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[Terri2]

thanks for the advice Clair, I am not looking forward to this test at all but at the same time desperate to get it over with so I know if theres something wrong. If they find something wrong I guess I'm most concerned about the length of time I'll be waiting to get it fixed or go for IVF. I know Coventry is a pretty short waiting list compared to some but still............after 2 years I just want to keep trying every month!
You didn't say how your weekend was? And how was work today?

I might look at Devon now on the internet.

[clair55]

hi Terri

Work was ok and had a pretty good weekend went so quick though. Going out with girls on thursday night for chinese so looking forward to that. Although feeling better at moment can't help but think that this week would have been when i would have had my first scan and it hurts a little. I'm learning to try not to dwell on things too much and to try to look forward but it's hard.

Coventry's waiting list is very good. I was referred December last year. Had first appointment February this year , had information session July and started treatment August. Birmingham womens hospital have a three year waiting list so i'm grateful for the little wait we had. I felt better once i had inital appointment but i used to run to letter box every morning until i got that letter to tell us we could start. Now I feel back to square one!

Hope you found some info on Devon wish i was going with you make sure you have a cream tea if you do go and think of me while your eating it. I love cream teas.

anyway bye for now.
love
clairx

[indiana]

NOOOOOOOO not Devon.


CORNWALL is SOOOOOOOOOO much better.

You can go on most beaches with dogs from 1st Oct till 1st April

It must be a pretty fantastic place coz I live here (so does my nasty mother mind).


Theres lots of farms to!!
Yes we are pretty busy, Dh starts work at 3.30am milks 280 cows in the am then again at 2pm. We have just started autumn calving, the first calf born 2 days ago (very cute).


Im defo staying away from mother, she is going round the family telling them how terrible i am

Im going to get back on my pony tomorrow, I havent ridden her since June coz we had a bit of a fall. ( we got chased by DH's bloody cows!)
I have been putting it off for weeks but if we start tmt again i wont ride after ET, so i have got to be brave and do it tomorrow. If im not on here tomorrow night you know i landed on my head again

Indi.xxx

[Terri2]

280 cows?!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my god!

[NickiMark]

My mate has just moved to Devon, her dh has work there.

we will visit next summer, never been to Devon.

Cornwall's nice!!! Newquay is great!!!

[KTF]

Hi girls,

Hope you are all doing OK.

Terri - Good luck for tomorrow (I'm not in work for the rest of the week, so I will check back on Monday to see how you got on). I hope you find a nice place to go for the weekend, I am off to Bath on 15th Oct with DH and my parents, really looking forward to it. We have also got a weekend booked in the Lake District in Nov. I have told DH that we must have a treat every month until treatment starts, just so the time goes quicker!

Clair - were those waiting times for NHS treatment? I am sorry to hear that you feel in limbo, I reckon this is the worst bit!

Indiana - sorry that your mum isn't being too helpful, not what you need really at the start of your next cycle. Maybe she just get frustrated that she can't fix it for you? Mum's are used to just being able to kiss it better. Good luck on your horse, I bet you'll love it once you get started. I am sure there is nothing better to take your mind off things for a few hours.

Right - better get some work done, I am in work on my own, so I need to try not to spend the whole day on this site!

KTx

[indiana]

Nickimark Of course Newquay is great, thats where i live, have you heard of Hendra holiday park? we live just down the road.


KTF You are right about getting on the pony, i did it this morning and she was very good, all four hooves stayed on the ground and i didnt fall off.
I did have to collect her pooh for a worm check though, good practice for changing nappies i suppose.


Clair i will go and have a cream tea just for you ( going to wash hands first !)


Terri Even more scary is tha fact that 279 of those cows will have calves before christmas.

It looks like we are all feeling a little happier.
I might not after tomorrow.
Im starting to get very nervous, Its a long time since i had my feet in those kind of stirrups

Indi.xxx

[KTF]

Good luck with your consultation tomorrow Indiana - let us know how you get on.

KTx

[clair55]

Hi girls


Indiana - I have never been to cornwall but i've heard it's beautiful. We were going to go the other week but chose Devon as it was abit closer. I can't believe you have 280 cows bloody hell i bet they keep you busy!!!!! I have always fancied the idea of living on a farm but i can imagine it's hard,hard work. Glad to hear you enjoyed your horse ride i adore all animals(not keen on snakes) so i would be in my element down there. Might pop in on you one day for a cup of milk. Hope you enjoyed your cream tea. I can almost taste it. Good luck for tomorrow do let us know how you got on.x

Terri - Just to wish you good luck again for tomorrow.Let us know how you get on.

KT - The waiting times were for NHS treatment so i consider myself lucky that we were seen so quickly although at the time it didn't feel like it. Hope you are fine.

Had a letter from clinic today cancelling Nov 1st appt, so am now seeing dr on 28th October instead so that's a bit better.

Take care all
bye for now
love
clairx

[indiana]

Evening Clair,


You are more than welcome to pop in and we always have plenty of milk.
We have got 500 cows altogether, the 280 are just the milkers, the rest are made up of young heifers (youngsters), this summers calves and a few bulls.
It really is a fantastic life but there is an awful lot of pooh!!!!


Will let you know how we do tomorrow.

Indi.xxx

[Smita]

Wow Indi,
you and your dh sure must lead a busy life-would love to know how life is like on a farm!
Wishing you luck for today..
Terri,
Hope everything goes well with the HSG- remember , no matter wha, we're here to support you.Good Luck!

Clair, Glad your appointment has been brought fwd- 28th isn't far off!
KT,
how're you doing?
This thread is getting to be a little cheerful now- keep up the positive thoughts girls!

smita

[indiana]

Thinking of you today Terri.
Im sure you will be fine.
Just remember if the dont find any thing thats fantastic and if they do they can fix it so you next treatment will have more chance of working.
Either way after today you are a few steps closer to being a mummy

Indi.xx

[yorkie]

First ICSI suceeded, then I had miscarriage. I still burst into tears at the most ridiculous things. Managed to go 2 weeks without crying in the last three months. Today v. bad as IVF unit claim there's another problem with diminishes chances of it working again. I've started to come to terms with the idea that it may never work - but this is not cause I give up, its to stop me going mad!

I'm considered quite tough by my mates and I had a fairly rotten childhood but has ever hurt me the way the complete emptyness of a possible childless future does.

No one gets it - people tell me it will work eventually - it does not happen just cause you want it to. Being told 'it will happen when you give up trying' just makes me want to scream. As do friends with kids who tell me they understand. Then there's the pregnant friends who are embarrassed and cause you're not yet and they make you feel guilty because why should they feel bad about their good news.

All I can say is thanks to what I read here its normal to be lonely / miserable / moody. I an odd way it makes me feel better. Before I discovered this website I felt alone.

All the best to all of you - esp Terri. Keep the fingers crossed and keep hoping.

Yorkie

[Terri2]

You're all so sweet! Thanks everyone for thinking of me today. Especially you Yorkie when it sounds like you are having such a rough time today yourself! It makes me feel better too to know all these feelings are normal. I hope you are okay. I am sick of friends saying the wrong thing too and have really isolated myself.

I've been back about an hour and just managed to drag myself out of bed............I'm not going to lie, the pain was unbearable!
However, my tubes are okay............hurray! I nearly fell off the table though in shock when they told me whats wrong with me........polycystic ovaries! Can't believe noone saw this before. He said its not severe though and one side is border line. He wants me to continue on clomid for another few months and if that doesn't work they will review again, maybe injections.

I feel relieved to be honest, even though they found this at least I know what I'm dealing with. My sister has two boys and had a more severe case of pcos. I feel i have some hope again, feel much better.

The consultant (Mr Kennedy) was totally lovely. Even had a joke around with him during the test. That is until they inserted the catheter, then I almost went through the roof. Then all the way home I thought I was going to pass out with the pain. Maybe I'm just a baby but I always thought I had a high pain threshold. My advice to anyone having a hycosy is take some pain killers before the test so they start to kick in during it. I had about an hour of agony.

thanks again to all of you. How is everyone else doing today?
How did your appointment go Indiana?

Not going away this weekend now as have a bad neck and back so I just want to relax.

[clair55]

Hi Terri

So glad to hear your tubes are not blocked. At least now you know what the problem is. Have a look and see if there are any dietry things you can do to help with the PCOS. It's good news. Sorry your not feeling to good. Have a nice hot bath and put your feet up. Take care love and hope you are feeling better tomorrow.

Yorkie Sorry to hear that you are having a crappy time as well. This thread has been a godsend and made me feel like i wasn't going crazy. Have the clinic talked about other treatments with you besides ICSI? Theres nothing I can do or say that will make it feel better but, sending you a hugmungous cyberhug and to say you can always come here to let off some steam and get some support. Take care.xxxx

Indiana- Thinking about you hope it all went well. Will check thread later. Love to cows.xxxx

clairxx