Paula

[sue e]

Hi Dear,

Im just going to keep adding little posts to this threaed, till you have chance to log back on.

Thank you for the post you left me yesterday, it was really sweet and meant a lot, i know it must be hard watching how everyone is progressing.

How are you doing? Are you planning on cycling again soon.

thinking of you

take care

Love

sue e xx

[Smita]

Paula,
Am thinking of you too and hoping that that FSH comes down this cycle for you..
hugs,
smita

[DebraP]

Just wanted to say 'Hi' Paula, hope you're doing OK.

hugs
Debra.

[sue e]

Hi Hun,

How are you?

Love

sue e xx

[Sand]

Paula ... Hope you are okay, and it's busy-ness (just made that up, but it sounds good !) that's keeping you away from the boards.

Hope you let us all know soon what you're up to ..

Sandra x

[Paula]

Awwwwwwwwwwww, you guys are so Sweet!! Thank you Sue! Thank you all, You've brought a tear to my eye. I just came on this morning and was taking a peek to see how everyone was doing and I didn't even notice this thread and then I started looking down the list and seen my name

Yes, it was very hard last month when I found out my levels had gone back up. The disappointment of the cancelled ivf and the waiting a month to find out if I could go again and then only to find out i was on the rise again was horrible. I was so heartbroken. I think I had given myself false hope because my levels the month before were down. It was also hard to watch all my septembies continue on without me. I felt so many emotions, including that evil "jealousy" but i'm feeling much better now and I'm sorry I disappeared but it was very hard to come online here. I"m back again though and I don't think i'll be as heartbroken when the next fsh level is done, it was just a combination of coming down from the Aug treatment and the next fsh level that really did my head in.

So I"ll let you all go for now. Once again THANK YOU ALL for your support and for thinking of me. Love you girls!! Take care

Huggs
Paula

[sue e]

Hello Chuck,

I was chuffed to bits to see that the last post was by Paula, its so nice to have you back. We do understand were you are coming from and we will support you in any way we can. Remember last time we were all doing the af dance for you!!!! When do you get your next test done?

speak soon

Love

sue e xx

[Paula]

Yes, I remember Sue, the support was fantastic and you girls are always a fantastic support base here. I guess it's just sometimes you don't want any support and feeling blue is a much more attractive sense of emotion when self pity is involved. You know what I mean....

Anyways, I was just making a cuppa and was about to come back on this thread and ask how you were all doing and there you were, you've posted already!!

So how are you feeling Sue?? I'm glad you got my msg because I kept thinking about you in your 2ww. I'm so so happy for you!! Truly happy How do you feel? Can you believe it? You must be on cloud 9!!!

and Sandra, I always think of you as well. You were one of the only people who I remember talking to when I first came online here last year. You've always got positive advice and comments for us all. So thank you for being here and always thinking of me. It means alot!! How are you doing? I haven't been able to catch up on anyone yet. I'll have to do that this morning or in the next couple days. You must have had your appointment with your clinic by now. Do you know when you'll be starting tmt again? Can't wait to hear your news.

and Debra, how are you doing? How far are you in your 2ww? When do you test? I see you posted that you had sore boobs, that's a good sign! I'm not sure if it's a combination of the drugs or not? I remember when I was pregnant with my daughter my boobs were very tender! So i'm praying and hoping for you everyday now that this is a very good sign for you and your going to have a BFP very soon!!! Oceans of babydust to you!!

and Smita, how are you doing? How is your pregnancy going? Thanks for thinking of me and wishing me well Your like the little IVF cheerleader here

Well ladies, I think I've talked you all out for now. Hope you all have a wonderful day, i'm looking forward to being here again and I can't wait to hear your news. Oh, before I forget, i'm just waiting for AF to arrive before I can get my fsh tested again. I"m hoping she's going to get here sometime next week.

Huggs
Paula

[sue e]

Hi dear,

Im feeling fine, tired sometimes . i am so happy to get a +ive but i am so scared of losing it. Twice before i have been pregnant one was a m/c and the other ep, both were natural pregnancies. It is hard to try and not get carried away with plans but on the otherhand i need to be realistic. i wish i could be like most other women and take it for granted and just forget about all the negative side, but it is always there, every little twinge is a cause for concern. Less than 3 weeks i will know, im desperate to know but scared stiff at the same time. But anyway, enough of my ramblings.

So not long for af, will be praying hard that your fsh will be low enough to start. And then we can all cheer you on. HOPING THIS WILL BE YOUR TIME.

By the way i have nearly got a kitchen sink fitted!!!may happen at the weekend, only waited 2 and half months.

take care

Love

sue e xx

[Judy]

Hi Paula,

Good to see you back. Have been thinking about you and really hoping things go well for you this time round. Take care of yourself.

Judy

[Paula]

Judy, You got a BFP TOOOOOOO That is absolutely fantastic. How did i miss that? I'm sure I went through all the post's on the 2ww and didn't read your news? Maybe i'm blind? Sorry for that...I was thinking about you as well and wondered how you went. Now I know and i'm sooo sooo happy for you. You must be thrilled!! Way to go girl!! I really need to catch up here, I only left for a couple weeks and look what's happening.

Sue, you crazy girl!! I was reading about you and all your hpt's, you really made me laugh, mostly because I would be the same as you
Glad to hear your feeling good. Being tired is normal, you'll have 9 months to go so just enjoy, relax and rest whenever you can, and I better not hear that your fitting kitchen sinks in at the weekend. You better just be the director Please try not to think about the past Sue, I know it's hard and it's in your mind but the past does not equal the future. You can do this, I know you can and I believe you and your baby will be just perfect. I'm thinking of you and will be thinking alot of good thoughts and sending healthy happy vibes to you. You be good, take care of yourself and don't worry, ok!!

ps. i'm hoping to have my fsh tested again next week some time, that is if af is co-operating.

Bigg Huggs to both you girls.

Paula

[sue e]

Hi Paula dear,

Your post brought a tear to my eye, thank you so much for your advice and support.
Feeling a lot better today and so pleased that i can get the blood tests done early. I have slept lots and took things easy today.

You should see my kitchen, i have now got a worktop down one side (yippee) and a kitchen sink inserted, although its not connected yet!!! I feel like life is progressing at last.

How are you holding up? Are you excited and nervous about your test, really hoping its the best result so far.

Take care girlie, thinking of you

Love

sue e xx

[Judy]

Hi girls!

Paula thanks for your good wishes. You are SO kind and I am just really hoping that you will soon have good news of your own and we can cheer you on!! Keeping fingers crossed that your FSH comes down.

Sue I read your post on the other thread and hope you are OK. I was sorry to hear about the spotting but am pleased things seem to have got a bit better. Am sure things will be fine but know you will feel better when you have had bloods done. I have had 2 blood tests so far and it is really encouraging to see hcg going up. Wishing you all the best.

Have a great weekend ladies.

Judy

[Paula]

Good Morning Girls,

Sue, how's your weekend going? You're sitting in that directors chair aren't you???? Glad your getting lots of sleep, you need it. Anytime your feeling nervous or afraid you come online and get support ok!! You'll be fine. Don't let fear rob a single precious moment of this pregnancy. I know, easier said than done, BUT! it can be done. Everytime you have a fleeting feeling of fear you need to replace it. Actually, you need to replace it even when your not feeling fearful. Just imagine that healthy baby inside you. It's growing stronger everyday, nice and cozy in your tummy, thoughts like that, i'm sure you can think of many Don't worry about the spotting, I also spotted when I had my natural pregnancy with my daughter. I think its normal for some women, and don't forget the women that spot for the whole 9 months!! It happens! Bigg huggs

Judy, glad to see your feeling positive. Thanks for your support. How have you been feeling, tired, sick, anything like that?

From my last af, i'm hoping af will arrive next week sometime. I'm nervous about my fsh but i need to take the next week and try to will it down I"ll keep you girls posted and let you know.

Huggs
Paula

[sue e]

Good morning all,

Judy - thanks for popping in, How are you doing? Has it finally sunk in yet? Glad your bloods have gone well. Your kind thoughts are much appreciated.

Paula - Yes im in the directors chair, it just so happens to be by the computer and opposite the kitchen!!!! When you spotted with your daughter, was it just old blood or was there some new stuff Most people seem to have the old stuff but mine has been a mixture of both. Not loads though, but started on thurs. Really trying not to worry as i know it wont help at all. I am telling our little bubba to fight and stick round, so hope its paying attention and not got headphones on.

Why are you nervous about your fsh? Whats happened to all that positive thinking? You best take some of your own advice, positive thinking all the way.

Take care dear

Love and PMA to us all

sue e xxx