For Becky

becky · Post by **becky** » Mon Nov 25, 2002 7:00 pm

Thanks Bibby I have just read through the thread - I would be lost without all my IVF buddies... Another day almost over..pains all day long..and today was the first day that I found it hard to eat my toast ( worry I think!) I also fell asleep in the kitchen at work at lunch time...but I think that the pessaries make you tired..I was nice to read that Beck and you didnt feel pg at all..and both had loads of AF pains.. well..as you say only 4 more days now until I will know either way.. I am also going to try to promise myself not to log on Thursday night..I just want a night away from the world of IVF so I have a chance of getting a bit of sleep! I am glad that you are still okay - good sign that you were having a few problems eating toast today too!...sore boobs yet? Love becky b

becky · Post by **becky** » Wed Nov 27, 2002 8:41 am

Hi Bibby Please don't tell me off but I have been really stupid and had had enough of the painful crampings again all last night and the tossing and turning that I did a hpt this morning ( day 26 of my cycle!) My period comes anything between 25 days and 30 days..and it was a fat negative...I thought that it would pick up any amount of HCG and surely if I was pg then the embies would have implanted by now and would be producing HCG.? Any ideas I am so cross with myself ..didnt really think how I would feel afterwards..and of course poor hubby sounds really gutted... so no more hpt ever!!! We will just have to wait until Friday - but must say that little bit of hope that kept fluttering in my belly has now melted and gone....just feel like an empty shelll - trying to stay positive - what do you think - any advice? Theres me starting off really calm and positive and towards the end of 2ww becoming a impatient freak! I wish that I felt sick..or had sore nipples..even if it was just one!!lol- but a big fat nothing and I feel totally normal apart from the most horrendous pains that I have now had non stop since day 6 or 2ww or so.. I hope that you are all ok - 5 weeks on Friday hey! Love becky b

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Wed Nov 27, 2002 8:20 pm

Hello Sorry I've not been around. Had to work late last night (got home at 9.45pm) and been to see DH's mother tonight (she's in a home). Anyway, don't beat yourself up for doing a test - loads of people do it. I think you do need to listen to what the others have said on your other posting though - it could just be too early. The good thing is AF has still not arrived and you've only got 2 more days to go until you can test. I don't know about HCG levels and what would/wouldn't show up at 26 days (I'm hopeless I know), but the fact that AF hasn't arrived means you still have hope. We've all got everything crossed for you!!! Look after yourself & don't buy anymore hpts!!! lots of love Bibby [Edited by bibby on 27-Nov-02 20:21]

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Thu Nov 28, 2002 1:33 pm

Hiya! Just another quick message to say I hope you are ok and to wish you ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD for your test tomorrow. I've got everything crossed, and I will be thinking of you. I won't be able to check messages until I get home at 6pm friday so I hope it's good news and you post soon. lots of love Bibby

Sarah30 · Post by **Sarah30** » Thu Nov 28, 2002 1:35 pm

Hello Becky I'd like to wish you luck with your test tomorrow too and will be anxious to hear your news. Everything is crossed for you. Sarah x

becky · Post by **becky** » Fri Nov 29, 2002 7:05 pm

Sorry to end our thread with such bad news Bibby I got a negative result today - feel horrid..why have been put through all of these hiccups to fall at the end? I wish now that the cycle had have been cancelled all those weeks ago - life is so cruel...make us get 100% fertilisation rate and then big fat nothing on test day... Too sad really to think..nothing is making any sense today - dear hubby is so hurt..it makes me cry to see the tears run down his face...I am trying to be really strong but I think that my emotions are out of control. I hope that you are all okay and that every thing goes really well for you and your hubby. I dont think that I will log on for a while..we are seeing the consultant in January to talk through all of our options - as we have no frosties we would have to go through it all again...and pennies are rather low after this mega blast.. I wish I could think straight - I feel like I have lost my mind - I feel like my brain has lost my body and I am just an empty shell. Love Becky B

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Sat Nov 30, 2002 8:37 am

Becky I am so, so sorry for you after all you went through. It really is unfair. I know there is nothing I can say to make it better but I am thinking of you and DH and hope in January you are happy with whatever decision you make. I'll be popping in and out if you want to post. If not, I understand. lots of love Bibby

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