Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

Oh dear Stephanie, Camilla and Steph. You all sound so fed up. Come on girls, i usually rely on you to cheer me up.
Some good news for the day - I had my scan and i have 8 lovely follies, the biggest is 20mm. It only feels like yesterday that i was asking for your advice about taking the injections and now i go in for EC on Wednesday. Of course i am nervous but the end is near and my good old friend Emla will be by my side.

Stephanie - Since being told i am infertile, i have read lots about it. Ignore the cramps, twinges etc as you can still be pregnant even if you have all these symptons and even if you bleed. PMA will keep you going, not long now so hold on in there my friend.

Steph - Ye, i agree it is one long wait but i am not happy you are doing it in 29 degrees when it is only 5 here. Keep smiling.

Camilla - Hold on my dear friend, not long now. Its ok to have a bad day, just remember we are here for you anytime so cry or vent away until your hearts content. Be strong.

Lola - It's Jemla1d here. Where are you? I hope you are ok and resting.

Must go and have some tea then a sleep. Have to get up at 12 o'clock tonight for my last trigger injection.

To everyone else take care and i am thinking of you all.

Will chat tomorrow before i go into hospital on Wed.

Love Jen xxx

[leigh]

Must be one of those days. Took me all my strength to go to work today, I just didn't want to. Everyone has totally irritated me all day and If anyone had said something wrong feel sure I would have burst into tears. My lovely DH sent me 'How are you?' message at lunch just as I was ready to cry, made me feel bit better. Only symptom I'm having is 'odd feeling boobs', no sickness, no tiredness, no backache, no sudden urges to go to the loo more often! Aaaaaaaaaahh, this wait is worse than the 2ww. Roll on next Tuesday!!!!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[camilla]

Dear all

Thought I would update now (yes it's late) because I don't know if I'll be OK to do so tomorrow. I've had a pre AF type headache all day and I know what it's like coz I've been dreading them every month for the last three years. It's my unlucky sign. Looks like the game's up. I actually thought we had a chance but looks like my little embie decided not to stick around. Just want to get it over with now. Don't know how I'm going to cope coz I've been in tears already today.

I don't think I'll be able to broadcast my loser status on Stephanie's and my test date thread. After my message this morning I was going to suggest not having one for me.

This is a very selfish message because it's all about me, sorry.

You've all been wonderful.

Lots of love

Camilla xxx

[AMck]

Hi Octoberies

Sending you all a big injection of PMA.



Yes the waiting is pants...but look how far you have all come. How brave you are to even contemplate this whole ordeal!

You are brilliant at supporting each other. I don't know what I would do without this site. It's a lifeline. So keep up the good work.

Hang in there everyone!


Anna

[slcannon]

Camilla,

I know this is hard. Unforntunately it is part of the process that we all must endure. But the game's not over yet. Many on here get pre-AF type symptoms but AF never comes, well not for a while. Please stay strong, I know you have it in you!!! You have been there for all us when we have needed it and now it's our turn to be there for you.


I am sending you a ton of PMA and praying that you feel better tomorrow, I know you will We are almost there, only 4 days left. Hang in there. And what is this about a "loser", NO ONE here is a loser in any way, not matter what the outcome.

We have our ups and downs during this process and at this stage hormones play a huge role. Remember we are being pumped with progesterone and it brings many symptoms with it.

Sending you a huge cyber hug, since I am half way across the world.


Look forward to hearing how you are feeling tomorrow. I know it will be much better.

Lots of love,
Stephanie

[little R]

Dearest friends,

Sorry it's a real quickie...my cousin is here visiting me so don't have much time to spend on my thoughts or the internet.
I am sorry as would like to write so much more!

I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you ALL, especially Camilla and Stephanie.

PLEASE hang in their my Octobuddies....you have got so far...you've been so brave and patient, you've done so well and been so loving and supportive towards others.
You must keep your PMA up and believe me, I know it is hard.

Remember: "It's not over until it's over"!

I really believe that, my friends, as this site constantly reminds us time and again..... symptoms that may have seemed frightening initially have gone onto wonderful surprises.
Camilla, this is your first IVF right? It's not the same as trying to conceive naturally or even doing IUI.... I know because I have done both for a pretty long time.
IVF has a better chance of giving you a little one!
The day before I tested I was having my usual AF symptoms as you are now.... I was having my usual period headache and cramping...and yet, although I am not pregnant now, I was.
Everyone is different...don't stop hoping until it's over.
Look at Lola, she was convinced too that it wasn't going to work....
The doubting goes with the territory....hang in there, just a little while longer.

Much love to you both dear 2wwers!

Sending you all the PMA I can muster up!

Must dash as have to throw on my tourist guide garb!

LOVE,

Little R

[Cla]

Hi guys,
so sorry you're feeling down. Here's a huge cyber hug from me

Cla
xx

[Smita]

Camilla,
Hang in there.
There are no different symptoms that tell we are pregnant- unfortunately..
All I can say is, You deserve a BFP and so you shall get it.
Sending you rainshowers of babydust.

Stephanie,
Good Luck to you too.. the last stretch is the worst, but keep thinking positive girls!

smita

[camilla]

Dear Octoberbuddies

Thank you everyone for your encouraging words, I don't know what I'd do without you. I know I've just got to wait. The tears keep coming though. With my puffy eyes I daren't go out in case I frighten any children or old ladies! I was supposed to meet a friend for coffee but I made an excuse and cancelled. I've been doing some paperwork and writing a Christmas list instead, anything to keep busy, though haven't been tempted to clean the oven!

I love you all, you're the support I need.

Stephanie - I am thinking of you during our countdown. Thank you for the cyber hug, I'm sending one back to you.

Jen - Sorry about all this negativity just when you need the opposite. Best of luck with your EC tomorrow. You'll be fine. The clinic will keep you informed of your embies progress and before you know it you'll be back in for your ET!

Thank you, thank you, thank you for being there.

Lots of love.

Camilla xxx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hel-ooooo My Little Rays of Sunshine!!

Ok, OK, I think I may have started this rant and broke the damn that was holding back all the poo-pooh thoughts. I needed to vent and from the looks you did too.....

But, My fella Quirckies- I have decided to stop this instant. It is rainy and dreary and 7:23am where I am, but I will not let that get me down! Let's remember the good stuff shall we-

we have our preggers- Leigh & Lola, you Queens of the Nile! Two very lovely, most beautiful sight in the world scans coming up.

Plus, 2 more preggers on the way- Camilla & Stephanie! The baby boogie celebration dance is just waiting for you.

We have our Girl Jen who will be having her EC very soon and it will go so smashingly that the rays of hope will pierce our cloud of doom.

And we have us, Little R. What to say about us- We did it once! We proved we are ready, willing and able to do it again. Our crazy glue sticky beans will happen! Besides, we have already had the worst possible thing happen- it only gets better from here! Plus, we had hugs from hubbies. Much better now.

So, let's trash the PMA and just let's instead have- "don't you dare F with us" attitude because we are going to break out a little can of whoop *ss on our nemisis infertility............

Super Octobers!!! Doo, da, doo.

Steph

[Jen1d]

Well Steph you just made me cry with your little message of positivity. I think its because i'am a bit worried about tomorrows EC too. I keep worrying that my eggs won't be good quality then they won't fertilize, then it will be painful ----- the list goes on.

Anyway i am following your good advice. We are all strong her and are going to pull through these tough times BUT we WILL get our gorgeous bundles of joy soon. PMA all the way and no more negative thoughts.

Camilla - Keep that chin up and held high. Its not over. Be strong and a hug is flying your way from Bonny Scotland.

I finished work today and won't go back until 17th December. Thankfully i work shifts so only needed to take 15 days off on the rota. The sad thing is i look after the rota so have covered my own sick leave !!

Anyway keep your fingers crossed for me tomorrow girls. Emla is at the ready.

Love to you all and keep smiling

Jen xxx

[slcannon]

Jen,

Just wanted to jump in from work and send you this note. Lots of luck for tomorrow. You will do fine. Let us know how you are feeling, but also get lots of rest before ET.

Lots of love and big hug,
Stephanie

[lolajones]

Hello Ladies!!!
Brace yourselves I am carrying a happy vibe parachute!!! Wooo Hoooo!!!
First - Camilla - the 2ww is sh*te, you gave me a right telling off and I'm here to do the same - don't give up hope!!!! The sheer cosmic weight of all of us rooting for you and Stephanie must count for something Rik Waller sized! Stephanie - your cyber hugs rule! I am sending all of my good luck pheromones your ways girls.
Jemla - Good luck tomorrow, it'll be a breeze my sweet. Enjoy it - I love anaesthetics. Then take it easy while your embryos grow....
Steph - you are hilarious. I'm so glad you're here in Octoberland.
Little R you are also a little light of goodness
Where will our home be when everyone finishes their cycle???? Will we be Octobies forever????
Leigh, I know, this waiting lark is pants. I am also existing in a symptom vacuum. Another week to go......

Sorry I've been in stealth mode for past few days, you haven't missed much, I've been all low moody and not worth bothering with. However, I've had a large dose of que sera sera and am now feeling a bit less like a mentalist.
Seems everyone has been feeling down over the last few days - just a trough on the way to a massive great PEAK

Sending all of my love to my favourite ladies

Lola
xxxx

PS Smita, Cla, Anna - thank you for spreading your positivity around and Cla - thank you for your poem (you nutter) and kind words!!! xxxx

[little R]

Jen..... we LOVE YOU! YOU WILL BE FINE!

Thinking about you on your big day....sorry, feel terrible I didn't get this message out sooner. My tourist guide duties are ruling my life at the moment
Given that my guest awakes in a few hours, I thought I would rise bright and early to get a positive start on the day... hence logging onto my favourite website.

You hang in there, sweetie... and enjoy the drugs
Lovely numbing effect!

Try and take it one step at a time and it will feel less overwhelming... today you are allowed to worry about the procedure , but only that and tomorrow you can worry about your little ones! . Hand some of the worry over....we can handle it!
We all hear you and your concerns...you will be fine.

I'm wishing for lots of darling embies...

Rest up and take care of yourself,

Much love to you sweet Octobuddy!

Sending you lots of PMA.

Little R

[camilla]

Dear Buddies

God, I was in a pit of self-pity on Monday! I know now I can put it down to these hormones galloping round my body. But if I hadn't have let it all out here then I wouldn't have got so much of your worldly advice and wouldn't be feeling so much more like me now. Thanks. Little R and Steph, you're especially amazing because of what you've been through.

Steph - I love your upbeat message. Onwards and upwards!

Jen - (who will be blissfully out of it shortly) You've got it all to come, but in a good way.

Lola, Leigh, Little R, Stephanie - I love you guys.

We will be keeping in touch forever I hope! Little R and Steph will be on the next step of their journey soon and I want to be there for them.

Love, PMA, babydust, hugs to you all.

Camilla xxx