Kathryn, i'm so very sorry to hear your news. Please don't worry re the self pity thing. that's what this site is for - to let all the anger out in a place where people totally understand and will not judge you. Neither are you selfish. It's perfectly natural to yearn for your own child. Please pamper yourself over the next couple of weeks and don't give up believing. When I saw your post I too thought about Di and her nine attempts - proves it is possible and I know you want it badly enough. Maybe nicolam is right about taking a bit of time out. You could use it to do some more investigatory work. For instance, have you had a hysteroscopy to check there are no polyps etc on the lining of the womb which may be preventing implantation? If there are they can remove these during the procedure. Forgive me if this is all old hat to you, but I'd never heard of it until my clinic insisted on me having it done last month.please stay in touch with us all. beckym xxx
Oh Kathryn, I am so so sorry to hear your news. Life is so unfair at times. You go ahead and feel sorry for yourself, your entitled to. But you must not give up hope, it will happen.<br><br>A huge hug to you and dh.<br>Thinking of you both lots of love<br>Lynne
Kathryn,<br>well done for getting some emotion out on this site. I always just want to crawl away and hide somewhere far away. I know how wretched you feel and everyone with a baby that you know feels sorry for you and the rest of us, and that makes it worse. I guess I can only echo what the other girls have said and that is Take some time out to recover your strength mentally and physically and just keep on going for it girl. You are not selfish!<br>Good Luck,<br>LOU
Hi Kathryn,<br>So sorry to read your posting but not surprised by how you feel - been there so many times myself! This tmt makes you question everything - I even started wondering if I'd been a really horrible person in a previous life and this was payback time!!!<br>Take as much time as you need away from tmt and each day will get easier and you'll be ready to start again.<br>Maybe worth asking for more tests though - thats what we did for this time!<br>Take care,<br>Di
Dear Kathryn<br><br>I was so sorry to hear this news. As you know there is nothing anyone can say right now to make it better, it is horrible and it is unfair and of course you are angry anyone would be.<br>My only advice is give vent to all your feelings and don't hold back from any of it including a realy good cry. I know that empty, horrible feeling only too well and am sending you a big hug. Be kind to yourself.<br>Love Gracexx
Oh Kathryn I really thought this was it, I'm so sorry and understand your anger. Don't feel upset for feeling sorry for yourself you are entitled to grieve. I hope you and DH can find some comfort and strength from each other and take some time to decide what you do next. My thoughts are with you both.<br>Lots of love<br>Aly<br>xx
ttc for 7 years 1 year clomid positive pg miscarried at 5wks
1st ivf poor egg quality -ve
4IUI all -ve 3 months clomid -ve
donor eggs didn't make it to transfer. 4 embies frozen waiting for go ahead for FET October 2004
This is not fair. None of it is fair. I really thought this would be your time this time. Everyone else has said everything already so I won't say it again but you know it will get better and you know you are strong and you will come through this and start again. <br>Take care of yourself and DH <br>Lots of love<br>Kat xx
Me & DH both 41
ICSI #1 - abandoned
#2 - cancelled - DH accident
#3 - 1 transferred, bfn
#4 - 2 transferred, bfn
#5 - abandoned
#6 - no eggs at EC
#7 - DE in Barcelona - bfp but lost Dec'05
#8 - DE UK - bfn
#9 - FET Sept/Oct '07....
Oh Im so sorry , IT ISNT FAIR at all What can I say , no words will make you feel better, Thinking of you both.<br>Trace x
1st cycle own eggs Neg
2nd cycle own eggs Neg
3rd cycle cousins eggs Neg
4th cycle unknown donor eggs Neg
Going to have sisters eggs Feb 06
NEVER GIVE UP!
So Sorry about your news....and your'e right it's not fair.....please never give up hope....<br>There is nothing anyone can say to help ease the pain, but you will get thru it.<br><br>Your turn will come.<br>Take care and a big HUG<br>Love<br>Wibbs<br>xx