Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[lolajones]

Thanks buddies!

Your messages really made me feel better. Well thats a bit of a fib. After reading the board it went something like, ahh, thats really lovely, smile, smile broadens, chin starts to quiver (here it comes here it comes...) boo hoo hoo. Lacrimating lola is in the house! The whole morning was a chin quivering affair to be honest. Finally broke the sob spell this afternoon. I probably shouldn't have been at work, if it happens again (and lets put our hands together for that encore!) will bail. Its not fair on my patients. And I've run out of tissues.

Anyhosens, its the weekend. official. Whats everyone up to? I'm going into hospital to have my windscreen wash topped up. And to get a bionic uterus inserted with hydraulic fallopians and low profile ovaries. Varoooommm!

I am emitting medium wave happiness vibes to everyone like an Elation Radio. Happiness FM 103.4

Lots of love

Lola
xxxx

[DebraP]

Lola, your messages are a joy to read, thank you!

Camilla and Jeni, I had an extended DR this time too, my LH was still too high at the blood test. I wish you luck getting onto the next stage, it is extremely annoying to have to wait.

best of luck
Debra.

[nes]

Hi everyone...
I am still here.... Just...

Congratulations on all the BFPs.

I hope that all your little angels give you many years of joy!

To all of you that have received BFNs, , I'm so sorry for you're losses, I hope that you take comfort knowing that you're little ones will always be with you, even when you think they aren't.

I only have a few days to go until I test, and so far I think that I have done quite well, , considering, I have had sore boobs, for what seems like months, and I keep falling asleep as I am so tired.... and I won't even mention how many times I have to run to the loo!!!!

But... today I have had all these weird twings, and this dull kind of ache, this morning it was roughly in the region of my right ovary. This evening it was on the left.... it seems to be quite constant when I am aware that it's there, and I am trying so hard not to think horrid thoughts about AF embarking on it's journey... .

I have been hoping that it has just been my ovaries setteling back into their normal state after being traumatised... but as test date looms, I'm getting a bit panicky... When ever I get sharp twinges, I just feel like I am about to freak out, cos that's what happened when I was pregnat last time, and miscarried... I hope that it's all in my head, because if I dwell on things, I'm sure that I make everything feel 100 times worse...

I so just what both my babies to be comfy where they are... and I feel like they have taken their spots, fluffed their pillow's and started to rest themselves... I just hope that they like it enough to want to stay there. I start to feel tearful when I think that it might all be over next week, so I'm trying to stay focused and positive... but that is so hard right now...

[Jennyfriend]

Hi Ladies,

I was going to participate in the Nov budddies post, but looks like I should probably in Oct. with you guys in stead. Would it be oK if I join?

Leigh - I have been to acupuncture 3 times (including today.) My last cycle was cancelled due to hyperstimulating. This time, my estradiol has risen very slow, but steady. I don't know if I really attribute it to acupuncture and massage (doing that too) but I think I am definitely more relaxed this time. To me, that makes it work the money.

Nes - You are amazing! I can't believe you haven't home tested yet...all those signs are sounding pretty good. Just try to stay preoccupied so you don't think too much about everything you're feeling. I know, easier said than done. I like to read really good books during the 2ww. That seems to help. Best wishes for a BFP!!

Steph - I say "no go" on conference. I am supposed to travel during my 2 ww and would need to fly. I am not risking it, although it is supposed to be mandatory for my position. I told my boss I have to have a medical procedure and it can't be moved. He won't ask questions because he would be afraid it is a "female issue" and he would be embarrassed. You could probably talk your doc into writing you a note if you were concerned. I am sure he would be willing to keep your fertility confidential and let it be a regualar gynecological issue.

Lola - You make me smile. You have such a great sense of humor. Keep your chin up girlie. It is soooo normal to cry over nothing. I have been crying over everything too! I cry at commercials, people walking their dogs, dropping my fork on the floor...anything and everything! It will be well worth it in a few short weeks.

Have a great evening everyone! I need to go to bed so I can get up for ultrasound and bloodwork.

[leigh]

Hi All
Thank you to everyone who asked about me. Not felt like coming on boards this week. Felt tearful for no reason and annoyed with everyone I've come in contact with at some point. That's not like me so I know it's the drugs!!

Started menopur on Wednesday, so now on 2 lots of injections. Legs a bit bruised but not too bad. Had blood tests but no scans yet, don't have any exact dates for EC etc.

Been catching up on what everyone's been doing, made notes!!

Jeni - even though you have nothing to report there's probably lots going on inside you so keep your chin up, good luck

Camilla - Hang in ther I'm sure stims is not far away.

Steph - I know it's a dilemma but if you can I would try to get out of conference, good luck and try not to stress about it.

Anna - hope ET went OK, lots of PMA to you, enjoy the rest and try and get lots of pampering.

Little R - hope EC has gone OK. Lots of PMA and wishes for fast healing to you.

Debra - good luck for Tues.

Nes - hang in there, I like the visualisation of embies fluffing up their pillows and settling in. What a lovely image, I think I'll usethat myself.

Lola - You are the best tonic for someone feeling sorry for themself. Thank you for making me smile and hope you are finding ways to smile yourself.

Hope I didn't miss anyone out, lost first message I was typing. Thinking of you all.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[nes]

Hi everyone. Not feeling in a good mood at the moment. I woke up at 530am this morning. I still had a dull ache and thought that things might be going wrong...

I had a bit of brown discharge this morning and that freaked me right out. I just burst into tears because that feels like such a bad omen.

I just felt so bad that I went back to bed and only got up to do my pessarie... then went back to bed again... It's nearly 13:00pm, and I have only just surficed from my bedroom. I don't want to see anyone or do anything, but I am feeling a bit dizzy and nauseous at the mo, so I think that I should eat something... I still have a dull ache, and when I checked a minute ago, the discharge seemed to have reduced, but I know it's still there.

I am trying to remain positive, but right now it seems so hard. I was thinking that I should do a test just in case, but when I spoke to my dp this morning, he thinks that I should just take it easy today, and not test, just incase we get a negative, but are still in with a chance?...

I just don't know what to do. I keep wondering if I have over done things, even though I have been off work and house bound for most of the last two weeks. I have hardly gotten off my sofa, as I am just so terrified that the slightest little thing will have the opposite effect that it would normally do. Has anyone else had the same and still had a positive?

[Smita]

Nes,
I had brown discharge for 2-3 days before test day.. it scared me a lots, but here I am. could be implantation bleding..
Wishing you lots of luck and do hold out until test date!

Good Luck everyone!

smita

[Jennyfriend]

nes - I had similar symptoms after IUI a couple of days before test. I had really horrible cramping and what looked like the beginning of my period. Ended up with a positive test.

Take care of yourself. You are in my prayers tonight.

[lolajones]

Nes - hang in there!! I hope everything works out for you, I'll be thinking of you on test date with everything crossed.

I'm really grumpy today. Everything is annoying me. I'm so angry I can't speak and can only communicate via snarls and barks, like a rabid Rotweiller who's just been taken to the vet to be neutered. Needless to say my dh is therefore having a fantastic sunday! heh heh.

I am no longer an elation radio. I am a good mood incinerator.
I am the PMA knackers yard.

Thanks for listening to me drone on. I feel better.

Righto, I'm off to mend some marital bridges with a roll of love sellotape. Sigh.

Power to the Buddies!

Love

Lola
xxx

[DebraP]

Nes, sorry you're full of doubts, understandable but it makes the time left ever more unbearable.

If you've been housebound for your 2ww there's no way you've overdone anything, impossible. During my last 2ww I worked, shovelled snow several times, looked after my todder and still got a positive. It won't be anything you've done that affects the result.

Best of luck on Tuesday,
Debra.

[AJ]

HI October Buddies,

Just a short one today as not feeling great.

Well I had 2 embies transfered on Saturday, that was a dignified position to be in!! 1 was an expanded blast and the other a normal blast both of 'excellent' quality. I have been taking it easy ever since as I have mild OHSS which nearly cancelled the whole cycle but as it seemed to be improving I was allowed to continue. However, I was told that if I get pregnant it could make the OHSS a lot worse. So now I don't know if I want to feel worse or not If the OHSS gets a lot worse it probs means I am preggers but hospitalised if it continues to get better it could go either way. Never mind, I hope that I am preggers but my OHSS does not get any worse - hows that for a compromise

Anyway, my test date is the 24th and we will know then.

As for everyone else -

Lola - you have a good moan and winge, we don't mind in the slightest. It does you good to let it all out sometimes. Your messages cheer us all up so I hope we can cheer you up.

Nes - I know how worried you must be but there is no point guessing, you have done everything right so don't beat yourself up with it all. You only have 2 more days to wait so good luck.

Everyone else good luck with DR ing/stimming or waiting,

Speak soon,

Anna

[Jen1d]

hope its ok if i join the buddies, it was recommended by lola. My first cycle of ivf started on the 15th and its great to know there is support here. Good luck girls

[Smita]

Anna,
Great news on the blast transfer.. hoping your 2ww is smooth!
The OHSS must be a pain though.. but hey anything for a positive!Right?

Good Luck Octobies!

smita

[Walshy]

Hi Ladies,
Well it is all systems go for egg pick-up on Wednesday
I am both excited and nervous..
I did a wrong thing though and had another injection when i shouldn't have so they are hoping that I do not over stimulate. I can't remember the nurse telling me as I have so much on my mind.
I am home today with very sore and swollen abdomen. I am trying to take it easy. I feel like someone is giving me a bear hug around the bottom half of my stomach. The nurse told me to cross my fingers and hope for the best.
The egg will be put back in on Friday and then we will have to wait 12 days for the pregnancy test if I can hold out that long.
Lola - I love reading your posts it is like a comical TV show. I can just picture the charachters thanks for lightening up the October Buddies
Nes - Stay strong and it won;t be long now until you test and get the BFP
we are all wanting
AJ - Good luck with the 2 WW and hope that the time flies for you take it easy
And to all you other lovely ladies out there I hope your all doing well..
Take care from Walshy

[Inhale, Exhale]

HI My Girlies!

Well, nothing to report on myself, except going crazy during the wait for test on Wed. ............. Usual symptoms- sore bb's, tired and the most common side effect of "speak to me at your own risk"- all drug related of course.

Nes- have to tell you, don't take offense- so jealous of your brown discharge! My sister had it with both pregnancies so I have actually been looking for it- but it has not shown. Crazy that we are at different ends....
Good luck tommorrow! Babydust or eh............... Babydust Wind Storm!!

Walshy- good luck with egg retrieval! have a nice rest.

Steph