Caroline (cmg) - Test Thurs 14 July

olivia · Post by **olivia** » Tue Jul 12, 2005 8:14 pm

good luck caroline!!

me · Post by me » Tue Jul 12, 2005 8:18 pm

good luck everything crossed for you XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxx
Kerry

ShannonO · Post by **ShannonO** » Tue Jul 12, 2005 9:36 pm

Best of luck -- Sending positive positive thoughts your way!!

taylorjools · Post by **taylorjools** » Tue Jul 12, 2005 11:00 pm

Caroline

you can be sure I am thinking of you and sending you all the baby dust I can get.....in addition the cool boyz are round your way getting the implantaion imp sorted.

YOu are a www (wise womb woman

) so you'll be fine

Love and hugs

bigJ

princess · Post by **princess** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 6:48 am

Good luck Caroline.

Sand · Post by **Sand** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 7:03 am

Only one more sleep to go !!! Lots of PMA !!

Sandra x

cmg · Post by **cmg** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 8:39 am

Thanks for all your support, girls, but to be honest I think it's all over now. The spotting has turned to bleeding. It's not very heavy, but my periods never are. DH keeps asking whether this is like a normal period and i realise that I have no idea - normally, at the first sign of bleeding, I stick a tampon in and forget about it. So I'm not used to monitoring flow so closely. All I know is that it's fresh blood, there's always quite a lot when I go to the loo and a bit (not much but a bit) on a pad. Sorry, getting into TMI here but basically doesn't sound like good news.

Yesterday I was devastated but today I feel quite calm. I'll test tomorrow just in case, and no doubt the grief will kick in when I get it confirmed, but today I'm alright.

love Caroline

Ellie · Post by **Ellie** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 8:58 am

Caroline
Yust logged in to see how you are. You sound very calm and strong,hang in there .I know it so hard but we are all here when you need us. I will be thinking of you today.Take care.

LittleP · Post by **LittleP** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 10:01 am

Caroline

Just wanted to send my love and hugs - will keep everything crossed that things change and tomorrow brings better news.

Take care

Little P

hlloyd · Post by **hlloyd** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 11:22 am

Caroline, hang in there until tomorrow. I hope the test results knock your socks off and give you the surprise of your life!

Take care
Heather

michelle_in_scotland · Wed Jul 13, 2005 5:19 pm

Caroline, i'm sorry to hear about your bleeding, i know exactly what you are going through.
I'm really hoping you get much better news than i did, my fingers are crossed so tightly for you.
Take care,
Lotsa love

Michelle
xxxx

cmg · Post by **cmg** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 5:31 pm

Thanks guys.

Heather I was just reading your post and thinking, no I don't think it is going to surprise me. But then, it wouldn't be a surprise if I was expecting it, would it! So who knows?

Michelle, I've been thinking of you today. I know that if anyone knows what I'm going through it's you, having been here so recently. It's definitely full on bleeding now, so I don't hold out much hope at all. In fact, I opened a bottle of wine last night, I'm that sure that it's over. I'm kind of surprised by how ok I feel emotionally. I keep expecting to be hit in the face by grief like a baseball bat. Yesterday was much much worse. I think the anxiety that it might be going to fail was worse than knowing it actually had. How are you finding it? Do you go in and out of the feelings or did you just get it all out of your system in one go?

Thanks everyone else for your support. You've been great and I couldn't have got through this without you. I'll test in the morning and let you know.

love to all

Caroline

michelle_in_scotland · Wed Jul 13, 2005 5:48 pm

Caroline, the first day i saw the blood i wasn't sure what to think, one minute thinking it's only spotting could be a good sign, the next thinking AF was definately about to start full on and broke down. It really hit me hard when full flow started, was in such a state i had to phone in sick from work. Took the next couple of days to come to terms with it and by the time test day came i was so calm. When they finally gave the -ve result it was like such a relief. Drunk a bottle and a half of wine on monday night and felt so wasted, Michael practically had to carry me to bed

it's been that long since i had a drink it went straight to my head.
Now i'm just looking forward to having a wee break away somewhere and hopefully be ready to start again soon.
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.
Take care.
Lotsa love

Michelle
xxxx

lumi · Post by **lumi** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 5:57 pm

Michelle and Caroline

I know how you feel. With my spotting I thought it could be a good thing and although AF didnt and still hasnt arrived I knew that it had been going on too long to be a good thing. Its like a relief to get some news either way. Then you can grieve and plan ahead.

Take care both of you

Lumi xxxx

cmg · Post by **cmg** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 6:38 pm

you're right Lumi, it is a relief to know, although I don't know for certain til tomorrow. Must be awful for you still being in a kind of limbo.

Michelle, I seem to have gone through the same kind of feelings as you but speeded up! I still think there is more to come though and I don't know if I will be doing it again, so I may have the whole "grieving for the child I'll never have" thing to come. BTW at the best of times if I drank a bottle and a half of wine I'd probably be hospitalised, never mind have to be put to bed! I've always been a bit of a lightweight!

take care of yourselves and thanks again for being there. This place is really special, isn't it

caroline

Caroline (cmg) - Test Thurs 14 July

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