NickiMark Test Date Sun 27 Nov

[HOLLY SANDERSON]

Nicki
I know nothing I will say will help but I'm thinking of you
big hugs

[elleR]

Nicki,

I am so sorry to hear your news.... Please take care of yourself and don't give up. I know how hard this is for you.

Sending you a big, big HUG.

elleR

[jag]

Oh Nicki, I'm crying with you m'dear. You are my little ray of sunshine and are always so positive.

Take time to feel, angry, exhausted, sad and to cry, cry, cry. You must be feeling doubley crap as you have a cold too. I hope you are able to take a couple of days off with your cold. Sod work and sod everyone and just snuggle in bed with a hot water bottle, a cup of hot chocolate and a huge bar of chocolate. Life can be sooo cruel. Try to sleep, sleep, sleep as it will help you.

You and DH deserve some special time together. Take mental time off over the holidays and try to chill. Your time will come and it will be in 2006 - New Year, New Start, New Life to be born to you.

My heart goes out to you Nicki.

Luv n hugs to you both JAG and DH x

[NickiMark]

What can I say, I am over welmed by the love and support you girls hve given me, thanks.

leigh, you are great.... wishing u the best with ur scan xx
Holly, thanks for your love, me & u in limbo now xx
Joy, you were my cycle last time, I am happy u still care. xx
Becky, You have been here for me for ages, I know u will continue to care
Little P, You have been great and always there for me. Love to ur bump
Jag, you were my cycle buddie last time too, I'm really rooting for u xx
Anna, thanks for u support this month. xx
Jeni, u r great & always been there for me, sorry i missed on the chat nite
Smita, love to u and bump, you are a great support too xx
Camilla, thanks for being the test thread queen this month, xx
Amfy, U didnt jinx me, dont let it drag u down. Me and you together dear
Penny, You have been a star, always kept me smiling. Robbie Rules!!
Chanteq, all's there for me, you little gem xx
Souris, thanks for your love and support xx
Annie, it was nice chatting to u the other night, hope all is well with u too
Hlloyd, you have been supporting me over the last few cycles, youre great
MLG, Thanks for ur love xx
GailP,u've been there for me over the last few cycle, Goodluck with ur FET
Heather, Welcome back, I know that u understand me, thanks for u love x
Lynne, thanks for logging on especially. Thanks for caring xx
Terri, Thanks fro u kind words and love xx
Pam, You have been great, thansk xx
Denise, my iui buddy, thanks. x x
Debra, thanks foryour love and kindness, xx
ElleR, wishing u the best on your 2ww, thnaks xx
Katie, thanks for being there for me, means alot to me xx
Bella, Thanks for the support
Cla, you have been great.
Rachel, thanks for helping me through this.
pauline, thanks you for your love xx

Girls, you truely mean so much to me,
Thnaks xx

please be here for me forever, this is going to be a long journey....

x x x x x

[annieb]

Nicki, I'm so sorry it didnt work out for you again this time.

It really is a rough ride, all the hope and despair on one long roller coaster ride. I'm sure there wouldn't be a queue at Alton Towers for this one!!!

I hope you are being kind to yourselves.

Love Annie x

[NickiMark]

Annie, I see on your signature it's the end of the ivf for you? Are you hapy about this, will you adopt? Will u try thing else? is it truely the end?
xx

[hlloyd]

Nicki, so sorry to hear that it didn't work out. Please don't blame yourself, if there is one thing I have learnt throughout this whole wretched process it is that we have little control over the outcome. So don't go beating yourself up over something that wasn't your fault. If you are able to, take some time off work and give yourself some time and space to heal. Make an appointment with the specialist to talk about the options that are available to you and find a way forward that you both feel comfortable with.

It has been a tough road for you so far but I am sure that you will get there in the end.

Take care and know that there are tonnes of women on here that are thinking of you and sharing your disappointment.

Best wishes
Heather

[Kate21]

Nicki,

So sorry to hear your news, I know how you feel. Over the last two weeks since my BFN I've actually felt more positive than ever! We will get there, its just going to take some of us a bit longer than others!

Just take your time to get you're head around it and the fact that it wasn't your fault and then you go girl.....the BFP is waiting around the corner.

Take care
Kate

[NickiMark]

you r right, I AM SURE IT'LL HAPPEN!!!! But when? Ttc for 4 yrs, it's crazy!!

I told dh today, I want to take a year out, he said no way... hey so men are just as passionate.... I didnt mean that, I just thought thats what he wanted, but obviously not..... so will ove first get settled and go for it.... xx

i am sure we might change our minds. Early days yet xx

Thnaks again peeps xx

[annieb]

Hi Nicki

Yes, we made the decision before this cycle that it would be the last go. As i dont have periods naturally ALL our hope is pinned on each cycle, absolutely no chance of it happenening naturally, this makes it such a difficult process to go through for us. I could probably go though it again but DH is so sensitive (bless 'im) that he has taken the -ve's really badly, in fact is in a huge depression at the moment following last weeks result. It is just not worth the risk - not sure if our marriage could survive to be honest.

We hope to apply for adoption after the statutory 6 month waiting time, I feel quite happy about it particularly as the oness wont just be on me and my body being responsible for the end result! I am surprisingly ok about the whole thing to be honest - but then I could be in denial!!!

I hope you get some answers about whether to move on to IVF or not,
take care, Annie xxx

[NickiMark]

annie, I wish you all the best in the world, let us know when u adopt and your new little un arrives. xx
x x

[ogr1]

If you dare to believe
to follow your star...

If you seek out your purpose
to find out who you are...

If you call on your courage
to find hope in your heart...

If you challenge your talent
to fulfill its part...

If love for your neighbor
helps to shape who you are...

If you still can have faith
when you’ve traveled so far...

If troubles and setbacks
cannot stand in your way...

If you find the resolve
to live life every day...

Then what you will find
at the end of the road —

Is strength in your heart
and peace in your soul.

~ ~ ~

[bella-s]

Nicki,

DH & I have been thinking of you all weekend, and hoping so much that you were going to get good news. DH loves all you girls as much as I do because of the help & support all of you have given me - especially since the first 2 times when I did it without you all.

Anyway, I have to say, you're a bit of a fave of his (I think b/c you remind him of me, and his name is Mark so your name stands out)! He & I are both so sad for you, but we wanted to remind you of the advice you gave me --

"One day it'll happen, and it'll happen then for a reason just you wait and see. make sure you and dh go out this w/end have a fun night.... "

All I can say is, you're a wise woman! Take it easy, and lets both have BFP's in our NY resolution for 2006!

Bella.

[JackieT]

nicki
just read your news, i am so sorry, and i know that no words can make you feel any better, but, please know that im thinking of you and dh,
take good care of each other
love jackie xxx

[Smita]

Nick,
What can I say?
But maybe like Denise says you can ask your consultant abt iui with meds?To just up the chances?Is donor IVF funded for you, or will you have to go private for that too?

lots of love,

smita