I've returned, but only just.

fiona_lk · Post by **fiona_lk** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 10:40 am

Hi everyone, Well, I can honestly say that the last fortnight has definitely been the worst of my life. The clinic had a problem with the bloodtest from the last friday I was on chat. We had an agonising wait over the weekend and had to be at the EPU of Hope hospital (on the far side of M/cr) for 8am on the Monday. Over the weekend, my mum decided to have a strop on me - she demanded to know what was wrong with me because I 'was getting FAT'!! What timing - but we stuck to our guns and told her she aught to be more caring and we MIGHT tell her - she's acting better, but still not told her yet though. I had started bleeding again on the monday, had another scan - AGAIN nothing was seen. Everyone is confused - its got to be SOMEWHERE for God's sake! They took blood, the dr insisting it was taken from my arm, and made a right mess. I had the injection at Hope to stop the pg at 1pm-ish (we'd been there over 6hrs) - its the same drugs used in cancer treatment, can you believe it? So, being signed off sick for 2 weeks, we decided to get away for a few days - went to Haworth (Bronte town) and chilled - lots of crying and hugging. Had another af - now 3rd lot of bleeding in 4 weeks. Had blood taken again on the fri - the EPU midwife overcame her fear of hands and eventually got blood, and monday - this time they got it from my wrists. Lots of failed attampts has left me black and blue. The hCG levels had risen to 9,178 last fri and 9,200 on monday. They think that the hCG has levelled out and will start to come down - but its blood and a scan again tomorrow. I just didn't realise it would take so long to sort out, especially after bleeding again - I'm feeling very similar to Debbie - really don't want to face the world, and especially not go back to work to be faced with a 6mth pg workmate! They may sign me off for another week as they want to monitor me. Sorry its so depressing, but I thought I'd been away long enough and you'd want an update. I really missed you guys - looks like I've lots of catching up to do, and lots of new names to remember. Love to everyone Fiona xxx

Charmaine · Post by **Charmaine** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 12:02 pm

Hello Fiona, So glad that you are back. You have been on my mind all the time. I can't believe what you have been through - Sounds so manic. I'm surprised they didn't do a colcoscopy on you though - which is utlimately how they found my Eptopic. You poor thing... So another scan and bloods tomorrow. What next.... Sending you a massive hug and lots of love Charmaine x

Sarah30 · Post by **Sarah30** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 1:44 pm

Hello Fiona Blimey - that all sounds awful, you poor things! Hope your few days away has helped to focus your minds and heal your hearts. You've really been through the mill. Wishing you all the best love sarah x

suzannemorris · Post by **suzannemorris** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 5:47 pm

Hi Fiona, really sorry to read all that you and your hubbie have been through recently. I hope you start to feel better soon. with regards to work, just tell them that you won't be back in until they either banish your pregnant collegue from the workplace (personally I think that should be mandatory, bloody cheek, wondering round the office making us all jealous!) or at least put her behind a partition! Sorry, sound a bit bitter and twisted don't I?! mmm wishing you both all the very best, Suzanne.

andreaj · Post by **andreaj** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 6:45 pm

Fiona, I'm so sorry for the way things have turned out for you and dh - what you've been through is dreadful enough on its own without you being turned into a human pin cushion. Am thinking of you. Andrea <><

DEBORAH · Post by **DEBORAH** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 7:53 pm

Hi Fiona Like everyone has said here and I am sure ALL the other girls on this website will agree that you did not deserve to go through what you have over the last 10years+. PLEASE BELEIVE ME WHEN IS SAY "MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU AND YOUR HUBBY". Love Debsx

Alison · Post by **Alison** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 7:54 pm

Dear Fiona - so relieved to see a post from you but awful to hear what you're still going through. You've been very much in my thoughts, as I'm sure you have been for so many of us on this board. Take care of yourself Much love Alison x

beck · Post by **beck** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 8:09 pm

hello fiona, my god mate you have been through it !!! just to let you know we are all here for you hunnie !! dont go away we want to help you.!! lots of love to you and hubby ! love beck. p.s i hope your mum give you all the support you need .

pru · Post by **pru** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 8:46 pm

Sorry to hear what you are going through Fiona and also hope you come to terms with it all soon. Great your DH is very supportive, exactly what you need.

Michelle · Post by **Michelle** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 9:14 pm

Fiona, I am so sorry for what you and dh have been through - how awful and unfair. I reiterate what all the girls above say and hope that time is a healer for you and dh. Please don't give up hope - that is not allowed on here! Stay in touch. Sending you loads of love Michelle xxx

tshepher · Post by **tshepher** » Thu Nov 21, 2002 11:45 am

Fiona So glad to hear from you and so sorry you've really been through the mill. I agree you shouldn't go back to work if you can't face it. Time for some serious "ME time" with hubby. One of the best phrases I've ever heard which sometimes helps to get me through life's special moments is "and this too shall pass". Take care and loads of love to you both Terri xxxxx

fiona_lk · Post by **fiona_lk** » Thu Nov 21, 2002 6:03 pm

Hi girls, Thanks again for your support - despite all that has happened, this has never dented our resolve to continue with treatment, but your words have certainly helped us regain our strength much faster than if we'd have been going through this alone. I'm glad to say that we're starting to come out the other side now. The bloodtest today has shown quite a drop in hCG levels to 7400, so its definitely only a matter of time now until things are back to normal. My wonderful cat Boris decided to launch himself from my lap this afternoon just at the point where all my pain started - still pretty tender and had a few anxious moments thinking he may ruptured my tubes - stupid heh, must take more than that. Anyway, they've given me a sick note for a further 2 weeks - feel a tad guilty about it (well for a second at least) Just had a lovely chat with a newbie - welcome Nicola. We'll 'chat' again very soon (mostly 8-ish most nghts someone'll be on) Love to everyone and good luck those cycling Fiona xxxx

karenkirwan · Post by **karenkirwan** » Fri Nov 22, 2002 11:53 am

Hi Fiona, I am so sorry about what has happened to you - you don't deserve it!! You have been a real inspiration to me and I am sure all the other girls will agree with me when I say that! Your time will come just keep believing and try and pamper yourself for a while and look forward to Xmas. Thinking of you. Luv Karen XX

fi · Post by fi » Fri Nov 22, 2002 5:26 pm

so glad you've returned... I have been logging on to see if you've been around been thinking about you and dh and hoping that you were hanging in there. if you fancy a chat email me love fi

Wicked Lady · Post by **Wicked Lady** » Sat Nov 23, 2002 2:23 pm

Only found this website on 21/11 and it has been such a help. Sending you both lots of love and to everyonelse who has had bad news this week. Don't give up. xxxxxxx

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