I feel a little stupid and embaressed. I had my appointment today and landed up bursting into tears. All my specialist asked me was how I was? Those of you who know my history will know I had IVF go wrong last year with OHS, and I have been put back onto Chlomid which is making me a gibbering mess.......+ my period started yesterday.
What really added salt to the wound was when I asked why the Chomid didn't work 2 years ago, why would it work now...... he said the previous Dr didn't know what he was doing and your results from then showed you weren't ovulating while on it. The results this time round show that I am now....... so 'RELAX' and it'll happen! I should be pleased but I'm just so angry! Because I've been messed around so much, I feel I can't trust anyone.
PMA PMA PMA ........
A good afternoon for me too, I'm seeing my friend with her 11 month old son..... I really don't feel up to it! I've had my good sob, so here goes for round 2
Oh, and before i go.... if anyone has been on Chlomid, how long were your cycles? Mine are anything from 25 - 37 days????
Thanks for your help
Terrible Tessax
TTC 4.5 years
1st IVF (ICSI): OHSS (2005)
3 FET -neg
Treatment put on hold until August.
I was on Clomid for 6 months and it did play havoc with my cycles - like yours they ranged drastically. I do know that it does work though as my best friends first child is testament to that fact
I hope that you start feeling better soon.
Never feel ashamed for being emotional or needing to cry. People who don't go through this will never understand what it really does to you
Tessa ... I've never been on Chlomid, but I have cried at a hospital appointment. It's the whole stress of the whole situation. Don't feel bad about it - if you keep it inside you'll go loopy.
Hope you managed to get through the afternoon ...
Sandra x
Me 41 yrs old - dh 49 yrs old. ttc 110 yrs.
1st cycle (ICSI)....Mar 04 -ve.
2nd cycle (ICSI)....Aug 04 -ve.
3rd cycle FET........May 05 -ve.
4th cycle (ICSI) ... Feb 06 -ve
5th cycle FET ..... Feb/Mar 11
hang in there..
i took clomid and i got pregnant...
i am so sorry about your doc.. that is horrid about before..
does this doctor seem better.
it is important that you trust your doc and feel comfortable with him and his nurses..
and i cried to when i went in to talk with my doc..
all of your feeling meen you are human and that this is all very important to you..
give your self a hug and tell your self that you are going to make it and that you will be a great mother..
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
Hi just want to say hang on in there, sunshine will be shining soon. I know all about bad day's (see my post y'day about mine) but each day is different, and today I am full of PMA.
It's a roller coaster, all us girls know but at least we are all here to help each other smile.
Dont be embarassed, I am sure others have cried, we're only human. I have cried thousands of tears in the last 3.5 yrs.
A big hug to you!! x x x x x x
IUI using donor in 2005
1st IVF cancelled OHSS 2006
2nd IVF 4 eggs all failed to fertilise 2009
3rd IVF successful 2010 pregnant Miscarried early
FET negative 2011
ADOPTED DAUGHTER 2014
Tessa was on clomid for 6 months and periods regular as usual. was very tearful but and negative about chances of conceiving. Didn't have any side effects or so i thought but when came off clomid was much more positive and a bit more relaxed about it. took clomid again as part of iui cycle and all ok, been a bit tearful but no more than usual, also dh being alot more supportive this month so that could be making life easier.
good luck and OMA to oyu
love lisa xxx
I can totally relate. Yesterday my anaesthetist asked me how I was and I turned into a blubbering mess....I too was embarrassed as I am sure he was just asking to be polite. I will have to send him something special when I pay his account, the poor guy. Crying does help to relieve stress and I hope you felt better afterwards.
With regard to your clinic, my advice would be to ask as many questions as you can throughout your treatment. This will help to reassure you that they are managing your treatment appropriately and will help to build trust. This is my one regret throughout this whole process.
Take care of yourself and like the Doctor said, try and relax.
Best wishes
Heather
Me 39+4 DH 41
4th IVF May 06 - +ve
Natural conception Sep 07
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we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
Tessa - I cry at almost anything in ALL my apts I feel myself welling up at the idea of it working or not, or of all the babies my clinic have helped create (incl. my own).
They see lots of tears so never worry about that. It's an emotional time and that's the end of it
Thanks for all your help, I felt loads better last night while downing my 3rd glass of wine. Your comments have also made me feel I'm not the only one..... so Doccy won't look at me as though I've lost my marbles.... even though I have
I also feel a bit better about the chlomid thingy.... maybe I should just leave them to do their job and TRUST them. My last clinic stuffed me around so much that I blew a fuse with them..... and I was never sent another invoice, I got the next 2 transfer for nothing. It hasn't helped the pain go away though, nore did it improve the service.
Thanks so much again, I have so much more PMA today. Hubby is at work so I have the whole day to myself to...... RELAX!
Thanks again
Tessa (I like 'Terrific', but most of my frends call me 'Terrible' )
TTC 4.5 years
1st IVF (ICSI): OHSS (2005)
3 FET -neg
Treatment put on hold until August.
I did clomid about 5 years ago. That was our first step in our treatment. I honestly can't remember my emotions or my cycle details but what I do want to tell you is...
I had a few months with clomid and nothing was happening. I don't know if you have the same, it was tablets for a while then on day something I had to go in for a scan and an injection to release the egg and make me fertile for the next 24/48 hours or something. Anyway, on the last scan I had they found a cyst the size of an orange ( don't panic this isn't usual) so they refused to give me the jab and asked for me to go back in a couple of weeks for another scan. I did this and the doc said , well the cycst on your left side has gone down so thats good but you now have 1 on the right side we will have to book you in for a laporoscopy.
( I should really have posted this on the intro page lol)
Anyway, the laporoscopy showed I had severly ( can't spell) damaged tubes. I then had to have another op. quite a serious one to remove all my damaged tissue and stretch my tubes. Apparently the tubes were full of scar tissue which was stopping the natural fluid run through and causing cysts and imense pain. Anyway, I still haven't been lucky enough to fall pregnant and am now waiting for my 4th ivf.
I know this all sounds a bit negative to you, what I am trying to say is, although clomid din't work for ME it did let the doctors discover where my poblems are.
Positive 1. My friend never had a period for years, she had been on the pill for most of her mature life and when she came off never got her cycle back, she did clomid and on the FIRST attempt she went back to have a scan saying that she still hadn't had her cycle but felt it coming and they scanned her and she was pregnant!!!!
So good luck it can work, if nothing else it can be the stepping stone to the next positive move ( that's how I feel )xxxxxxxxxxxxx
As for crying !!! I cry every night before an appointment and I cry at nearly every appointment, I have to take tissues galore and a drink of water because I have panic attacks and can't breath or talk if I don't!! My DH thinks it is really funny because I am normally so positve and confident! You are def. not mad - you are one of us x
i have never been on clomid but cried my eyes out just after my very first appointment! I had read anything there was to know about ivf, icsi, drugs the works but collapsed after talking to the doctor. and i wasn't on any drugs at all!
Thanks for all the possitive vibes.... I still cringe when I think about crying, but at least didn't blow a fuse...... like I usually do when I'm emosional.
Leanne, thanks for the advice on the chlomid, funny thing is, they've seen cycts on my ovaries a few years ago, but told me it will go away on it's own??? Anyway, it was VERY helpful to hear about your friend. My periods have dissappeared for years. The first time they went I was 14 yrs, and they came back when I was 20, they went again when I was 24 and came back when I was 26? It worries me that this doesn't bother the doctors and it also makes me think that I would need a D&C to clear out all the old crud that has layed around for years!
Hopefully I'll be like your friend and have some good news soonXXXXX
Thanks so much again
Tessa
TTC 4.5 years
1st IVF (ICSI): OHSS (2005)
3 FET -neg
Treatment put on hold until August.
Hi Tessa,
I just wanted to say that although chlomid didn't work for me, it worked for my sister and she now has 3 beautiful girls!! the second two were normal conceptions too! However, the chlomid didn't work whilst she was on it but a month or so after she came off it and apparenty that's quite normal as it's in your system for a while. she didn't ovulate very often at all and it worked for her (and another person she knows who was trying for 4 years and then just after coming off chlomid she had her little girl and then went on to have a boy afterwards naturally). Don't want to get your hopes up but i know it's always nice to hear success stories so thought i'd post you mine (well, not mine unfortunately but you know what I mean!)
and don't worry about the tears - they've seen them 100's of times - it's the plate throwing that worries me (i'm having a bad day!!)
take care and best of luck x
When they saw that my cycst had gone down from one side and up on the next they weren't initially worried either, they said many women have cycst all through their life and never even know they have them. I think the reason we went for the laporoscopy was because of all the pain I was in also. Some days I couldn't even lift my leg up to get over the bath to get in the shower! It was so painful.
I was also pushing the issue of a laporoscopy because I had heard that just having your tubes flushed like that can help, but you know yourself when something just isn't right. I have to say that although it hasn't helped me get pregnant I have never had the pains again!
The doctors should do what's best for you.
Have they told you not t have intercourse for a few days before the injection ( think it's 3 days to get sprem at right time isn't it???)
I had my appointment today and landed up bursting into tears. All my specialist asked me was how I was? Those of you who know my history will know I had IVF go wrong last year with OHS, and I have been put back onto Chlomid which is making me a gibbering mess.......+ my period started yesterday.
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