they can change careers since they are unemployed, so it makes no sense that he has been given one final year.

Jayne- Exercise helps my anxiety, and I am trying to exercise more but the problem is that I wake up everyday with a knot in my neck. All day so stressed and anxious that my stomach and my shoulders hurt. I don’t know what to do, I haven’t started taking LExapro yet, I will meet with the RE tomorrow to make sure its ok.
I think I will only have peace when I finally get pregnant ☹ I hope everything goes well on your first u/s!

Ninde – I am still stressed and anxious, tomorrow I meet with the RE, hopefully the results will be normal so we can start our new cycle. I am so scared of having a BFN again though, I don’t know what to do!! I am listening to your voice everyday, that has been helping me sleep, which is a blessing because when I am stressed I usually cant sleep.
I am very scared of facing life wihtouth children, especially living in another country without my family and friends. Soemtimes I think of divorcing my husband (since we doesn’t want to move to BR with me) and going back, at least I wont be alone in my country. But I love my husband! AAarrghh I hate all this.

Blue - Glad you are feeling better!

Kay – SO sorry about the torsion, what will they do to fix the problem? I am happy the twins are ok though.

Maria - Thank you so much! I'll check the girls' pictures!

AFM - Met with the RE today, all the tests came back normal, so all we have to do is try again. I am still not ok, the doctor wanted to know if I would be able to do this cycle without the Lexapro, I dont know if I will able to handle it. I am more and more stressed and anxious, and it's getting to the point that it is affecting my body (shoulders and neck hurt and my stomach is starting to bother me). I really dont know what to do, should I take the medicine?? I think I will, only I know how I am feeling, and I am really not ok mentally.

[Ninde]

Christy: I think a yoga class would be much better. You would have much more of a chance to really allow your mind to be free for a while and for your body to really stretch. I really cant believe your boss cant be a bit more accommodating, you work so hard!!!

Nicole: my dh is the same - firstly he said at our last mtg that we would do as many cycles that it took (eh hello - finances?!) And then that we should start immediately - eh hello my body did not have a good time the last time with menopur. I've said I cant start immediately, I know age and against eggs are against me but I honestly dont think I could start again this year. Can you talk with dh and tell him you need more time?

Maria: your girls are so beautiful.

Pocos: have you managed to speak with the psychologist? He/she should be able to help you with your anxiety. There is so much going on for you and it seems like panic may be there for you now. When that happens then your mind will race - like thinking about divorcing your dh. Try not to make any decisions at this time - your mind can really play games with you and its really important you find ways to relax. Your body tension is not surprising because you are so anxious - can you try a mindfulness/yoga class? Im not a huge fan of drugs but they have their place and they can help in the short term. Would it be worth calling your re and asking his/her opinion again?

Afm: fifth adoption mtg with social worker tomorrow. The questions are horrendous and invasive. I fully accept that child protection is paramount but asking about our sex life (of course I lied!!), saying that by going to couple counselling to help us get through difficulty will go against us, telling us that she will check the house tomorrow to see "if its suitable for a child" - to name but a few ridiculous questions and comments is more than trying my patience. I totally understand this is a process but this process is wrong on almost every level, it is humiliating, power-tripping and deeply flawed. And when this is all over I have every intention of doing something about it.

Ninde

[kynlee]

Ninde- I am thinking of you, you are in my prayers... I will be here cheering you on when you start back up, good luck with all your testing I think everything will work out just fine

Christy- Glad you mentioned about the storage fees my place has never billed me now you having me think what if they discard my frosties I will have to call them tomorrow to double check...

blueeye- sorry about your headaches hope you feel better soon..

Waitingkay- thinking of you and your beans and everyone totally understands that you cant be on here all the time you have to take care of you and your babies... Ill email you on FB tonight... Also My aunt uses some tube that she talks into and then it types for her, maybe you can look into that while on bedrest... Ill try to find out the name of it for you...

hope everyone is doing well I check in on you all often,sending baby dust and hugs to everyone...

[Sunshine1576]

Quick post but I promise to do personals once I calm down from running around...lol my head is spinning tonight. My car would not crank today seriously with no neighbors home the mailman happen to come by delivering mail lol and she helped me get my car going. I'm a girly girl so I'm clueless about mechanics... Luckily the next door neighbors called me back and I got the jump cable using their garage door opener code and then we took my husband's boat battery and jumped my car off. The IVF Attain coordinator called me back today and said we would only be approved for the Multi-cycle and I was like what?! why? She elaborated and said my bloodwork and uterine cavity ultrasound had expired. I was like okay we can so work with this...What if I run to my clinic this week and get that taken care of can we then reapply for the refund program she said yes so I called my clinic right away and they told me I need to come in the morning. I was like cannot I come on Friday since I'm off because I'm scheduled to open the store tomorrow...She said no it has to be tomorrow since they only have so much time after AF comes...I told her go ahead and schedule the u/s and bloodwork I'll find a way to get there. I texted my boss and told her I needed to close to run my car by a mechanic and take care of errands asking her if we can switch shifts. I had to think quickly on my feet and probably could of been more straight-forward but I didn't want to hear her grumble with a last minute request, moments later she texted me back thankfully-- said no problem. Now I have to make sure I have no drugs in my system and my uterus appears normal! lol

[Sunshine1576]

Pocos I know what you mean about overthinking this fertility stuff, the uncertainty makes it so hard. I hope a counsellor will help ease this emotions and make it easier to deal with this anxiety. I know our distractions are good but having something to believe in will only help but it will take a lot of work and continous effort to make a dent in our anxiety.

Kynlee absolutely girl anytime. I am surprised they haven't billed you and dh yet on the storage but do let us know what you find out.

Patricia- Thank you I hope my boss comes to her senses, but she can't say much as long as I have the hours in. I love my job it's commision based but she also has to understand family comes first. Good luck with the adoption meeting tomorrow I want to hear all about it tomorrow night. XX

Nicole- Headaches all better, I really hope so. I know my dh is persistant too, it's encouraging.

AFM: bed g'night

[blueeyedreamer]

Christy, good luck with the tests.

Patricia, I really hate the adoption process. Go get 'em!

Pocos, I really hope you find some peace. Anxiety and stress are exhausting.

Maria, I'm glad the girls are doing well.

Kynlee, how are you feeling?

AFM, work is really hectic so I have been exhausted. My headaches have def lightened. I'm ok with moving forward. I'm just a bit surprised dh is asking. He hasn't really been real proactive. He has let me lead. This last round was exceptionally hard so that could be why.