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[gel]

Hi - I am in the middle of an IVF cycle - today is day 5 of Follistim at 275 IUplus lupron 5cc. I guess that retrieval will happen some time next week, my guess is Thanksgiving day, so I'm looking at a Turkey Pot Pie for my festivities... As of yesterday's U/S I have 3 eggs greater than 10 MM and 9 less than 10. They say this is not great, but not bad either. Est. is 125. For further reference, I am trying for my second child on IVF. MY wonderful 15 month old daughter was the result of 11 (yes, 11) tries with IUI and then they finally switched me to IVF, which worked on the first try.

Somehow, I have a really bad attitude about this try. I am convinced it's not going to work, and that I'm going through all of this mental and physical anguish for nothing. I am also convinced that I will make this be a self-fulfulling prophesy if I don't clean up my attitude and start thinking more positively. Last time I took fertility yoga and tried massage and meditated, and worked really hard on a mind-body connection. This time, I am somehow already setting myself up for disappointment. What can I do? They are monitoring me closely, and I have another ultrasound tomorrow morning. I am convinced that everything is gonna look horrible. Is this all just because I am on such mood altering drugs?

Any help, good vibes, advice, etc. would be greatly appreciated. Nothing I do seems to be picking me up. Thanks so much, Gel

[souris]

Hi Gel!!

Yeah, you sound pretty pessimistic!!

You have proved that IVF can work on the first attempt and you are blessed with a lovely baby girl! So be positive for the 2nd try!!

I think your follies are a good size for day five of stims...

Why dont you start yoga and massage again? if it made you feel good and "connected" with yourself during your first cycle, you will feel better this time too!!

Send you lots of PMA attitude!
Take care
souris
xxx

[AMck]

Hi Gel

Sorry to see you feel so pants at the moment.

Sending you some postive vibes to get through....keep smiling it will all be worth it in the end. You have proved that it can work.



PMA PMA PMA PMA PMA PMA in buckets to you!!!!

Anna

[gel]

Thank you for these good thoughts. I had a blood and ultrasound this morning, and am sitting by the phone waiting for results.

Yes, perhaps a massage is a good idea (when is a massage not a good idea!). And hopefully today's report will be good enough to get me thinking "baby." I'll check back in my new stats. Thannks again, Gel