2ww --- feeling so low ....

[Lana]

Hi Everyone,
first time here ... Am NOT in a good way. Have had a rough year. Did my first IVF in 2002, after a year of trying to get a stim ovulation. I have sever PCOS, anovulation and endometriosis. I had severe hyperstim from the IVF and although the cycle was almost cancelled, i was stable enough to do a day 5 transfer ... and fell pregnant with my precious baby girl. Been trying for #2 since May this year when she turned 1. Had 9 frozen embryos. Have had two cycles cancelled just before thawing/transfer, cos endometrium was not developing normally. then a lapscope. Finally, a 3 day transfer on 14 December. Of the 9 embryos, 4 were good and the 2 transferred were 6 cells with little fragmentation. AM trying so hard to be positive but am driving myself nuts. Did a HPT this morning (6 days post transfer). Negative. Anyone know when is the soonest you can test? I just feel so sure that I'm not pregnant. I am very emotional (crying at the drop of a hat), VERY bloated, headachy and thirsty. Is this the prog talking? I wnat to do another HPT ... and another .... until i get to my Beta test (28 Dec) ... so at least I get to find out first and not have some callous person just anouncing the result ever so casually.

I HATE that clinic and don't want to go back. The nursing staff are so cold. I might be one of 50 in a day, but honestly I feel like a piece of meat. AM feeling so low... AND ANGRY???


Anyone in a similar emotional space to me?
Happy Holidays to all
Lana

[Dolly]

Hi Lana, sorry to hear you're feeling so down during your 2ww. It is understandable though you have been through a lot.

I'm afraid I can't offer any advice as to when is the earliest you can test - but day 6 is definitely too early. In fact it is quite common for people to test as late as day 12 and get a -ve but then test on day 14 and get a positive. So I think the best advice is try not to test until the date your clinic have given you (easier said than done I know!). If your clinic does blood tests and you'd rather not be told on the phone - why don't you do a HPT on the morning of the blood test - that way you'll be prepared for what the clinic have to say.

It must be horrible if you hate your clinic so much. But hopefully it will all work out for you and you won't have to have much to do with them.

I'm on my 2ww as well. When is your test day? Mine is on 30th December - so still quite a way to go!

Sending you big hugs and hope you feel happier soon.

Love

Dolly

[Paige]

Lana:

My clinic does the blood test on day 10 post transfer, I had a day 3 transfer. I did an hpt 9 days post transfer and it was negative....I was so angry. Then I went to the clinic on day 10 to do my blood test, they called by 2 in the afternoon and it was +tive with very strong hcg levels. I talked to the Dr. later and asked why the hpt didn't work and he said it was way too early. That earliest you should use the hpts would be 15 days after egg retrieval....though some people on this board got positives earlier than that, I was just not one of them.
My negative hpt sent me spiralling into an angry mess as well. I would just try to keep away from them, though I know that is very hard to do!
I'm now almost 24 week pg with a little girl.
Best of luck to you.

Paige

[Toni]

Hi Lana

Sorry its been such a nightmare for you. I have just been through my first ivf cycle, and i had a blood test on day 16 (much later than other girls on here). My clinic does that with everyone - i guess just to give the most correct outcome. It did give you a choice of going in for the test on day 16, or doing a hpt on day 18 NO EARLIER!!! in saying that i did a hpt the day after i got my +ve from the clinic just cos i was determind to one day see a cross on that blasted stick. that was day 17, and it was still quite faint.

i dont really trust hpt's tho, I have friend with 2 children and it didnt show up on a hpt til 4 months into the pregnancy with both! Bizarre....

I would stay well clear of them for a while yet and just stick to what your clinic says, even tho they do sound horrible. Poor you - i get so angry when i hear of clinics being cold etc, like we dont have enough to deal with!

best of luck to you - stay in touch and let us know how it goes

Love and kisses

Toni xx

[Lana]

Hi everyone,
Thanks so much for your replies. I have been offline until today, and couldn't retrieve messages!!!! I am so relieved to have others to talk to.

I know I shouldn't do those HPT. It's almost like a compulsion! But i will wait until the day of my bloods, which is on tues 28th. I did decide to do a HPT before the bloods to see what the likely outcome will be.
Dolly, you and I are two days apart!!!

The bad news is that i experienced a severe trauma today, and hope that it won't cause me to miscarry if I have conceived. Unfortunately in the country I live in, crime is rampant and I was attacked by 6 armed men, whilest driving into my house. I am ok physically, but feel very shocked.

sending blessings and good wishes to all.
Love Lana

[Jools]

Oh my God, Lana! That's terrible. I hope you will be OK. I'm thinking of you.

Love Jools xx

[Toni]

Lana

that is awful - what a horrible thing to happen. God i was so shocked to read your post!!! I hope you are feeling a bit less shaky now...i dont know how i'd cope!!!

You just take care of yourself and as for the test, you only have 5 more sleeps to go, you can hang in there girl!!! hopefully christmas will keep you occupied and you wont think too much about those nasty hpt's!!

have a great christmas

love and kisses

Toni xx