To my cycle buddie Helen GB

KarenSmiff · Post by **KarenSmiff** » Wed Jun 18, 2003 11:40 am

Helen I am so so sorry to hear that. I was sooo thinking that you would be pregnant. I know our chances were slim, only having the one embie, but you still have to hold on to the chances dont you. I know I am defo not, cus I woke this morning with af pains and brown discharge, hence af on her way. Last night I told DH about my sneaky test (neg), and I couldnt stop crying. The next thing I am going to do is book a holiday. Then probably get back into the IVF again October time. I know what you mean about the money side, its hard. (& I even get 2 more cycles of drugs free, and its still hard). Hasnt it been a stressful 4 wks. I'll meet you in the kings head at 8.pm and we can get bladdered. Bye for Now Helen So sorry. Thanks for being there for me during this cycle. Karenxxxxxxxxxxx

Helen GB · Post by **Helen GB** » Wed Jun 18, 2003 3:25 pm

Karen THANK YOU for being there for me this last 4 weeks. Don't give up hope until you get a negative on the RIGHT day...testing early is very very naughty....you bad girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Birch twigs for you, me thinks. The brown discharge could be anything so I still have my fingers crossed for you. As for me, have a nice bottle of wine waiting for tonight and DH is taking me away somewhere nice the weekend after next. I know it sounds odd but I feel strangely relieved today...that this attempt is over and I can get back to 'normal' life. I am going to have a long soak tonight in the bath after only having showers this past 2 weeks. Keep me posted Karen....if I knew where the King's Head was I'd join you!! Take care and @speak' to you again soon Love Helen xxxx

july ann · Post by **july ann** » Thu Jun 19, 2003 2:44 pm

hi karen had to but in as you are not aloud to have these neg thoughts. try and stay positive i know it is hard but stranger things have happened. we need some good news.. good luck with the test from july ann

KarenSmiff · Post by **KarenSmiff** » Thu Jun 19, 2003 7:08 pm

Hiya Helen Well I know its the end of the road, cus Fresh blood this afternoon, otherwise know as the "period"! Test due in the morning. Spose I'll still do it, just to make it official. I know what you mean about being able to be "normal"(ish) again. Feel as if you can now Breath. The hardest part is telling friends/family. I called my sis in law this evening, and my mum and explained. Managed to keep it together on the phone, but balled as soon as I put it down. Feel as though I have let everyone down. I must admit, it has hit me harder than I expected it to. Me and DH are going out Saturday night, for a few drinks (alot), and a curry. The alcohol is long awaited, just hope it doesnt send me all depressed. Anyway, we are going to save some more pennies and have another bash in Oct time. In the mean time, booking 2wks holiday in the sun. I will make a review appointment with the doctor. It is all included within the package. See what he has to say. Prob change drugs next time. But I have read a lot on these boards, that every cycle is different. So just hope i respond better next time. Good Luck for the future. KAREN