Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

Hi Girls,
Well more good news. I had my scan today and my little follies are growing so well. There are five good sized ones and another two smaller. The biggest one is 13mm, so will go back for another scan on Monday and hopefully they will have developed more over the weekend.

The EC will probably be on Wed or Thur next week. Only a few more injections to go yipee.

The nurse has given me an option at EC whether i want to be awake or heavily sedated-----yes thats right the wimp of the site has opted to go into a lovely, drowsy sleep. Who cares as long as i don't feel any pain eh?

I will let you into a little secret. I have been using Emla cream from the chemist, which numbs the area where we inject so there is no pain------ Oh the shame, but hey, it works a treat so who cares.

The only thing is some of my friends and family etc are getting quite excited as everything has gone smoothly so far, but i still feel there is a long way to go and am trying to stay out of the positive site incase it doesn't work. I suppose i am trying to protect myself as there could be disapointment to come.

Lola you give me hope as we are the same age (well you are older but i won't rub that in haha), we have the same medical problem and its our first time at IVF. I hope the similarities continue and i get good news too.

To everyone else, who i am getting very attached to now. Good luck for this week and i send lots of PMA and love your way. Make sure you all rest and get pampered, we deserve it.

Catch up soon and keep smiling.

Love Jen xxx

[leigh]

Morning All

Woke up in middle of night having a bit of a panic that I wasn't going to be pregnant any more. Woke up this morning a lot calmer. Still no symptoms except boobs bit sorer (is that a word !!)

Stephanie/Camilla - good luck with 2ww, not long now!!

LittleR - we are all friends here....how was the night of passion?

Lola - my first scan is on 20th, when's yours? I'm guessing that each clinic is different with monitoring HCG levels. I agree, wish I could fats forward to week 12!

Jen - well done on follie development. No shame in no pain, we'd all do same, well I know I would! PMA to youfor next week's EC.

To everyone have a lovely weekend, we're going for fish and chips in Cleethorpes tomorrow, rock and roll!!!!!!!

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[little R]

Hey my friends.....

I have been missing you. I have had a couple of bad days. I have been feeling particularly lonely and have had too much time to think about the past few weeks. I am feeling better now though.
I didn't post any messages as I didn't want to rain down on the positive vibes of the Octobuddies.

Lola, Lola, Lola..... yes, I can believe that you are still in shock, but what a nice shock to be in ! You take care of yourself now and don't worry about the HCG levels. I think that they only test regularly if the level is initially low. I don't think my clinic would have if I had been "normally" positive. You keep relaxing and clocking the tv hours. I have been. A friend here has lent me (don't laugh!!!, because it's really embarrassing at my age ) Season 1 of The OC! It's pretty lame but stops me from dwelling too much on the past 6 weeks
The same friend has promised to lend me Lost and Desperate Housewives....I feel a little of both at the moment! We don't get anything interesting here on TV and it's censored!
I am so happy for you Lola.... please take care.

Yes, I will answer your question as we have all shared some pretty intimate moments .... the night of love was super... mainly because we finally "got" together after such a long time. A celebration of love really and if it didn't work...well it will remain just that!

Camilla - you're nearly there, sweetie! I am rooting for you and judging by the long list of positives... November is a pretty exceptional month. Keep the faith and trust your body...keep up that visualizing! Thinking of you loads!

Stephanie - same advice to you, my friend, if I may! Work will be a breeze as it's a short week. Yummy...Thanksgiving...I have spent some time in your neck of the woods...perfect excuse to eat loads Enjoy the celebrations! You'll soon have something to be really thankful for

Jen - Brave girl.... sounds like it's all coming along nicely.... good job with the cream... anything like that is a plus..can't get it here . I'm sending you lots of "follies grow" waves

Leigh - relieved that everything is moving along smoothly....

Anna (Amck) - what's your news? everything okay?

Much love to you all my friends....and lots of PMA!

Little R

[AMck]

Hi Little R, thank you for your message.
Sorry to see you've had a bad few days. Hopefully now you are on the up and bathing in the PMA coming your way!!!

I am fine. I have joined the November buddies thread...Sorry, haven't deserted the Octobies just wasn't sure where to post

Am on day 4 of stimulating meds after a successful cyst aspiration on Wed. Feeling fine at the moment, just counting down the days and trying to think of an excuse to be off work for ER and ET! Thinking positive here

To all Octobies, sending you love and luck with your tmt, Baby dust to you all



Anna

[camilla]

Dear buddies

Jen - Ooh, next week is the week! Don't blame you for choosing the oblivious option. Take care of yourself and your growing follies.

Stephanie - I know, it's hard not to think about "it" and when you do to stay positive but I've been so tired that a lot of the time I haven't got the energy to think at all!

Lola, Leigh - Now you can truly indulge yourselves and if fish and chips is what you want then you shall have it. You do lead an exciting life Leigh!

Little R - Waiting again! More TV! I like Desperate Housewives though, good choice I think.

Steph - we love you.

Anna (AMck) - stim away, you're very good to be able to talk to two cycle threads at once.

I'm counting the days, well actually trying not to. We've got some friends coming tomorrow for lunch but they've said they and DH will cook it all and clear up and I have to sit and eat and relax! Maybe I'll manage to!

Lots of love to you all girls.

Camilla xxx

[lolajones]

helloo

Jemla1d - completely forgot about Emla cream. Glad your follies are growing, this bit of tmt goes really quickly. btw thank you for reminding me that I'm on the downward slope to 40 whilst you balance precariously on the 30's fulcrum.....you are a true friend...
Leigh my scan is on the 30th which is approximately 5 gazillion years away. Yours is so soon now! Woo hoo! Then you can relax a bit?
Camilla the 2ww is a real tester, enjoy your lunch and do not lift a finger. Unless it is to provactively beckon your dh come hither to feed you chocolate or peeled grapes.
Stephanie, I know, I really enjoyed being off work but going back means next week week will speed by until your BFP PMA PMA PMA!!!
Little R, sorry you've been having a tough time. DO NOT feel guilty about the OC!! Once you've finished Housewives and Lost, there are 6 series of The Sopranos I recommend!!!
Anna - good luck with stimms, not long now

I know I sound like an ungrateful moaner (I'm sorry) but I feel really mixed up since the result. I am an emotional pinball, keep getting irritable and getting upset. Didn't think it would be like this. I'm sorry, I know I have no right to feel down. I'm confused why it's like this. Anyway sorry.
On a positive note, our washing machine broke down so dh kindly took all my white underwear to the launderette. By some bizarre (Y chromosome related?) quirk of fate, they have all been dyed flourescent yellow. This means that a) in the event of an emergency eg stranded on lone mountain, rescuers will be able to see my bra from any passing satellite b) he now has to buy me non-"emergency flare" underwear. So, if any of you ladies are planning a trip up Mt Snowdon at night, I would be pleased to lend you some of my special "please use a pin hole device when staring straight at them" pants.
I'm off to M&S.

Stay positive octobies!!!

Lots of good lovin'
Lola
xxxxxxx

[leigh]

Sorry, should have put 29th for my scan not 20th!!!!!!!!!

[little R]

Hey friends!

Have been having internet connections issues.
Hopefully it will be soon fixed. At the moment, it is a temporary solution so not sure how long it will last! Could lose the connection any minute.
If you don't see me online for a while, you know why.

Just wanted to read your latest news.

Lola, you crack me up!

Steph - how are you doing? You're in my thoughts.....take care, my friend. Has your DH returned? Mine is on his way back, but will be leaving 24 hours later....

Much love to you all Octobuddies,

LOTS of PMA!

Little R

[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Just thought i would say hi and give you a little update.
Have been feeling a bit swollen in the old tum area and it feels like there are little aliens in there having a rummage around. Is this normal?

Out last night for a meal with my family and my gorgeous DH and i had to sneak into the disabled toilet for my injection. The hardest part was sneaking out as we were scared people would see and wonder if we had been in their for some passion instead. Then when we got back to the table my family were looking at us as if to say "oh, shame". It makes me feel uncomfortable the way others behave.
Also at work last week a colleagues niece has just had a little girl and she brought her into work to show us. As soon as she got the baby's coat off my colleague kept saying "give her to Jen to hold". It was nice of her but soooo obvious that she felt sorry for me as i don't have my own baby to hold. I was soooo embarassed. Does anyone else get these moments and feel the same?

Then my sister in law came to visit from England (yes thats right, i am married to an English man, so you see us Jock's are not as bad as people think haha). Anyway she just kept going on about how exciting it will be when the baby is here. I kept telling her it is early days and it may not happen but then i keep getting told to stop being so negative------i couldn't win. I am trying to stay positive but am scared of the disappointment too. I'm sure you have all felt like this at some point eh?

Sorry i am going on a bit now.

Lola - Loved you new name for me, it did make me laugh. Also forgot to say when i went for my scan the nurse advised me to keep my sock on,(excuse the pun to all the DH's reading this) due to the ice cold weather. I laughed then took them off. Of course i explained to her and she then complimented me on my beautiful toenails. My DH just rolled his eyes as he thinks we are all mad.

Anyway i must stop chatting so much. Will let you know how i get on with my scan tomorrow.

A big hug to you all PMA PMA PMA

Love Jenxxx

[leigh]

Jen
i can totally sympathise with you. A mate of DH asked me to be godparent to their son when I'm not really that close to them cos I haven't got my own baby. I know he was being nice but I tactfully declined. Just smile sweetly and then ***** to DH when you get home, that's what i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Good luck for tomorrow's scan

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[Jen1d]

Thanks Leigh, will keep smiling away.
What i hate is that other people are feeling sorry for us. We are not all sad and glum so i don't want them to feel like that. I keep hearing myself saying "if it work, it works, if it doesn't then we will try again". If i got a £ for everytime i have said that then i will be a millionaire by the time i get pregnant. That would help if it was twins eh?

Thanks for listening to my grumbles. Will let you know how i get on with my scan tomorrow.

You must be looking forward to your scan on the 29th. It will be here before you know it. Take care.

love Jen xxx

[NickiMark]

Good Luck leigh with ur scan, let us know how it goes x x

[camilla]

Dear buddies

Sorry but it's a crap start to the week. Had a dream that AF came and feel that it's trying to tell me something. I feel so tearful this morning, there's a lump in my throat and the tears are welling up. I've been so hopeful but I've been here before and reality is kicking in. I just want to curl up in bed but my son is off school with a cold so I've got to keep it together. And the Nov test date thread is getting too much to run, I'm running out of steam. Stephanie will have her test date post tomorrow but I can't do my own can I? I didn't think of that did I. I don't expect any sympathy, I just need to get this off my chest.

Jen - Yeah, you will feel uncomfortable but your growing follies are taking up extra space. You just have to take the view that other people mean well but they don't put themselves in your position. No-one can understand unless they've been there.

Stephanie - Hope you're doing better than me. You've got a great chance with your two blasties.

Lola - Unfortunately you're at the mercy of your hormones but it won't always be like that, you'll feel terrific too!

Love to you all and hope you have a better day than me.

Camilla xxx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hello Members of the "Always waiting for Something" Torture Club,

So, here are my thoughts today......... we are always waiting for something- 1st for AF to show her ugliness to start drugs, then for follies to grow, then for scan for follies to grow, then for egg retrieval, then for fertilization count, then for embryo count, onto embryo transfer and 2ww, then if we are lucky enough to get pregnant, we wait again for the 1st scan then the 2nd and 3rd and for the first 12 weeks to be over..... if we are unlucky we don't get a BFP and we wait to try again, if we are lucky and get BFP, then proceed to get kicked in face and have a miscarriage, we wait again to heal and try again............ I guess you understand the rant, just needed a vent. I am tired of the wait!! I cannot wait until my 2 frozens are thawed and lovingly placed, just so the wait is over and I can move on with life - no matter which way it is- babyhood, no children or adoption- Oh, and if it is adoption we wait again!!! Does anyone else feel like life is always on hold?
I guess you can tell by my vent that life on this roller coaster ride is continuing........ Good days and bad days. Infertility is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gonna get! Sometimes it's the sweet caramels, sometimes it's the orange creams.......

Little R- I am right there with ya sister! Some bads days there, some good days here......... I guess, like everything else grief is a process. It works if you work it! He, he. Very loving, handsome, strong arm DH will be home late tonight. Can't wait to get my hug! Sorry yours will be leaving again, I would be very sad too. It was hard to have him gone the last week. Vent away.

Camilla & Stephanie- 2WWer's. Soon lovelies. Very soon. Keep up the relaxation and pampering.
Camilla, have no fear, your good luck thread will be posted! One of us Octobers who loves you will take care of it.

Jen- sister-in-laws...... Not quite as bad as monster-in-laws. Still, can't stand em, can't shoot em.

Leigh and Lola- the crazy preggers! Waiting for scans is the worst. Everything will be lovely!

One good thing for this week- 3 day week and a perfect excuse for emotional comfort food overeating- Thanksgiving for us! Hooray.

Have a sun shiney day! (although 29 degrees here in good old Pennsylvania, I like the cold though)
Steph

[slcannon]

Hi everyone. I agree, this waiting, waiting, waiting, is a pile of c**p!

Camilla - I am not feeling that great today either. I know that the wait is not much longer, but it's killing me. I have had AF cramps for a while now and everytime I go to the bathroom I am just sure she will arrive! The only thing that keeps me semi-positive is the fact that I am having some wierd feelings in my ovaries (like they are big, maybe cysts filling back up), pulling in my pelvis, and bloating again. I did not have this feeling last week, but it is similar to how I felt when stimming, not painful, just wierd. That gets my hopes up, but then I get those cramps again and I am certain it's AF coming, maybe a little late because of all the hormones.

I am back to work today, not where I want to be at all. Got in late since I had to go for a blood test this morning (not the pregnancy test though) and only have to work until Weds, as Thur and Fri we are off.

Sorry I don't have any words of encouragement to offer today. It looks as a lot of us, feeling a little bummed out today. For those of you who aren't, I do not want to bring down your good moods, so keep up the PMA!!!!!!

Here's looking to a better tomorrow

Lots of love,
Stephanie