My hope and dream has come to an end :(

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wildfox
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My hope and dream has come to an end :(

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Hi everyone

Well, I was due to test on Friday 01Jul....

On my successful IVF in 2003, I tested 4 days early with a First Response hpt and it was +ve. I just wanted to get past/prepare myself for day 10/11, which is when I got my AF during my previous unsuccessful IVF....which was exactly 14 days after EC (or ovulation in a natural cycle, which is when I normally get AF).

So I tested yesterday, again 4 days before test date and it was -ve. I was very upset but I knew in my heart that this cycle wasn't as good as previously....

I know each pregnancy is different, and it could have been a late implanter, so testing early might be giving me a false negative...

However, my AF reared its ugly head this evening, exactly 14 days after EC, as predicted....

So I am afraid it's over for me...my embies didn't want to stay any longer.

However, congratulations to all those who have recently got positives, and my heart lies along side those who haven't.

Love Steph xx
Me-39yrs DH - 44yrs
!st IVF - Nov/Dec 02 -VE
2nd IVF - Feb/Mar 03 +VE..Daughter in Nov 03
3rd IVF - May/Jun 05 -VE
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Post by Smita »

Hi! :(
Hugs to you steph..Can imagine how low you'll be feeling..
Please test on the 1st as scheduled..Miracles happen.
Wishing you luck and laughter..
me-32, dh 40
ttc 4+ years
4 failed IUI's
1st ICSI +ve 17/6/05:)
Baby girl Dhruvaa born on 14/02/06
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I am sorry

Post by tolbee »

I am sorry about the arrival of AF. Knowing that you have had a successful IVF in the past, I am sure things will work out for you in the near future!
Rest for now and take care of yourself.
Tolbee
Me: 36 DH: 34
IVF June 05 +ve DS born 2/27/06
FET June 07 +ve B/G Twins born 2/11/2008 at 34 wks + 4 days
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Post by LittleP »

Steph

I am so sorry - take care of yourself and take plenty of time out to come to terms with this.

Thinking of you and sending loads of PMA your way.

Love and hugs

Little P
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Post by DeniseM »

Steph,

I'm sorry about your -tive, and that you're feeling so bummed.

Take time to treat yourself, and when you're ready try again.

My thoughts are with you.
IUI twins ~ July 2006
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Post by Ellie »

Steph
Sorry about the negative and AF turning up it is heartbreaking isn't it. I know I can't say anything to help but my thoughts are with you. It makes you realise how special your DD is doesn't it?
Ellie
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Post by taylorjools »

So sorry steph

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Post by wildfox »

Thank you for all your kind words...

Having a hard time today...it hurts when you actually see your AF again, when I said goodbye to it last month for at least 9 months :(

My longing for a 2nd child is just as strong as before, and the hardship of failing is just as hard to swallow, as before...

Love Steph x
Me-39yrs DH - 44yrs
!st IVF - Nov/Dec 02 -VE
2nd IVF - Feb/Mar 03 +VE..Daughter in Nov 03
3rd IVF - May/Jun 05 -VE
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Post by NickiMark »

So sorry to hear that dear x x
TTC 6yrs......Have jumped off the rollercoaster for now, too many BFN's and too much heartache, to keep going....Moving on to fulfil other dreams!!!
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Post by cmg »

Steph I'm so sorry to hear about your disappointment. I used to assume that those of us with no children were the ones who longed the most, until someone pointed out that you have an even clearer idea of what you're missing if you've got one already and want another.

Take good care of yourself and your DH (DP?) and give yourselves time before rushing into any decisions.

love Caroline
me - 44, DH - 48

2002 ectopic (natural conception)
2004 1st IVF cancelled following brain seizure
2005 June/July 2nd IVF - negative
2005 Nov FET - postponed cos my Mum died
2006 - Feb FET planned, but neither frostie survived the thaw.
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Post by lumi »

I am so sorry Steph my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Lumixxxx
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Post by eskavon »

I'm so sorry steph,
I'm sending you a huge hug
Eskavon xx
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Post by ogr1 »

i am very sorry that you are having to go threw this.
please know that you are not alone..
becky
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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Post by Sand »

Steph .. I'm really sorry to hear your news. You should still test anyway on 1st - just to be ABSOLUTELY certain .. but, you know your body I guess ...

Take care

Sandra x
Me 41 yrs old - dh 49 yrs old. ttc 110 yrs.
1st cycle (ICSI)....Mar 04 -ve.
2nd cycle (ICSI)....Aug 04 -ve.
3rd cycle FET........May 05 -ve.
4th cycle (ICSI) ... Feb 06 -ve
5th cycle FET ..... Feb/Mar 11
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Post by kagome »

sorry to hear that AF has arrived. sending lots of HUGs your way
me 33 dh 32 TTC 3
1st icsi-mar05 cancelled
2nd icsi-aug05 3dt -ve
3rd icsi-Dec05 5dt +ve
4th icsi-Apr08 5dt. +ve
5th icsi-aug12 cancelled
6th icsi-oct12 cancelled
7th icsi-dec12 3dt -ve
8th icsi-feb13 5dt +ve found no hb just sac
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