For those of you who might remember me!!I havent posted on these boards for ages now, but had become a bit of a 'lurker'
keeping an eye on how you all were!I thought after reading Nickys(Packerfreeserve) post I too would share my good news to hopefully add to the encouragement she gave earlier in the week. I too have had a much longed for positive this Weds!!! We are in total shock and I truly was begining to think it would never happen. I am so scared now of anything going wrong, but I guess thats normal, and am just keeping positive until my scan on 3rd march.
Everything always seemed so great on all my cycles, great embies etc, but nothing ever seemed to work, I was diagnosed with borderline NK cells so took steroids, but still no joy. My consultant was pushing us towards PGS screening(an extra £2000) as she was at a loss too, but we decided to have one more go without this, and if it didnt work, have one final go using this.
I did do things slightly differently last time,I gave up work, I had my NK test re done 2 weeks prior to tmt and this was ok!? so no steroids or asprin!!!I had accupuncture throughout, I did as much of the Zita West stuff I could! I did the short/flare protocol and we went to blasto. Amazingly out of 13 eggs, I got 10 embies of which 8 made it to Blasto, incredible, but again was haunted by the past of all those ok embies that didnt work!! During the 2ww I had bad period pains which i had never had before on a full cycle, so all you 2ww girlies.... period pains are GOOD!!!
When I tested I thought I was seeing double!!
Too be honest it was pretty hard to focus through those tears of pure joy!!I just pray now that this story has a happy ending as I turn 40 in May and believed time was running out for me!!
My infertility was diagnosed over 15 years ago(tubal) so this has been a long journey. I am hoping that life does begin at 40 after all
.Although its really really hard at times girls(plenty of times I felt i was loosing the plot!), dont loose sight, it can happen. My DP always said to me 'if we knock at the door enough times eventually we will get let in' and he was right.
So now Im back on here, and as Im not working and I cant go to the gym I guess I will be posting a lot more!!
I cant end this post without a mention for my very special friend Dagny who I met through these boards. She truly is an amazing person and throughout all the heartache she has had to endure she has been supportive to me and always cracks a joke! Its her time next, and if any of us deserves boy/girl twins its her....see you soon honey and thank you for everything!(btw am still burping!!)
Lots of love and babydust to you all. its good to be back!!
Sue xxxxxxx
becky
....Help! Apart from that boobs are sore but its mainly my nipples, this i noticed before testing, and a white discharge(tmi!!). Anyway am kinda pleased I have some symptoms to keep reassuring myself its all ok.