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[CarolineP]

Leora

That is an amazing results, I will not give up on these boards until you bring home your baby.

Good luck and I look forward to your updates.

CarolineP

[BlissfulCS]

Outstanding Leora!!!! I am so excited that you are going to be our next beta hell success story!

Tina- I think its good you have several follicles. I know it gets expensive but we have seen girls cycle for way longer than usual to get the basket full of eggs. Hang in there...we are sending you lots of baby dust.

[leorira11]

well, RE wants the u/s sooner - so rescheduled for Sunday April 7th at exactly 6 weeks...

[BlissfulCS]

Sending you lots of prayers and love Leora. It would just be so wrong for this to turn out to be anything but a miracle. I will be waiting anxiously for your U/S on Sunday!

[Sdtryingagain]

Just dyin over here Leora to see some pics of your tiny bean!!! Come on baby!!!

[Sdtryingagain]

Wish me luck this weekend, I think we're gonna try the conception kit thing again...we just re-did our kitchen so there's no money for FET gonna try the cap until we can save up.

[Sdtryingagain]

Sariah- holy eggs bat woman!! Hoping no OHSS for you and just a BFP with lots of snowbabies!!

CarolinaP-- agreed about Leora!

Suzyq- hope u/s and b/w look good tomorrow. Baby dust to you that next week you're babe will be returning to home!

Bliss- sorry about this last cycle for you. Even though you are at a good place with it a BFN is never fun. Thinking of you and hoping next month makes your family 4!!

Still trying to track everyone else, I'm sure I'll be logging on more during my 2ww and will do a better job of keeping up.

[suzyq]

Alright ladies where are you? Updates are wanted!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AFM- It is late and headed to bed. Just got home from a long day on the road. Went to U/S and B/W today. Lining is 8.8 and estrogen was low at 103 and needs to be >150. So started Estrace 2 mg 2xdaily. Will return Sunday for more b/w then hopefully we defrost eggs Monday and transfer Wednesday or Saturday.

Wishing all the best and a good weekend.
Cristie

[BlissfulCS]

Hey Cristie! I am here. Just hanging out and waiting for AF. Yay on getting going! I have to supplement estrogen for FET too and am really going to make him watch the levels closely this time. My RE has me stim at a very low dose for FET. Are you stimming at all? You are so close to transfer. Maybe Monday PUPO? I love FETs...


AFM- Evelyn is 15 months old today. Yikes! Every day that passes I think about her being that much older than her sibling. On that note I read a very interesting article about secondary infertility in the most recent Stepping Stones newsletter. It talked about IF being something that all afflicted people silently suffer through, but that those that are struggling to have a second child struggle even more silently for a variety of reasons. One of course being that they feel as though they don't have a right to be down because of the first child. And course even doctors are inclined to say stupid things like "it happened before it will happen again" negating the couple's feelings and fears. The article talked about how secondary IF can make milestones of your first child challenging due to the fear that it may be the last time you experience them. I have found this to be so true! I often cry over the simplest things that Evelyn does.

I couldn't find an online version (I receive their newsletter and highly recommend it to Christian sufferers of IF... other faiths would likely be alienated by the strong Christian content in it even though the info is great). Anyway I know that many of you would change places with me but I still have found this journey to be as challenging as the last but in a different way (I even mourn the loss of my attention for my DD that she deserves due to my obsession with cycling).

Getting geared up for the next go and just waiting on AF.

SD- thanks for the encouragement. BFNs are indeed tough regardless and as the days passed I definitely mourned a little more.

God please let us all have a healthy baby! (and for some of us... again!)

[Sdtryingagain]

Silent prayers tonight for Leora's bean to smile at us on u/s tomorrow!

Bliss- your post was nice, it is so true that IF at any stage is hard. I found my second still a challenge. I think any time you are really sure that your family isn't complete IF can be hard. I found watching my first grow older to be every bit as hard as birthdays were with before my first and of course then the questions start up again from everyone about when you'll have another....as if it were just so easy! It is different for everyone and also with similarities. What I have learned from this board however is to support people no matter where they are in their journey and be ever grateful for the support you'll receiver in return.

AFM- I'm glad to be taking a break from the ivf insanity for awhile though sort of wish we could afford FET right now. Mostly, I'm just looking forward to celebrating all the glorious BFP that will surely come soon round here! We tried with the conception kit earlier today and unfortunately my darn cervix was elusive so I doubt I got the cap on. I seriously don't know how some women use the cervical cap for contraception. My Re total me I have a "very long canal" which might be part of the issue for us. When she told me this I almost busted out laughing thinking "did this doctor just tell me I have a big vagina??" It was hard to keep a straight face everything she mentioned my 'unusual anatomy" we'll see how it goes with trying at home...maybe in a few months we'll be able to afford iui

[leorira11]

so...

Thursday night, after work, I started bleeding. A LOT. Bright blood pouring out of me - soaking through pad, underwear, my mattress.

The bleeding stopped after about 4 hours.

Friday morning, we went for an u/s. My doctor was suspicious of an ectopic pregnancy. We didn't see anything ectopic, and all we saw in my uterus was a little tiny 3mm speck. The tech wasn't sure if it was a gestational sac or just a blip. (No blood tests on Fridays here, so no beta check).

Today, I went for another u/s. There is a gestational sac that is abnormally shaped and measuring about 5.5 weeks (I'm 6 weeks today). There might be a yolk sac, but it's too hard to definitively tell. My beta has gone up to 6500+ (average for where I am in my pregnancy).

So I'm in limbo... just waiting to see what happens. Could be okay, but most likely I'll miscarry. We just have to wait and see. Next u/s on Thursday....

[Sdtryingagain]

Oh leora, I was so hoping for you to be on the positive side of limbo! There are all sorts of positives your beta and measuring close to your dates. But of course the "abnormal" appearance I'm sure has you emotionally in limbo. Ugh. Well it is in no way over and certainly you must be at the top of the list for good things coming, so I'm holding onto hope for this bean!

[BlissfulCS]

SD- you never struck me as the gigantic vagina type. Hmmmmm... I know its heard to be on a break (tic tock, tic tock) but I hope your break turns into another natural miracle. Thanks for the kind words about the post. I felt bad even posting it but I thought it might be helpful to others like us in the same boat. Are you on the private FB page? I didn't think so but thought I would check. Its a great group (but can be a little tough to keep up with).

Leora- I know you must get tired of me telling you how sorry I am that this isn't easier for you, but at the risk of being ultra repetitive I still want you to know here and on the FB page... I am sorry...I am hopeful...you deserve an easier road...and I am sending you every ounce of sticky vibes I have.

Where is everyone???

Cristie- PUPO tomorrow???

[Sdtryingagain]

Bliss-- yes, this is one of the reasons I prefer the anonymity of forums LOL! maybe I'll add "gigantic vagina" to my sig I'd love to join over on FB, I don't really understand how, can you PM me?

hope everyone else is well, baby dust all around!

[Sunshine1576]

Sorry I have been neglectful. I use my dh's laptop when my right leg is throbbing so I can lay up in bed and bc I have my password saved only on my desktop I'm not able to log in when I'm on his but I have been reading...

Sdtryingagain- I know that feeling oh so well, I don't know how women who pay out of pocket afford to cycle back to back. Maybe that's why we signed up with the Attain, giving us some ressurance and guarantee with our money. But I hope you bring home a natural miracle and don't ever have to go through IVF again. I'm wishing you THE best!

Leora- I'm glad they moved the next scan/beta to Tuesday, less then 20 hours away now. I know you feel like limbo right now but hold on and take it one day at a time. We're here for you no matter what!

Alisa, My brother and his wife went through IVF and brought home a healthy son. One yr later she defrosted all 3 embies and none of them took. She had already invested 32 grand to have their first baby, so thought for sure one of the frosties would take. It broke their hearts and in the following yr they have continued to be in limbo with what their next steps might be. Their son will turn 3 in November but now they are offering me all his baby stuff. It's hard for me to wrap my mind around it all, honestly I really have a hard time with all the uncertainty. We all grieve in our own separate ways. Honestly I would be in the same thought process once we had one baby bc I know how close I am to my own 2 brothers and I would want my child to experience that relationship. I am thankful I have their support but I also struggle with the unknown, I'm sure we all do. But we know it's not healthy to reflect on the unknown so all we can do is make a plan and stick to it. Do what we can, knowing deep down we gave this everything we had before totally giving up.

Cristie- Oh wow your transfer snuck up on me, this Wednesday will be an exciting day where these embibabies are coming home!

AFM: Our Obgyn appt has been changed to Wednesday. My right leg particularly has absorbed all my attention since everytime I do the PIO shot my leg throbs at night. I have bad vericose veins behind my right knee so I'm really trying to stay on the left side. My RE gave me permission to change over to crinone 2 weeks ago but I cannot take the chance until I know everything is ok on Wed. Also my hair is way overdue for hightlights but I'm really really trying to wait until I get through the first trimester. I went back and read last yr's post from July where Kynlee posted that question and I do question my gut so I shouldn't do it. I need to find a big summer hat to get me through the next few weeks. lol