Gosh am I getting desperate....???? Unfortunately I think that my sig. should say it all. I am finally fed up with the roller coaster ride. After 7 years you would think that I would jump off at the first opportunity, but the closer I get to the end of my journey through infertility I do get sad. It is a roller coaster that I have gotten used to. We have decided to try IVF up to 3 times when Dh returns from deployment (we are military) and then we will let it go. This is for my sanity and for his, but it is sad to think that we are nearing the end of this chapter in our lives. There was always hope and it is dwindling. I really am not even holding out much hope for IVF but who knows what God has planned.
It is hard to explain this concept to anyone who has not been there and my sister has just really begun her journey with endometriosis (ttc 2 yrs) and is only now realizing what I have been through for all these years.
I have been a member of numerous boards throughout the years and have drifted in and out as my sanity required. I have been in need of a few good shoulders to lean on lately and thought I would give it another shot.
I thank any of you who made it through this post. And just ask that you bear with me for the next little while until I get past my "moppy" stage. It is especially hard when Dh is deployed and most of those that support me during that time are mothers, it just hard to get away from the fact that I am not.
Thanks again! and God bless all of you!
