emotional roller coaster

Lulu · Post by **Lulu** » Wed Jan 08, 2003 5:18 pm

haven't been on site for past week and am a little unsure about posting this message after all the bad news but just wanted to share the emotional roller coaster i have been on for the past few days. Am now 7wks pregnant, concieving just before Xmas but also falling ill with fever, coughing, cold etc at same time. began to feel better last week but all pregnancy symptons had stopped. my worst nightmare seemed to be coming true when I began bleeding late friday night. After miscarring in my last pregnancy i was convinced it was happening again. Could not get a scan until yesterday and have spent the last 4 days waiting for the inevitable to happen. I can't describe what it felt like lying on the table at the hospital whilst the nurse did the scan, with screen turned away from me. it seemed to take forever until she turned to me, smiled and said there is a little baby in there and there is its heartbeat - I was in tears and couldn't believe it. I know it is still early days and I didn't miscarry till 10wks last time but at least i know there is a heartbeat for now and its fingers crossed for the next 5 wks. my heart goes out to all of you who have suffered a loss recently - thinking of you all louise (lulu)

Michelle · Post by **Michelle** » Wed Jan 08, 2003 6:22 pm

Hi Lulu I am so thrilled that you got to see your little heartbeat! I will keep everything crossed that all will be well - I'm sure it will be. Also, I have also just miscarried and the Dr. told me that there is a higher chance of miscarriage with a first pregnancy plus I also read in one of my many pregnancy books that if you miscarry once you have a 95% chance of not miscarrying the next time - a statistic I LOVE (for once!). Please take care and rest as much as possible. Love Michelle x

Lisa C · Post by **Lisa C** » Wed Jan 08, 2003 9:12 pm

Hi Lulu Fab news, hope all goes well for you and dh. Take care Love Lisa

Dawn · Post by **Dawn** » Wed Jan 08, 2003 10:51 pm

Hi Lulu So pleased for you, bless. Get lots of rest. Love Dawnx

Lulu · Post by **Lulu** » Thu Jan 09, 2003 10:15 am

Hi all- thanks for all your messages, i know I'm going to be oaranoid over the next few weeks but will try and relax!!(fat chance) Michelle - i hadn't heard that statistic but will certainly remind myself of it over next few weeks. So sorry to read your news - my heart goes out to you. I hope you and your DH are taking lots of time out for each other at this time. here's hoping for a good 2003 Louise

tshepher · Post by **tshepher** » Mon Jan 13, 2003 12:58 pm

Lulu Excellent news. Am thrilled for you. For those of us who have MC'd before, it's never easy getting to and passing those milestones. I am 9 weeks this week and disappearing up my own back-side with worry but at the same time trying to stay calm. It's a nightmare but one we all too willingly put ourselves through. Best of luck to you LOL Terri xxxxx

Lulu · Post by **Lulu** » Mon Jan 13, 2003 2:59 pm

terri - have posted under 'still cant believe it' and just seen your message here. You're right - I think once you've suffered a m/c paranoia sets in - I know I am analysing every little twinge. I think my biggest fear is that I had no sickness or pregnancy symptons last time and the scan showed no heartbeat at 10.5 wks and I still have no symptons this time. You start to wonder how much is paranoia and how much is justified concern - just how often do you plague the Dr. with every pain? All I know is that I had a stomach pain for 2-3 hrs on Saturday but nothing since and no sign of bleeding. Should I worry? Who knows?? Oh well - only another 17 days till the next scan!!!!!!! Here's to positive thinking!!!!!! LOL Louise (lulu)

tshepher · Post by **tshepher** » Mon Jan 13, 2003 3:47 pm

Lulu Not sure if it helps or not but last time I had all the symptoms but still showed at a 9 week scan that there was no heartbeat. Apparently, even though the heart had stopped, the hormones continue to course round your body. I'm honestly not trying to make you feel worse but what I am trying to say, probably very ineptly, is that I don't think it matters either way. The whole thing really is pot luck. Everything seems to be looking good for you so far, so hang onto the positives and think of all those women who don't even realise that they are pregnant until they are about to give birth because thay didn't have any symptoms at all !! Good Luck LOL Terri xxxx

Eve_ · Post by **Eve_** » Mon Jan 13, 2003 4:03 pm

hello all! yes it is a real emotional rollercoaster ride! I was told about 4 years ago our only chance of a child was with IVF. After 3 miscarriages I am now about 8 weeks pregnant (naturally would you believe). The clinic I go to have been brilliant and say that after all the investigations and tests we have had the only thing they can do this time is scan me every week. i'm finding it so reassuring having such a close eye kept on us. good luck to you all, i think its' all just a lottery! Eve xx

Advertisements