Clare - hope your EC goes well today, do let us know how many eggies you get
Jane - I feel for you. I let my career take priority too, and by the time we started ttc I thought dh vasectomy reversal would be the big hurdle, but no, I had early menopause

I've given up saying what if, it doesn't help you just have to move forward and say, this is how it was meant to be. I could have had kids with hubby nr 1 when I was 25, but I left him as he didn't support my career, and wanted me to be a "surrey house wife" . But now I am so glad I don't have his children as my dh is the love of my life, and worth waiting for and all we are going through. I have fibroids to, intramural (non operable), the big one is behaving itself so far, will just have to wait and see, I can't control it so life will decide how things will go. Counselling would help you sweetie, you can't live with that guilt. believe me I know, and I've been in therapy for 2 years and it has helped enourmously.
I hope that helps you a little bit
Love bigJ

POF+autoimmune+dh antibodies,5.05 DIVF IM M/c 7.5 wks, DIVF+TESE at ISIDA - son 08/06
FET ISIDA: 12.07.07 m/c 8 wks b.ovum, 17 Dec 2007- BFP triplets OMG!!!
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