Here's my story.....

[ziganddi]

I'm currently on 2WW. My test is schedule for this Friday, July 22nd.
Needless to say, I'm sick to my stomach with worry.

Here's my story....I'm sure you've heard it a million times.

I'm 38 years old. This is my first IVF. We've been trying for over 2 years. But very aggresively for the last year. I'm surronded by fertile Myrtles in my family so I was conviced I would get pregnant quickly.

Last year I found out I had a little scaring from a LEEP procedure over
5 years ago. We took care of that right away. DH and I were conviced
that was why we couldn't get pregnant.

I went through 3 rounds of clomed/insemination. I responded very well. But no sucess. I was a little dispointed but not discouraged.
Then I went through two rounds of Repronex/insemination. At first the needles totally scared me but it wasn't that bad. Unfortunately that was a bust too. Now I'm pissed.

The Dr tells me there's no reason I shouldn't get pregnant. I respond well to the drugs. All my levels are were they're suppose to be. I guess I'm another one of thoses 'undetermined infertilty" cases. That's just great!!

So here we are at IVF. The doctor hasn't told me yet. But I believe that I'm just one of those people with OLD EGGS. After all the drugs and needles that I had to endure for IVF I only produced 6 follicles. Of those 6 only 4 eggs were good. I was dissapointed in the number. But the good thing was they were good. They fertiled on their own. That made my DH happy (you know his boyz got the job done without ICSI).

However here's the part that busted by bubble. The 4 embryos were not rated the best quality. On a scale of 1-4, All 4 were 2's. DH and I had decided that the most we would put back would be 2 or 3. The doctor recommened all 4 get transfered. I was sick. I new that my chances were very slim if the doctor was throwing all of them back in. DH is freaking out - he thinks were getting Quadruplets. I'm thinking the IVF is not going to work. I worked myself up to frenzie last week and had a total meltdown. I cryed for 3 days straight. Which is very unlike me. At this point I feel no symptoms and I've convinced my self it didn't work. My test is Friday. If I'm pregnant it will be a miracle.

The thought of going through IVF again is also making me sick.
I don't have any infertile friends (they just don't get it) so I'm reaching out this this website for support.

[americnliberty]

Welcome ziganddi!!

Well you've come to the right place. Everyone here will understand what you are going through and have the highest morale for you. Most of the women have positive stories to share or just have such positive attitudes which really uplift most of our spirits! I wish you all the blessings and luck on Friday when you test! Let us know how you are doing and what comes from Friday. I also know that these women can answer almost any question you may have...so don't be afraid to ask!

[Tracii]

Hi ziganddi, I am sorry to read that your IVF cycle has been so traumatic. It really is a rollercoaster ride...not only is your body going through so much but your hormones are all messed up and then your emotions come into play....but please do not give up hope!! There are so many success stories on this board and IVF does work!

I too had only 6 follicles (I am 35, extremely healthy and totally normal hormone levels). I cried for days after my first ultrasound...but it only got worse because I ovulated early and had only 1 egg! Needless to say the quality was horrible...they did not even grade it - full of fragmentation.

I kept reminding myself after my -ive that the first IVF (unfortunately) is a trial run (some woman do get very lucky)...every woman responds differently to the drugs and in fact respond differently during each cycle. I too thought my eggs are 'old'...but if they were then the doctor would have recommended assisted hatching...also the doc would have definitely said something.

Please do not worry about your eggs...you have 4 little embis and this is a great success!! I look forward to reading your good news

P.S. - there are stories of woman on the board with very poor quality embryos that went on to get preggers

[Sand]

Hi there - Welcome to the Site .. We all know just what hell you're going through. The fact that you have no symptoms means nothing. We've had many a girl here with no symptoms who then go on to get BFP. We'll add your name to the July Test list ..... hope that's okay with you - if not just shout.

Good luck - !

Sandra

[DebraP]

Hello, I just wanted to say don't give up hope yet. I had my first round of IVF at 38 and was first time lucky, it does happen

Also, just to try to calm your DH down I had 3 embryos transferred back in April, 1 took which seems pretty normal odds, try to enjoy these last few days. We do understand on here, look at most of our signatures!

good luck on Friday
Debra.

[ziganddi]

Well, tomorrow's my big day. I almost broke down and pick up
a Pregnancy test at the pharmacy but then chickened out.
I was too scared to find out the truth. Plus the doctor said it might
be a false positive because of the HCG shot I took last week.

I am getting some symptoms - boobs hurts, and I'm bloated. But that
could by my menses coming. I'm a little nervous but I'm pretty much
prepared now for both outcomes. I feel much better after hearing all
your responses. If it's a NO - then I move on the try again.
If it's YES - all of you will hear my scream!!!

I'll be in touch. Thank you for listening.

[ziganddi]

Well, guess who broke down and picked up a pregnancy test. Not me.
DH did. So this morning before leaving for the Dr's office I took it.
It was a '+' sign which means it's positive. My boobs are killing me today.
I'm not getting my hopes up yet. It still could be a false positive. But I'm glad it wasn't a NEGATIVE. I will celebrate when I get the bloodwork done this afternoon.

Spakling Water if it's a positive.
A bottle of Merlot if it's not.

For now it looks promising. I'm keeping a positive attitude.

Now DH is nervous. He thinking Quadruplets. He's crazy.

I'll be in touch later today with the REAL RESULTS.

[DebraP]

wow....yes that really does sound promising. If the clinic have said today's the day for testing, I can't see it will be any different this afternoon.....sounds like the merlot is off - HOORAY!

congratulations,
Debra.

[ziganddi]

The test was posisitive. WE ARE PREGNANT!!
Now the question is - HOW MANY??!?!

I don't think it has sunken into my brain yet.
I'm pretty calm about it so far. Plus I don't feel any
different.

I guess I'm pretty lucky to have a succesful IVF the
first time around.

I'll be in touch.

[Sand]

I've seen your news on the General .. Well done to both of you !!

Sandra x