just wanted to check in on you.
i am just a little worried about you.
love becky
shell
shell
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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bubblymichelle
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bubblymichelle
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Hello,
Sorry I wasn't sure if it was for me or not, yeah things seem to be a little better then what they was. We have decided to give it another go. To be honest I ain't sure if this is what I want because of everything I have been through and everything that has been said I guess I can't forgive that easily. Admittenly I do love him but I am just that confused within myself. Before I wanted it all to be ok and now he as said he wants to try again I think to myself well how about if it does it again? but I suppose I should push that to the back of my mind.
How are you?
Love
Shell.
xx
Sorry I wasn't sure if it was for me or not, yeah things seem to be a little better then what they was. We have decided to give it another go. To be honest I ain't sure if this is what I want because of everything I have been through and everything that has been said I guess I can't forgive that easily. Admittenly I do love him but I am just that confused within myself. Before I wanted it all to be ok and now he as said he wants to try again I think to myself well how about if it does it again? but I suppose I should push that to the back of my mind.
How are you?
Love
Shell.
xx
i know when i push things back in my head they stay there and fester. and that isnt good.
i know when my dh and i went threw somethings a couple of years back we had to set down and get everything out in the open. it was very hard. but all of the feelings needed to be out there.
it is never good to keep things to yourself and if we loved eachother then why would we want to !!!!
i do hope things work out for you and you find happeniss !!!!!
but dont sell yourself and your feelings short !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love becky
i know when my dh and i went threw somethings a couple of years back we had to set down and get everything out in the open. it was very hard. but all of the feelings needed to be out there.
it is never good to keep things to yourself and if we loved eachother then why would we want to !!!!
i do hope things work out for you and you find happeniss !!!!!
but dont sell yourself and your feelings short !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love becky
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
ok shell where have you gone?
have you gone and done your night out yet?
have you gone and done your night out yet?
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
Hi Shell,
I have not been online very much, waiting (in my last weeks) when the doctors will decide that it's time to be induced, but I saw Becky's thread and I wanted to know how you are doing. I think Becky's right, it's best to get everything in the open, but it is the most difficult thing in the world to start talking when one has not done it for a while. I am hoping you and Lee will do that, but if you are not sure you trust him you should also be aware of this and trust your own instincts. I do hope it works out for you.
love,
juliana
I have not been online very much, waiting (in my last weeks) when the doctors will decide that it's time to be induced, but I saw Becky's thread and I wanted to know how you are doing. I think Becky's right, it's best to get everything in the open, but it is the most difficult thing in the world to start talking when one has not done it for a while. I am hoping you and Lee will do that, but if you are not sure you trust him you should also be aware of this and trust your own instincts. I do hope it works out for you.
love,
juliana
Juliana you must be getting so excited and must be a bundle of nerves!!
how long will they have you go before they will induce?
just think soon you willbe a mom
becky
how long will they have you go before they will induce?
just think soon you willbe a mom
becky
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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bubblymichelle
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I'm here
Julianna you must make the most of all this time you have now because when little ones come along your going to be running round like an headless chicken.
Things are a little better my end, I am finding it difficult to be honest I don't know if this is because of everything I have been through. One day I think yeah I want to work at this but then other days I just don't want to be with him, does this make sense? I am just so confused its not worth thinking about.
I am very close to my parents and I was chatting to my Mom and she said I am bound to feel like this considering all that I have been through. I really do not know what the future will hold all I can do is wait and see.
Hope everyone else is ok.
Zoe - Is Sam sitting up yet? Alex isn't!! lazy little so and so.
Love & Hugs
Shell.
xx
Julianna you must make the most of all this time you have now because when little ones come along your going to be running round like an headless chicken.
Things are a little better my end, I am finding it difficult to be honest I don't know if this is because of everything I have been through. One day I think yeah I want to work at this but then other days I just don't want to be with him, does this make sense? I am just so confused its not worth thinking about.
I am very close to my parents and I was chatting to my Mom and she said I am bound to feel like this considering all that I have been through. I really do not know what the future will hold all I can do is wait and see.
Hope everyone else is ok.
Zoe - Is Sam sitting up yet? Alex isn't!! lazy little so and so.
Love & Hugs
Shell.
xx
shame on you shell
YOUR confusion is worth thinking about , talking about and listening to
becky
YOUR confusion is worth thinking about , talking about and listening to
becky
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
hi shell sorry to hear you have been having a hard time of it, ive been through it myself as you no hubby left when i was 6 weeks pregnant and i never seen him again until ben was 9 weeks old
and that was in court for divorce where he has stopped it cause he decided he still loved me
i can understand what you mean about not wanting him there sometimes and you wonder is it worth the effort and are you better on your own?
well my huband made excuses to come and see ben and all he was doing was trying to get back with me i could not forgive him after all i went through cause he had no sperm i ended up with a donar and he left at 6 weeks saying he didnt want baby you can imagine how i felt
after he had seen him i thought things would be diffrent but cause i wont have him back he does not ant to see ben, i relly hate him for this he has 3 kids who he sees so this makes me more angry i just wished i never went to court that day i was used to being on my ownand now im all angrey and upset again not for me for ben not having a dad i really colud kill him you no, who could be so heartless
i hope it works for you you have been throgh so much already and you do still love him
i thought i loved mine till i seen him and he just made my skin crawl he left me all the bills etc he really is a heartless pig
how is little alex how old is he now?
ben is 7 months next week and so cute
sorry for the rant time of the month and MEN couldnt you just strangle them/
love
di
and that was in court for divorce where he has stopped it cause he decided he still loved me
i can understand what you mean about not wanting him there sometimes and you wonder is it worth the effort and are you better on your own?
well my huband made excuses to come and see ben and all he was doing was trying to get back with me i could not forgive him after all i went through cause he had no sperm i ended up with a donar and he left at 6 weeks saying he didnt want baby you can imagine how i felt
after he had seen him i thought things would be diffrent but cause i wont have him back he does not ant to see ben, i relly hate him for this he has 3 kids who he sees so this makes me more angry i just wished i never went to court that day i was used to being on my ownand now im all angrey and upset again not for me for ben not having a dad i really colud kill him you no, who could be so heartless
i hope it works for you you have been throgh so much already and you do still love him
i thought i loved mine till i seen him and he just made my skin crawl he left me all the bills etc he really is a heartless pig
how is little alex how old is he now?
ben is 7 months next week and so cute
sorry for the rant time of the month and MEN couldnt you just strangle them/
love
di
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bubblymichelle
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Hi Di,
I never realised you had been through so much, omg I really didn't and here I am going on and we all have our own problems. Men do your head in at times. I am still having an hard time and I am so tempted to phone a solictor to get this sorted once and for all but then I don't because things will get better but they don't. I went out on Saturday night with my friends and Lee was ok to an extent but then on Sunday I asked Lee if he wanted to go to the seaside as family. He said he didn't want to go and that I could go to a car boot if I wanted to, which I enjoy doing and I said that it would be nice to all be together but he made it clear he wanted to be with his son. I would never take that away from him he did spend time with his son and bloody took him to the docks at Liverpool, I was so angry because I asked Lee to go out for the day but he ddin't want to spend the tiem with me but yet he can do something like that how pathetic, sorry girls. My life is just so much in turmoil I am really not sure what I want out of life anymore.
I am scared so much of having to go through divorce and worry myself sick that Alex won't have the luxuries in life but I guess I need to think of my own happiness too.
Sorry for going on girls!!
Di Alex is coming 8 months old now he will be 8 months on the 4th of October isn't time flying by? How you doing with the solids with your little one? Zoe not been around for a while so I am wondering how she is but I do know she has gone back to work.
Beck how are you?
Hope to hear from you soon.
Love
Shell.
xx
I never realised you had been through so much, omg I really didn't and here I am going on and we all have our own problems. Men do your head in at times. I am still having an hard time and I am so tempted to phone a solictor to get this sorted once and for all but then I don't because things will get better but they don't. I went out on Saturday night with my friends and Lee was ok to an extent but then on Sunday I asked Lee if he wanted to go to the seaside as family. He said he didn't want to go and that I could go to a car boot if I wanted to, which I enjoy doing and I said that it would be nice to all be together but he made it clear he wanted to be with his son. I would never take that away from him he did spend time with his son and bloody took him to the docks at Liverpool, I was so angry because I asked Lee to go out for the day but he ddin't want to spend the tiem with me but yet he can do something like that how pathetic, sorry girls. My life is just so much in turmoil I am really not sure what I want out of life anymore.
I am scared so much of having to go through divorce and worry myself sick that Alex won't have the luxuries in life but I guess I need to think of my own happiness too.
Sorry for going on girls!!
Di Alex is coming 8 months old now he will be 8 months on the 4th of October isn't time flying by? How you doing with the solids with your little one? Zoe not been around for a while so I am wondering how she is but I do know she has gone back to work.
Beck how are you?
Hope to hear from you soon.
Love
Shell.
xx
hi shell hope your ok
you have got to think what is best for you in the long run if you carry on like this you end up even more hurt
i tried putting up with hubby after i seen him in court just for the money to be honest i am in so much debt cause of him but i could not stand him ive been on my own to long now and everything he done got on my nerves and cause he was creeping so much, to me he should have been here when i was pregnant i went through it all on my own
but shell if you are going to be unhappy the way things are you will have to put and end to it you will be stressed and unhappy and that will affect alex in the long run, its not easy on your own im the first to admit it it has been really hard bringing ben up on my own but when he is asleep and you have time to yourself you think it wont always be this hard
do you live near liverpool? i live on the wirral,
im just giving ben bits of solids he wont feed himself though i have to put it in his mouth even his bottle
how is alex what do you feed him?
i really hope your feeling ok
love
di
you have got to think what is best for you in the long run if you carry on like this you end up even more hurt
i tried putting up with hubby after i seen him in court just for the money to be honest i am in so much debt cause of him but i could not stand him ive been on my own to long now and everything he done got on my nerves and cause he was creeping so much, to me he should have been here when i was pregnant i went through it all on my own
but shell if you are going to be unhappy the way things are you will have to put and end to it you will be stressed and unhappy and that will affect alex in the long run, its not easy on your own im the first to admit it it has been really hard bringing ben up on my own but when he is asleep and you have time to yourself you think it wont always be this hard
do you live near liverpool? i live on the wirral,
im just giving ben bits of solids he wont feed himself though i have to put it in his mouth even his bottle
how is alex what do you feed him?
i really hope your feeling ok
love
di
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bubblymichelle
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Hi Di,
Only me can decide what to do for the best, I am trying my hardest not to get upset round Alex and he is so happy and pleasant so I can't be to bad unless he wouldn't notice just yet. I am happy in one way that I am not living on my own but then in another when he is hurtful to me I could smash him one and not think any less of him. Liverpool is about 2 hours or maybe just under from where I am so you can understand why I was uptight about it. The thing is Alex wouldn't know any different going to a place like that. I am going to put forward us going to the lights at Blackpool and see what he says about that but only time will tell. Di you do have to try and stay strong and I guess its like you say its not easy!! but I guess in time it must get easier.
Whats the weather been like you today? its been dreadful here been raining all day.
Anyway got to go and sterlise those lovely bottles.
Alex is having packet foods (cow & gate, Farleys) but I am really struggling to get him to eat my own food. I have gave him some mashed potato with grated cheese and I have managed him to eat that but takes me forever and he loves ready brek in the morning, but least I can make that up with his milk with him not drinking it, that is a worry in itself.
So what bits is your little one taking?
Hope to hear from you soon.
Love & Hugs
Shell.
xx
Only me can decide what to do for the best, I am trying my hardest not to get upset round Alex and he is so happy and pleasant so I can't be to bad unless he wouldn't notice just yet. I am happy in one way that I am not living on my own but then in another when he is hurtful to me I could smash him one and not think any less of him. Liverpool is about 2 hours or maybe just under from where I am so you can understand why I was uptight about it. The thing is Alex wouldn't know any different going to a place like that. I am going to put forward us going to the lights at Blackpool and see what he says about that but only time will tell. Di you do have to try and stay strong and I guess its like you say its not easy!! but I guess in time it must get easier.
Whats the weather been like you today? its been dreadful here been raining all day.
Anyway got to go and sterlise those lovely bottles.
Alex is having packet foods (cow & gate, Farleys) but I am really struggling to get him to eat my own food. I have gave him some mashed potato with grated cheese and I have managed him to eat that but takes me forever and he loves ready brek in the morning, but least I can make that up with his milk with him not drinking it, that is a worry in itself.
So what bits is your little one taking?
Hope to hear from you soon.
Love & Hugs
Shell.
xx