I had a scan today (10 1/2 weeks pg) and one of my twins has died. It was fine 2 weeks ago at my last scan so this is just such a shock. I am so gutted, devastated and can't stop crying, but then feel so guilty for the other baby who I should be nurturing and be happy for.
They say that the surviving twin is fine, with it measuring 11 weeks, so this is a good sign. But I feel so scared that we will lose this one too.
I feel so ill and tired, and have cramps which seem to be getting worse. I am so worried that these cramps mean I am miscarrying the other twin. I keep on going to the toilet to see whether I am bleeding or not. The nurses can't say whether the dead baby will be absorbed or whether I will fully miscarry it and bleed. It is shrinking as it only measured 7 weeks 3 days whereas at the last scan it was 8 weeks in size.
My God, I don't know what I will do if I lose the other baby too. At 10 1/2 weeks I have told work colleagues and friends that I am having twins, and have bought books on twins.
Life can be so crap. It takes so long for us to actually conceive a baby and then I go and lose one. I must remain positive for this other one, and know that I am lucky to still be carrying one baby but I am just so scared. How will I get through the next few weeks until the next scan?????