Paula

sue e · Post by **sue e** » Wed Oct 19, 2005 3:41 pm

Hi Dear,

thinking of you and hoping that fsh is being good to you. How many hours now? Everythings crossed.

Im doing well today, cried a bit yesterday but then got out of my pit and done things, (went pictures and for a meal). Results are back tomorrow afternoon, i wish they would hurry up. If its not our turn this time will be back next time with a vengence

and while waiting 3 months i can get lots of diy done.

thank you for your support it really is appreciated. I can't believe how kind people are on here to total strangers, it really is a fab place. think i may go the bingo tonight to occupy a few hours. I only slept for about 3 hours last night. I will soon have suitcases under my eyes.

Take care, lovely one

love

sue e xx

Paula · Post by **Paula** » Thu Oct 20, 2005 8:53 am

Dear Sue,

I just wanted to say I'm so happy to hear you talking about this and I am really proud of you. I know how hard this must have been for you, and still is, but you've got an amazing spirit. You take some time to get your DIY stuff done. You take some time to cry!! and you do like you said and come back with a bloody vengence!!! You will make it happen, I believe that with all my heart!!

As for me, i'm feeling fantastic today. I got my test results back today and they've gone higher than last month. They were 24.3 today and so there's no ivf tmt for me. I don't know what's going on with me because I just feel so calm about it. I think alot of it has to do with you women here. Watching your struggles, and seeing how strong you all are.

I decided to plant a garden today. I went out and bought some strawberries, some cukes, some baby tomatoes, some jalapeno's some chives and some normal tomatoes. I love my garden, i'm so proud of it!!

It made me feel really good planting it.

Anyways, I"m going to go for now, but thanks again girls. For all your thoughts, well wishes and hopes for me and my fsh. They didn't go to waste, your wishes helped me in another way, they helped me mentally. Huggs to you all!!!

Love Paula

Smita · Post by **Smita** » Thu Oct 20, 2005 9:46 am

Paula,
I was so hoping you could cycle this month- this news sucks.. in fact theres been bad news all over the board..
I think it'll hit u in a couple of days, so do take time out for yourself..

Wishing u lots and lots of luck always..
hugs

smita

Smita · Post by **Smita** » Thu Oct 20, 2005 9:49 am

Sue,
I just keep hoping they'll give you good news.. and i am in awe of your positive attitude.. you go girl- it'll hurt deep inside, but hey, we're all around to bolster your spirits and you do that diy and keep yourself busy.. is your sink in yet?

smita

Paula · Post by **Paula** » Thu Oct 20, 2005 12:13 pm

Hi Smita,

Thanks for your thoughts. Your right, it did hit me. When I talked to my DH tonight. He's away right now. It's ok though, I had my cry and i'm feeling ok again. I'm confused though right now. Not sure if I want to give up or keep going? I mean how long does someone keep trying with no luck at all? I guess we all have to make an end to things sometime don't we? I'll be doing alot of thinking in the next little bit.

How are you feeling? How far along are you now????? Hope your doing great!

Talk to you soon
Huggs
Paula

Smita · Post by **Smita** » Thu Oct 20, 2005 2:04 pm

I'm doing fine thanks Paula,
Abt trying again and again, I would think, you take a couple of months off, try some alternate therapy and then come back and do a check..
That way you can focus on something else and also it gives you time for your FSH to come down if its going to.. hate to sound that blunt..
by alternae therapy, i would look at yoga, or accupuncture(that I've never tried)
no matter what it does to your fsh, it can only be beneficial- I'm talking abt yoga here-being Indian, I'm a big advocator..
Or else, if your not too much into yoga or accu, then you could try a detox.. I feel it can only help..
Making an end shd come when you feel your emotions are always all over the place and nothing is going anywhere- its a very very personal decision, and a BIIG one..
Hang in there, I know its the hardest when dh is not around cause sometimes, no matter how we fight with each other, ultimately, its each other we turn to for support- the majority shareholder in our personal company huh??

take care sweetie,sending you lots of hugs and hoping you can feel them there..

smita

Paula · Post by **Paula** » Thu Oct 20, 2005 9:49 pm

Your so sweet Smita! Yes, I could feel your hug from here

I think your idea of taking a couple months off is a good one. I guess I shouldn't be making and end decision when my emotions are all over the place. DH will be home tonight so we'll be able to talk about it this weekend. I'll try the yoga Smita, it sounds like a good idea. I bought a book on yoga a few months ago, it wasn't for this reason, but maybe it will help. I never did open the book, i'm bad. I do that all the time, buy books and never read them. I think I have some compulsive disorder towards books

Anyways, thanks for your thoughts Smita and glad to hear you doing well. Take care

Huggs
Paula

sue e · Post by **sue e** » Fri Oct 21, 2005 6:27 am

Paula,

hello dear, I am sorry that you didnt get the result you needed. I think there must be a block on my prayers to God, this week, maybe i have got the wrong number!!!!! How are you feeling today? Sending you hugs and lots of support as you work out the way forward for you both.

How does your garden look now? Mine is a show, the grass is so high and the lawnmower is still boxed in the hall, on top of the fridge and freezer. Maybe they will make there way into the kitchen this week, as im off on half term.

It is amazing how vital this site becomes, i cant believe how much support there is and what makes it more special is that it is from people who trully understand. THANK YOU LADIES

Well im off to hospital in a few minutes, im not looking forward to it because i feel quite emotional. i dont want to start blubbing infront of the nurse and go out with puffy eyes.

Will definately be cycling again as soon as we are able, which probably gives me about 3/4 months to try and get most rooms in my house done

, somehow i dont think it will be done but at least it is something creative to focus on, suppose its like you and your garden

Will speak to you soon

Loads of hugs

love

sue e xx

sue e · Post by **sue e** » Sat Oct 22, 2005 9:24 am

thinking of you and hoping you're alright.

Take care

Love

sue e xx

sue e · Post by **sue e** » Mon Oct 24, 2005 9:36 am

Hi Dear,

How are you doing? Have you decided what the next step is?

Im getting stuck into the house, nearly finished sanding the bannister (yippee) it has annoyed me for months. This week i am going to join slimming world to try and lose a few stone before next treatment. Im so pleased i have this week off.

Take care,

Love
& hugs

sue e xx

sue e · Post by **sue e** » Fri Oct 28, 2005 9:59 am

thinking of you and hoping the HSG brings good news

Take care

Love

sue e xx

Smita · Post by **Smita** » Sat Oct 29, 2005 6:22 am

Paula,
Read your news on the other thread- there seems to be some silver lining happening!!Now you can concentrate on getting ahead- with that dhea thingie that heather posted abt and maybe a new consultant.
Good Luck dear!

Sue,
Glad to see you're ok-as ok as can be given the situation, and that the bannister is done!!Take good care.

smita

Paula · Post by **Paula** » Sat Oct 29, 2005 7:08 am

Hi Smita, thanks doll

I'm still feeling pretty rough but i'm sure it has to get better sometime soon. Hope your right and there's a silver lining waiting in here somewhere. About the DHEA, my dh just phoned me and told me he just bought me some. He's in an airport in Singapore right now. I miss him so much, wish he was here. He won't be home for another week or so. Always the way, he's always away when this stuff happens. Anyways, enough complaining from me. How's everything going with you? Thanks again for your msg Smita..

Heya sussssie baby, left ya a msg somewhere on here already.. haha take care and talk to you soon

Love and Huggs
Paula

sue e · Post by **sue e** » Sat Oct 29, 2005 11:40 am

Hi Paula,

Sorry to hear about the pain you had during your HSG, mine felt like that but tube was blocked, it only lasted for about 20 mins, i was lucky, hey!! Hope your not still walking like John wayne

Good news, though that your tubes are clear.

for the last 2 days i have been so down, i guess its because it was all made final on Friday and next week would of been our scan.

It's our anniversary on tue and i ain't got a clue what to do, should i go mad and book us into a nice restaurant or curl up on the sofa with fish and chips?!! Dh is just the best.

Smita - Thanks for thinking of me dear, you really are so sweet. It is amazing how alone i feel, without this board i don't know what i would do.

Take care all,

speak soon

Love

sue e xx

Paula · Post by **Paula** » Sat Oct 29, 2005 10:17 pm

Good Morning SUssssssssie

Ok, you want my advice? You don't have to take it, or course. But if I were you I would go mad and book yourselves into a nice restaurant. You only have an anniversary once a year. You can eat fish and chips on the couch the other 364 days. Whattya say??? I know you've been down, but you need to do something like this, something special to make a new recent memory. A happy memory of your time together as a couple. A strong couple who are going to put the weight of the world off them for the night and take some time to be together doing something special. Sounds like a good idea hey???

Guess what? I woke up this morning feel almost 100% Yahoooo, I'm slightly tender but nowhere near where I was. Thank God. It's sunday morning here and i haven't eaten since thursday. Maybe i'll manage to eat today.. hahaha

Ok Girls, you have a great day. SMILE!!!

Love and Hugggs
Paula

Paula

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