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Just FYI...I took a HPT on July 2nd which came out -ve....My test date was July 6th...I took a HPT the AM of July 6th and it was +ve and then confirmed by HCG levels...And Look at me now??? Dont give up til you have confirmation through blood test....HCG is what makes that second line show up and it shows up in your urine last...
PMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Baby DUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOOOOO SAD
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tonyacheek24
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BFN, so sad
Welp!
I had my bloodtest and confirmed a negative for me. I'm so sad I cried all day. I feel like I don't want to do it anymore. I can't understand everything went perfect and it was negative, so by me doing it again, I dont see how that increases my chances. NO matter how many eggs they take, they are only going to use 2, I'm just sad and frustrated right now. I hope everyone who had test date was really positive. Don't mind me I'm just hurt. My doctor told me to do another cycle but get this. THey want you to do a fresh cycle because they say the one's that's frozen are only 35% chance. So of course I would do a fresh cycle if it gave a better chance but what was the point of freezing??? All of this is confusing to me.
Tonya
me 27 dh 26
1st IVF &ICSI -neg
I had my bloodtest and confirmed a negative for me. I'm so sad I cried all day. I feel like I don't want to do it anymore. I can't understand everything went perfect and it was negative, so by me doing it again, I dont see how that increases my chances. NO matter how many eggs they take, they are only going to use 2, I'm just sad and frustrated right now. I hope everyone who had test date was really positive. Don't mind me I'm just hurt. My doctor told me to do another cycle but get this. THey want you to do a fresh cycle because they say the one's that's frozen are only 35% chance. So of course I would do a fresh cycle if it gave a better chance but what was the point of freezing??? All of this is confusing to me.
Tonya
me 27 dh 26
1st IVF &ICSI -neg
It is your first try....Please don't give up yet...It took me 3 tries....but nothing but time can take away the hurt you feel right now....Have a good cry and a glass of wine, maybe sit in a hottub and get it all out so you are re-energized to try again
3rd IVF/ICSI June 2005 +ve Connor Xzavior Amato born 10/21/05 already dreaming.
4th IVF/ICSI Mar 2006 +ve Logan Tyler born safely 12/18/06
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4th IVF/ICSI Mar 2006 +ve Logan Tyler born safely 12/18/06
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Tonya!
I am so sorry. My first IVF ICSI failed as well....It sucked because I had the sore boobs... I had the nausea I knew exactly the day I lost them... It was a Monday. I tested a home pregnacy test on tuesday and had it confirmed by the Dr.s that afternoon. I was pissed. My sis in law's worked on the first time so why not mine.
I wasn't too thrilled about the odds of the the frozen embies that they gave me at my clinic... I actually thought about just starting all over. They convinced us with four frozen that you "might get 2 to survive the thaw" I did what they suggested, I started acupuncture by a woman who specializes in infertility and is highly regarged in her profession although I was VERY skeptical. They did my FET in Aug all four thawed although 2 did "look so good" today my test was positive. I was shocked. Today is a gift and I realize that. Tomoorow it can be taken away.
Please do not loose faith in you or your clinic. Do cry and complain- you have every right to. Do all the things you can't do while you are pregnant because next time you will be..Like eat tuna. or blue cheese or get slap happy snockered. It will happen when the time is right. Just believe that. Took me 2 times- It averages out to being 3 times for most women.
Please take care of yourself- Thinking of you.
Jodi.
I am so sorry. My first IVF ICSI failed as well....It sucked because I had the sore boobs... I had the nausea I knew exactly the day I lost them... It was a Monday. I tested a home pregnacy test on tuesday and had it confirmed by the Dr.s that afternoon. I was pissed. My sis in law's worked on the first time so why not mine.
I wasn't too thrilled about the odds of the the frozen embies that they gave me at my clinic... I actually thought about just starting all over. They convinced us with four frozen that you "might get 2 to survive the thaw" I did what they suggested, I started acupuncture by a woman who specializes in infertility and is highly regarged in her profession although I was VERY skeptical. They did my FET in Aug all four thawed although 2 did "look so good" today my test was positive. I was shocked. Today is a gift and I realize that. Tomoorow it can be taken away.
Please do not loose faith in you or your clinic. Do cry and complain- you have every right to. Do all the things you can't do while you are pregnant because next time you will be..Like eat tuna. or blue cheese or get slap happy snockered. It will happen when the time is right. Just believe that. Took me 2 times- It averages out to being 3 times for most women.
Please take care of yourself- Thinking of you.
Jodi.
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Want2BAMommy
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BFN....I am soooooooooo upset, i cried all day at work...i can't imagine my life without a baby...this sucks, i am so sorry for all of us...my heart is hurting so bad
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having twins!!!!
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having twins!!!!
Dawn,
I am SO very,very sorry for what you're going through. I know what you're going through because I went through this the first time around. Honey, it will be okay. You have seven beautiful embryos waiting for you! I know it's easier said than done, but I went through exactly what you've gone through. SDFC is wonderful about the thawing process too. I had three embryos left, and all of them survived the thaw. And I'm still pregnant! You have more chances to be a mom, Dawn. I don't know what you wanna do at this point, but if you feel you were destined to be a mom, it will happen. Remember, it's not over. You still have more chances. My prayers and thoughts go out to you and your DH. Please, if you need anything, let me know...
I am SO very,very sorry for what you're going through. I know what you're going through because I went through this the first time around. Honey, it will be okay. You have seven beautiful embryos waiting for you! I know it's easier said than done, but I went through exactly what you've gone through. SDFC is wonderful about the thawing process too. I had three embryos left, and all of them survived the thaw. And I'm still pregnant! You have more chances to be a mom, Dawn. I don't know what you wanna do at this point, but if you feel you were destined to be a mom, it will happen. Remember, it's not over. You still have more chances. My prayers and thoughts go out to you and your DH. Please, if you need anything, let me know...
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Smita
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Dear Dawn and Tonya,
So sorry to hear your news..Was hoping for a bfp for you both..
I know its really painful, but the sun will shine again and the pain will fade.
take time out and pamper yourselves with some wine.
hugs,
smita
So sorry to hear your news..Was hoping for a bfp for you both..
I know its really painful, but the sun will shine again and the pain will fade.
take time out and pamper yourselves with some wine.
hugs,
smita
me-32, dh 40
ttc 4+ years
4 failed IUI's
1st ICSI +ve 17/6/05:)
Baby girl Dhruvaa born on 14/02/06
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ttc 4+ years
4 failed IUI's
1st ICSI +ve 17/6/05:)
Baby girl Dhruvaa born on 14/02/06
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tonyacheek24
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Dawn, I know exactly how you feel. I'm crying as we speak when I type this message. The only thing I can say is to just try again, because what other options do we have. I only have two to thaw but I mines as well start all over. It's really tuff It feels like a death, but we just have to hang in there. You can email me at tonyacheek24@yahoo.com anytime. It's soo hard man I know how you feel. I feel the same way.
getting a neg is so damn hard.. i am very sorrryth that you are having to go threw this awful pain.
and you are right it is not fair.
for me to get thrw it i had to figure out what my next step was and if there was any reason why i got a neg.. and what could be done..
and again i am very sorry ..
and you are right it is not fair.
for me to get thrw it i had to figure out what my next step was and if there was any reason why i got a neg.. and what could be done..
and again i am very sorry ..
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
Dawn and Tonya ... So so sorry girls, that you've had bad news this time. It will hurt so much for a while, but it will get better.
Take care
Sandra x
Take care
Sandra x
Me 41 yrs old - dh 49 yrs old. ttc 110 yrs.
1st cycle (ICSI)....Mar 04 -ve.
2nd cycle (ICSI)....Aug 04 -ve.
3rd cycle FET........May 05 -ve.
4th cycle (ICSI) ... Feb 06 -ve
5th cycle FET ..... Feb/Mar 11
1st cycle (ICSI)....Mar 04 -ve.
2nd cycle (ICSI)....Aug 04 -ve.
3rd cycle FET........May 05 -ve.
4th cycle (ICSI) ... Feb 06 -ve
5th cycle FET ..... Feb/Mar 11
want to be a mommy! I understand. I was BFN last week, it sucks, it's so unfair. Just want you to know i am with ya. x
TTC 6yrs......Have jumped off the rollercoaster for now, too many BFN's and too much heartache, to keep going....Moving on to fulfil other dreams!!!
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Dawn.
Iam so sorry about yesterday. Like I told Tonya- my first didn't work and I did the FET. I was so angry until we started the meds for the next go around. I cried/fought with DH, mom MIL everyone. We went on Vcay right when we started the meds again. but the wound was still fresh- I met my IVF neice that was born in Feb. that was REAL hard- then we went to my inlaws where(they didn't mean too- everything revolved around her daughter and the new baby)- It is ok to cry, t0 be mad- Just try to take care of yourself and do things that will make you feel better- whether it is eating out, drinking a favorite beer or wine or mixed drink, going to a concert, buying something decedent. Just do something for you and DH. If you have anyquestions about anything just ask- someone here I am sure has been though it. Cycy seems like a GREAT source of information since you guys are at the same clinic. Take care and know that people are there for you- have felt the same emotions you are feeling right now.
Love,
Jodi
Iam so sorry about yesterday. Like I told Tonya- my first didn't work and I did the FET. I was so angry until we started the meds for the next go around. I cried/fought with DH, mom MIL everyone. We went on Vcay right when we started the meds again. but the wound was still fresh- I met my IVF neice that was born in Feb. that was REAL hard- then we went to my inlaws where(they didn't mean too- everything revolved around her daughter and the new baby)- It is ok to cry, t0 be mad- Just try to take care of yourself and do things that will make you feel better- whether it is eating out, drinking a favorite beer or wine or mixed drink, going to a concert, buying something decedent. Just do something for you and DH. If you have anyquestions about anything just ask- someone here I am sure has been though it. Cycy seems like a GREAT source of information since you guys are at the same clinic. Take care and know that people are there for you- have felt the same emotions you are feeling right now.
Love,
Jodi
Tonya & Dawn
I am sorry ladies. I know it sucks. I know how much it hurts.
But don't give up, you can't give up. We all want to be mommies so much . I know I would cut off my own foot if it meant I could be a mommy.
Keep yourselves going. we are here for you.
Love
Joy
I am sorry ladies. I know it sucks. I know how much it hurts.
But don't give up, you can't give up. We all want to be mommies so much . I know I would cut off my own foot if it meant I could be a mommy.
Keep yourselves going. we are here for you.
Love
Joy
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