Hope everyone is well (even Sara - I hope your cold is getting better and if not that your DH starts giving you extra TLC)!!!
All is well here - had a great time in Helsinki - can recommend it - clean, safe, modern and absolutely beautiful countryside - it was great to see DH as well as hes been out there for a while and won't be back until Tursday night.
Nicki - wishing you a very happy belated birthday - I hope all your dreams come true this year......
Eskavon and Penny - hope you had very relaxing holidays.
Sammylou xx x x x x
Me 29 DH 44
TTC 3.5 years
1 ICSI -ve Jul 05
2 ICSI Nov 05 - Cnx
3 ICSI April 06 - BFP!
Sara, heres a little dancing elephant to make ya smile, hope ur cold is better today.
Sammy Lou, glad that finland was good, x x
I am back to wrk 2moro, Oh no!!!! Now watch to stress levels rise!!
Hugs to you all, just over 3 weeks til nov x x
TTC 6yrs......Have jumped off the rollercoaster for now, too many BFN's and too much heartache, to keep going....Moving on to fulfil other dreams!!!
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hi everyone feeling better got my voice back. But mostly feeling better as me n DP have just got back from seeing DP sisters new baby boy. Mathew weighing 7lb 11oz. He is lovely hes got little fingers n toes arwh makes me want my own even more and more determined to get through this. Dancing elephant made me smile Nicki thanks. I havent really thought about starting treatment. To much going on with baby n holiday. Pretty mixed up actually especially now ive seen baby i want to cry cause its not me.But i cant cause im so happy and excited at the same time.
Try to get these smileys on but it wont work also ticker but nothing happens help
sara xxx
hope everyone else is ok
Denise, it's good to be cycling with you again x x
TTC 6yrs......Have jumped off the rollercoaster for now, too many BFN's and too much heartache, to keep going....Moving on to fulfil other dreams!!!
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Am having a bad day today ....suddenly lost all confidence that this will work. I think its because my medication turned up today and I have been keeping a close eye on this website and seen just how many BFP's there have been in the last couple of weeks - don't get me wrong - I am so pleased for those people that it has worked out its just that it seems like there are an awful lot of first time luckys and it makes me think that I am going to be on this perpetual rollercoaster forever. We have a Male factor problem and the first time round everything went perfectly, lots of follicles, eggs fertilised, 2 put back and I was convinced it would work and it didn't - heart breaking and no-one can explain why it didn't work and as we all want to know - 'Why me?'......
I guess on a slightly more positive note that its a sign with all these BFP's that infertility treatment must be getting better which is excellent news.
Sorry for being miserable but I am suddenly feeling frightened that it'll never work and I needed to tell someone who knows how it feels. My DH is all for PMA and won't even entertain me thinking it will never work and Mum just trys to help by saying its not the end of the world and that kids are grown up and gone before you know it anyway (I know that its supposed to make me feel better).............
Sorry again for being miserable
Sammylou x x x
Me 29 DH 44
TTC 3.5 years
1 ICSI -ve Jul 05
2 ICSI Nov 05 - Cnx
3 ICSI April 06 - BFP!
Hope your anxiety subsides soon. Sounds like everyone around you is trying to lower your anxiety and yet it is just one of those things that felling better and relaxing slightly will just have to happen in your own time, thats the way it is for me anyway?! I really hope you are not miserable for too long
I am doing this for the first time and deep down I dont think I have contemplated that it might not work. I mean rationally I know (especially since joining this forum!) but emotionally etc I just cant believe it wont work, I am trying to deep down install some coping power incase I have to face it but its all very strange. I just cant imagine what it would be like when the rollercoaster really takes a dive. There are so many strong women here!
Anyway........... I hope all the NOVEMBIES are doing well (Smita, I love the sign)
I will be seeing my doc next week to sign the paperwork etc for a November FET. I am so nervous and excited. My period is due around the 24th of Oct so Im thinking transfer will be around the 9-10th November. Til then I am trying hard to be as kind as I can to my body.
Good luck everyone - not too long now!!
Both 30-Male Factor (Test.Cancer)
Aug 05 OHSS: transfer cancelled (3 embies frozen)
Nov 05 BFP !!! 1 embryo transferred
June 06: ID girls from 1 blastocyst.
Chelsea and Jaselle born @ 32 weeks 5/6/06
I often feel like my soul has been destroyed and the fear of a BFN is stronger than a BFP.
It's hard but truely I understand.
Ive been crying too, it just gets ya sometimes.....
Hugs to you x xx
TTC 6yrs......Have jumped off the rollercoaster for now, too many BFN's and too much heartache, to keep going....Moving on to fulfil other dreams!!!
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Hello I'm back from hols, all tanned and relaxed
Thanks for all your nice wishes for my holidays - it really did the trick.
Sammylou - eskavon and penny are me - one and the same feel free to call me whatever. Eskavon is sign in name and Penny is real name.
Nicola - wooo hooooo - so fab to see you back and you sound really chilled and ready to go. Wishing you every single ounce of good luck. Hope you had a wonderful birthday.
Hope all you other guys are feeling well and ready to go.
Got an appt tomorrow to get all the drugs. Slight change in plan as I stoppped the pill after one day as it gave me terrible migraine so I'll be au naturel until buserelin injections which will start this week.
Hope to see piles of on the november results page.
Lots of love xxx
Bump is swelling nicely - I had some weird sensations that started a few days ago, but nothing for the last 2 days. I keep poking down there and hoping to provoke a reaction!!!
How are you feeling - it sounds like the holiday has done you the world of good.
....suddenly lost all confidence that this will work. I think its because my medication turned up today and I have been keeping a close eye on this website and seen just how many BFP's there have been in the last couple of weeks - don't get me wrong - I am so pleased for those people that it has worked out its just that it seems like there are an awful lot of first time luckys and it makes me think that I am going to be on this perpetual rollercoaster forever. We have a Male factor problem and the first time round everything went perfectly, lots of follicles, eggs fertilised, 2 put back and I was convinced it would work and it didn't - heart breaking and no-one can explain why it didn't work and as we all want to know - 'Why me?'...... 
good to hear u enjoyed your hols.