My husband and i was this time last year going through our 2nd go at ivf and was stopped through tmt, the doctor wasnt happy with the way i was responding to tmt and that rather than growing eggs i was getting cysts on my ovarys and lots of them, and my hormone levels where just going through the roof, as you can imagine we where absolutlely broken hearted.
When we went back to the hospital a month later the doctor said that it was a number of things that just wernt going right, just to explain i have had a kidney transplant (22 yrs ago) and a cpl of yrs ago before i started tmt we went to portugal on holiday and i got stuck out there cause my bowel decided to twist on me and so had to have emergency surgery out there, so instead of a weeks holiday it was nearly a months nightmare, my parents came out to help us and my husabnd had to go home the day before our 1st wedding anniversery...........
Anyway the 1st time it was going OK had to have a cyst drained, got to egg recovery and they only got 1 and it wasnt good enough, but they said to ring up after next cycle but it took mths to be accepted, went through NHS, they where great and i suppose now looking back the dr's made the right decsion, i know it wasnt easy for them.
So we know we want to adopt but i keep putting it off getting in touch and making a start its just i feel im not ready for another failure, see i know its not going to be easy for me with having the transplant, also im finding it difficult handling other people especially in the family getting pregnant, my mum is not really being understanding either she just keeps saying i have to move on and focus on other things, she keeps telling me about my cousin who has just found out she is expecting, she didnt think it would happen as she had cancer when she was younger, i know people are going to get pregnant all the time, there's nothing i can do about that, but i dont feel i will ever get over this, suppose you just deal with it, anybody out there having similar probs with family and have found a way to deal with it, my mum just isnt listing to me she says she knows what im going through but how can she when she had 3 children, where not very close but i do turn to her if im not well as we all do......I just dont know how i will cope if i dont have children in my life i feel like ive been through so much already, surely im due a break as im sure we all our, we are off on a much needed holiday in a cpl of weeks to orlando for 2 wks, doing disney and the other theme parks and off to the gulf coast for some much needed chill time, ive also arr a stretch limo to take us to the airport cause i feel where due some TLC, hubby
doesnt know about this, sorry for such a long winge, hope everyone is ok and coping as best as you can.LOL
Nicky
xxxxx
becky