Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

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Octa-poos!

Just checkin in sweetums...

Lola- are you OK? Have not heard anything for a little....... check in if you fancy. Even if just to say that life right now is a big pile of pooh, served on a very stale cracker.......

Camilla- you too, please.

Don't make me worry about you lovelies!

Leigh- fantastic news on fabulous babyhood- you are on your way! Congrats. Am totally jealous, but very happy for you.

Little R- So, how is it REALLY going for you now? I have had several days of good, no jigs of uncontrollable crying, which makes me think that a bad day is just peeking around the corner waiting to pounce on my positivity! I will wrestle it to the ground, we will tussle for a little, BUT I will come up the winner. I shall prevail! I have an incredible calmness about me lately. (except when I am Christmas shopping ) And get this- I even feel patient! Shocking! Just relaxing and using the time until ready to go again.

Stephanie- Lucky Girl! Keep lovin that little one.

Steph

[Jen1d]

Hi gorgeous buddies,

Lola - I don't think there would be a tub of Emla big enough, i would have to just push hard and be brave thinking of the PMA from my October Buddies. You hang in there, i know you will have that little bundle some day soon. Look after yourself.

Leigh - Don't be silly, you are not rubbing our noses. It's great to have good news and i'm so glad everything is working out well. One day soon we will all have that smug look in the supermarket.

Steph, Camilla, Little R and Stephanie - Big hug to you all and thanks for the encouraging words and support. I have had such good advice from you all that i am trying to relax and be as positive as possible.

I have been ok. Always glad when another day has passed. Tortured myself a bit today thinking that even if the dreaded AF does not appear by Sunday, that i might still get a BFN. Had a few twinges this morning and worried again, but they went after about an hour. So thought this might be good, might be bad, at least there is no AF yet, worry, worry, worry---------the roller coaster goes on, aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh, it's horrible.

Love and huge hugs to you all. PMA all the way

Jen xxx

[camilla]

Dear Buddies

Such a lot of posts and I've only been gone a few days! I went to my mum and dad's on Saturday and although they only live half an hour away I stayed the night (left DH to watch sport on telly and have a few beers). I met a friend for a coffee and bit of Christmas shopping yesterday and when I got back at lunch-time I just had to have a lie-down! I just haven't had a chance to log on. Thank you for asking after me though.

Lola - You seem to be coping well. I think it's a good idea to take another week off work. As each day passes you will feel a little stronger. You have to grieve for you baby naturally, but in time you will have one. Just think of all the frosties you have, you did so well in your cycle. Someone said on one of the previous posts that things happen for a reason and I try to believe that when things don't go my way.

Jen - So the countdown for the last few days begins! At least you seem a lot more sane than I was! I still feel embarrased for my outburst. You're doing so well and we're all posting you so much babydust you won't be able to open the front door.

Stephanie - Glad to hear your scan was OK. I'm sure you're taking good care of your miracle. Does your DH keep fussing around you?

Leigh - Good to hear from you. Ginger is good for nausea so get yourself some ginger biscuits.

Steph, Little R and Lola - With Christmas coming I think you need to just enjoy it for what it is. Little R, I know you're not looking forward to seeing the outlaws but at least you'll have the support of your DH, stick to his side like glue. Last Christmas one of my good friends told me she was pregnant and I really let it get to me. Of course I was happy for her but I kept thinking that should be me too and maybe we hadn't tried hard enough the previous month etc. I couldn't get it out of my head but what I should have done is let it go and enjoyed the festivities more. Try to put baby-making out of your minds over Christmas and just get stuck into the food, drink and pressies. The New Year will be a great new start for you all and I'll make it my mission to get you all pregnant!

Well, I've started on the shopping but have to keep stopping to eat! We're getting the tree up nice and early this weekend! Then I'll have to start on the Christmas cards. We got our first one on the 1st!

Lots of love you all you wonderful girls. Hugs coming over.

Camilla xxx

[Walshy]

Hi Lovely October Ladies,
I'm sorry i havn't been around for while not getting the eggs put back in disappointed me more than I expected so i have been missing in action. I felt anrgy for some reason that they were sitting there and weren't being put back in!
Firstly let me congratulate those of you who have fallen pregnant.
My heart feels for those of you who didn't and my heart aches for those who have got that BFP but to only have taken away from them.
In regards to me it is nearly time for the 2 little eggs to be put back in....6 days and counting.
My littel frosties go back in on Monday and then I have the dreaded 2 week wait (it's actually only 12 days). Hopefully the fact that it is close to christmas will dull it for me.
It has been such a roller coaster to get this far and I feel as though I have been waiting for ever but it also feels like it is just around the corner.
I have everything crossed that my legs are starting to cramp.
Wish me luck...
Cheers, Angela

[Jen1d]

Hi Gang,

Angela welcome back. So good to hear your little frosties are going home on Monday. Everything is crossed for you.

This is the first day i have felt i wanted to do the HPT early but so far i have stayed away from the box. Angela it was interesting to hear that you only have to wait for 12 days on the dreaded 2ww, i have been told to wait for 16 days. Does anyone know if the result will change if i do it before 16 days or is is best to wait and do as i'm told haha.

Huge hug to all my favourite buddies.

Thanks girls, i always get great advice form you all.

Love Jen xxx

[camilla]

Dear Octobuddies

Angela - How lovely to have you back. I have been thinking about you as I remembered it's your time! Your frosties have a good chance, remember that. Next Monday is so close, you must be excited. We're all here rooting for you and please make sure you stay in touch now. Just think you've got all of us bombarding you with PMA!

Jen - Not long now so please don't use a stick. I can't believe you've got one! No-one on in our gang used one so there!

It's funny but when you can't have something you seem to want it, my DH and I quite fancy a bit of sex but it's off the menu for 12 weeks! I am having some nice dreams though! Was going to say something else but have completely forgotten what!

Lots of love to my favourite girls.

Camilla xxx

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Howdy Y'all!!! (Not from the south, but thought I'd give it a whirl anywho)


Our group has gotten so big again! And here I thought it was about to dwindle and fade.......... Welcome back to all those that tried to leave us and realized they can't live without us

My 5th year wedding anniversary is on Friday (actually ten years together) and handsome DH just informed me this morning that I need to take off work! ......... sweety is having a surprise day for me.

Walshy!!! Fantastic to have you back round. Good luck on Monday! Good news to know that you will be rejoined with your snow bunnies soon. So, give it a good one, have em stick and give hope to those of us that will be following in your footsteps soon. Absolutely no pressure, just extra wishes and very strong sticky vibes comin your way sista..........

Camilla- the sex? Well, it was so long since DH and I were allowed to dance horizontally I wasn't sure we would remember how- but Oh how we remembered! It will be bootylicious.... worth the wait.

Jen- Step away from the pee stick! I repeat, put it down and slowly back away.......... Resist the urge, no good will come from it. Just a smidgey longer and it will be your day!

Leigh & Stephanie- everything still going swimmingly?

Little R- Where are ya Love? Don't dissappear on me, it stresses me out. I almost had another down cycle yesterday. I was reading a book- of the romance variety, because,........ well it's cheap slutty, mindless entertainment and I love it.... But, at the end the heroine had a baby OF COURSE, but she kept saying how lovely it was to be pregnant and feel a life inside her- blah, blah, blah, sob, tear. BUT, I did prevail! I did not let it smash me into tiny pieces. I was sad, but not devastated.... Maybe I am on the uphill climb. But then this morning I remembered I am having a party with my friends on Saturday- all with kids under the age of 1...... Wish me luck!

Lola bird,- Either the yoga drives my sanity or takes it away- haven't decided yet? However, In my class there is no breathing through your anus! Only through noses. However, you should contract your mula bandha- which is like doing a kiegel- but who could argue with that, it improves so many things
How dare you ask about my age, I am offended! NAH...... I am 28. But my DH is 61.... Just kidding, he is 30. I have had 2 surgeries for stage 3 endo. This was our first IVF. Ovaries responded poorly according to doc for my age. We will do the FET- hopefully my 2 lovely embies survive the thaw, then we go from there. I am really leaning toward adoption lately if the FET doesn't work...... But, who knows. If only that stork would fly by the house........... Why the questions? Working for the CIA now? ........ No really, I am an open book- see above for type, but an open book none the less.
I think that your doc should definitely be monitoring your HCG. Mine is done every two weeks. At last check it was 25, so it should be zero soon. It has been a month... they predicted a month and a half- looks like the were right on.

Have a smashingly good day everyone- if your not, just get smashed! (unless preggers, then ignore) Sidebar: I am not really an alcoholic, just wish I was...

Steph

[little R]

Hey my Octofriends-----well, it seems like it has been ages....and so many messages have been posted

No worries, Steph, I have not - I repeat - have not abandoned you! I would NEVER do that...I am TOO selfish and I need YOU too much. Feel as if we are on the same wavelength these days.
I am actually feeling a lot better , more hopeful about 2006 and I have found myself smiling at lot more than usual . I wish I could get my smile back permanently; it would make my DH so happy! Anyway, the reason for my absence....pretty mundane excuse: the dreaded Xmas shopping, which has taken a great deal of time out of my week ! "I will survive" has been hummed in many shops and got me through the inlaw-present-picking process
BUT it is finally over and now I only have the wrapping to do...not sure whether I will actually do it as gifts in general do not travel well in suitcases! We shall see! I am glad to hear that you seem very happy and in control of your feelings. WELL DONE, I say---- at least you got to the end of the flowery novel without throwing it into the fireplace ! You're doing magnificently, my dear! You know.... I think that you are very brave to go to a party with so many young children.....I couldn't face it at the moment. I have spent time with my best friend's children, but they are lovely and are so loving...it doesn't make me feel bad.....hmm, couldn't handle a whole bunch of them though! Steph, you're so young....hihihihihi, have been reading your answer to cheeky undercover Lola! BTW, congrats on your 5th wedding anniversary.... !

Lola - thinking about you, dear girl...wish we could make you laugh as you have done in the past!
What are you up to? Any more viewing? I have completed the first season of the OC.... what mindless pubescent drivel but SUCH great fun. I am guilty..I am hooked . I am trying to get a friend of a friend to lend me the second season. Now, do you think less of me ?

Camilla - SUPER to have you back....glad to hear that all is going smoothly. Don't forget to take it easy..... feet up comes before the Xmas decorations. I bet you are having fun with little Henry! Xmas must be such a fun time for kiddies!

Jen - I AGREE ---- step away from the stick!!!!! It will only do you harm... believe us please! None of us Octobuddies caved in...you have to be strong and push the urge away...we are here with you and sending you all the PMA and strength necessary to make it through until the 11th. Be strong lass.... give them all to your DH to hide away. I am not an expert on the HPT topic, but I did have a couple of old ones at home from previous months. I remember reading on the instructions that if you had taken Pregnyl to trigger the ovulation the HPT would only be valid as of 14days from the injection. BUT I repeat.... hand the sticks over to your DH...get them out of reach! Hang in there....heaps of virtual hugs coming your way!

Walshy - good luck on Monday....it's Xmas.... the season for frosties.... wishing you all the best!

Stephanie - hugs to you and the Little One!

Well must dash as want to spend a few hours with DH before he flies out again tonight.


Much love to my dear buddies....

Little R

[Jen1d]

Camilla, Little R and Steph
Thanks for the encouragement. I promise i have not taken the hpt and decided last night not too. Anyway Camilla i still want to be in the gang so promise i won't take it unit Sunday morning.
Still no AF today, thanks goodness. Now i am starting to worry that i still might not be pregnant even if AF does not show up. Is this possible? I have been told that if your body rejects the embies then you are more likely to have an AF during the two weeks, is this right girls? I just keep praying each day goes by without it showing it's ugly head so there will be more chance of a BFP.
I swear this second week is worse than the first. What i hate too is that if we were able to conceive naturally then this would all be private and if i wasn't pregnant then fine but as its ivf my work colleagues, some friends and family know so everyone is waiting for the news-------no pressure then.

Oh and just to make you all jealous. I have had so much time on my hands that i have bought, wrapped and sent all my pressies plus written and sent my Chrimbo cards----thought that would cheer you all up hahahaha.

Thanks my lovelies for all you support and advice. I am sending a huge hug to you all.

Lola hope you are taking time to pamper yourself. Am thinking of you.

Catch up tomorrow

Love Jen xxx

[lolajones]

Just a quickie from Special Agent Jones.
Not mucho spare time, my mum has come to stay and I am Not To Be Left Alone apparently
Getting a lot of pain following operation and also bleeding - suppose thats normal. Looks like I'm going to have to wait about 5 billion years until I can cycle again. Thank you god of fertility, you capricious she dog
Read a medical paper that stated that having an initial positive test (Steph, Little R - I talking to you ladies) followed by eg early mc is a positive predictor for future ivf success. So whilst things are decidedly ERSE now, there is a bright sun just over the horizon. Altogther now.... HOORAH!
Will write more tomorrow if the handcuffs are off - not the fur lined ones either Until then
Jemla - tut tut. I won't add my wrath to that of the triad but DONT TEST EARLY. You'll get a positive - my welsh voodoo toe predicts it. And also YOU BIG SWOT "Oh hello (smug smile to camera 1), my name's Jen and I have my christmas completely organised 3 weeks prior to the event" Come to London and sort mine? I'm too ill and emotionally distressed...if you loved me you would.
Walshy!!! So good to hear from you!!! Frosties! Frosties! Chant chant chant!
Steph you nutter. Its actually the FBI but shhhhh. Was just plain nosiness. Or healthy investigative curiosity - just doing my job ma'am. Congrats on the 5 year hurdle. Me n dh been together 11 years and married for 2 - well, a girls gotta be sure, right?
Little R teen tv is the way forward!!!!! I live my life vicariously these days.
Miss Camilla - stay safe and take it easy
Leigh - you too

Well, not that short after all.

Love and positivity shuttles orbiting my october friends forever

Take Care

Lola
xxxx

[little R]

Morning to my Octosunshines!

A quickie before DH boots me off this machine

Well done Jen! We are very proud of you! Good work on staying away from the evil pee stick. I swear that thing has powers and you have proven yourself worthy of the gang by not succombing to its evil attraction!
Hourrah! The 11th is close.... I am wishing for it to come quickly... (also because I have a dentist's appointment that I am literally fearing!)

Yes she is back...the hilarious Lola girl! Lovely to hear that you are doing better emotionally.... I am hoping that you will be physically healing very soon. I am really glad that your mother is around to "monitor" you. You need to be taken care of and nurtured. You poor brave thing! Thanks for the info on the success rates for IVF after early m/c....you and Steph are so lucky to have some frosties to look forward to.... I have to start the whole thing from scratch again.... big sigh Well, I am going to try and take some of Camilla's sound advice and enjoy the end of the year. Great to have you and your positive outlook back, my friend! I am not sure whether you wanted me to share my story....as my signature pretty much says it all Been with my DH for over 6 years, married nearly 4 years I'm part of the frustrating unexplained infertility group... so have no idea why we can't get preggers , but have given up hope that it will happen naturally. DH's job doesn't help our situation either

Camilla...kisses and hugs to you....feet up I hope?

To my other Octopals.... lots of PMA and virtual hugs.

Much love

Little R

[camilla]

Good morning friends

Steph - First of all just have to say your messages really are good, you're a funny girl! You and Lola should have a competition to see who makes us laugh out loud. Happy Anniversary for tomorrow. So your DH is whisking you away, how romantic! Have a few drinks for us.

Jen - Well done for a) resisting the urge to test and b) finishing your Christmas pressies AND cards, gold star! I think no news is good news so keep visualising your tiny embie. Only a few days left.

Little R - Well done to you too for Christmas shopping. It can become a chore can't it? You deserve a drink and you can have one!

Lola - I'm so glad to hear that your mum is with you. There's nothing like your mum!

Walshy - Do we call you that or Angela? Hope you're looking forward to Monday. Someone said your embies will be coming home, that's a good way to look at it. I'll be praying for them as they de-frost.

I remembered what I was going to say yesterday! My scan is on the 16th. I'm staying calm but obviously hoping and praying that everything is OK. As we seem to be comparing, my DH and I have been married for 11 years and together for 15 years! but I am older than you lot, I think.

Well take it easy girls. Catch you tomorrow. Big hugs.

Lots of love.

Camilla xxx

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Zuma-Octuma's!

Tis lovely day in the neighborhood..... Won't you be my neighbor?

Jen- You present ho! had to rub it in.... Well, I will have you know that out of 9 nieces and nephews I have only 9 left to shop for......
In other news.....
Well done! Well done! Woo-Woo-Woo (Arsenio Hall style, as seen in Pretty Woman with fist pumping in air) Very proud you were able to avoid the whizzing NO-NO. Takin a pee is torture enough during 2WW as expecting to see AF everytime, let alone adding a target stick! 11th is so very close. Time to cross everything! Although, I will not ask you to do the sphincter breathing Lola is so very fond of. In-hale, Ex-hale.......
I only exhale out of that region! TMI?

Lola-fa-la-la-la-la, Tis the season! Glad that surgery is over for you darlin'. Hate the bleeding. My doc said it would last ten days- my body was as cooperative as usual and bled for 19! Very helpful info on IVF success after miscarriage article. Lovely, encouraging, bring a smile to my face kind of information! ... Played a little hard to get with DH, huh? Make him beg for it. I like that! You fiesty little Kitty!

Camilla- scan LUCK! It will be so lovely for you. I think you win the prize for who has put up with Dh the longest. After that many years, is he trained yet? Still trying with mine- the smackin him in the nose with a newspaper doesn't seem to be working anymore. Hmmm? Bribing him with sex does seem to get a better response. All those docs do say that positive reinforcement is better.......

Little R- It is very poo-poo- stinky that you have to start from scratch. BUT, you will get so many embies you won't know what to do with them all! Unexplained infertility too- well, alot of things in life can't be explained.... like why men and women are wired so differently and are expected to live in one house together? Why a sheep doesn't shrink when it gets wet? Why the only day of the week, Sunday, that people actually have time to watch tv and yet there is nothing on! Life's mysteries yet to be solved. But, keep in mind that we are so fabulous that we deserve our little ones, therefore we shall have them!
By the by, my cousin thought she would comfort me by sending me a song called HELD, I don't recommend. Whatta tear producing rant that is........ Sobs, tears and snifffles.

Over and out good buddies!
Steph

[Jen1d]

Well another day gone but its not been fun today. I feel different and have a heavy feeling just above my bikini line. Am positive my AF is on it's way but so far nothing. Hoping this is just a good sign but hard to stay focused on anything all day. Wishing my life away until Sunday, god this is torcher and sooooooooo unfair.

Right thats encough of me feeling sorry for myself.

Lola - So glad you are feeling better. I wish i could be in London and i would happily do your shopping for you. I lived there for years and only moved back to Scotland 5 yrs ago but miss London desperately. My DH is English but he wanted to live up here and he loves it. We have been together 15yrs and married for 13, though i would add that as everyone else is doing it.

Camilla - Good luck with the scan, i am waiting with baited breath for the news.

Little R - I reckon DH should get another job then you can put up with the rain and cold like us. I am far too jealous you are getting all the sun, it's freezing here.

Steph - You cheer everyone else up but how are you feeling?

Stephanie & Leigh - Hope all is going well with you both. We will catch up soon.

Angela - Not long until your embies are home with you.

Snuggles, huggles and baby dust to you all

Love Jen x

[slcannon]

Good afternoon lovely ladies!!!! Hope everyone is doing well today.

Sorry I haven't posted for a couple of days. Back to work fulltime is a bit challenging. I am starving all the time so I have to be sure and have food available when I need it, not easy to do where I work unless I bring it all myself. And extremely exhausted by the middle of the day, trying to make it to quitting time is a joke. I don't think I've managed to stay awake past 9pm at night, if that late. Dr. has me on progesterone injections, not bad, but also taking 200mg prometrium 3x per day. The dose is killing me. I feel absolutely horrible then add this to all the other hormone changes going on right now. AND the nausea has set it.

Lola - Glad to see you are in better spirits. Moms always know what to do to help us through our difficult times. Take is easy so you can heal quickly. Your frosties are waiting for you!

Jen - Great strength, and as all the others have said, don't do it. Wait for the test date and all will be well. Hope you are coping OK, your wait is almost over. Hurry 11th!!!!!!!! You can do it! And thanks for rubbing it in our faces that your Christmas shopping, wrapping and cards are done ALREADY! Come to the US and do mine, I can't stay awake long enough to think about what to buy.

Camilla - How are you doing? Good luck on the 16th. Hoping to hear excellent news. I'm sure you are getting ready for an exciting Christmas with DH and Henry.

Walshy - Welcome back. Not long now. WOW, how the time has flown by. Your embies will be where they truly belong. Stay relaxed and keep up the PMA. Good luck on Monday.

Steph - Yes, your posts are as humorous as Lola's. Thanks for being so witty and helpful to all of us. Keep it up. It's great to see you in better spirits anyway. Happy 5th Anniversary! I am sure DH has something great planned for you so go and enjoy it, but we want all the details upon your return.

Little R - How do you do it with DH traveling so much? I guess you get used to it right? Don't worry about starting from scratch. The Drs will adjust your meds so you get so many embies that you will have more than enough to get your miracle. Glad to see you in spirits also.

Leigh - So happy for you! Stay with the group, we want to know that everything is going well.

The end of the year is approaching. I am sad to see it come to a close, but happy for what is in store for all of us in 2006. Can't wait til you start cycling again and all the Octobies will not only get BFPs, but will deliver their bundles of joy.

Lots of love,
Stephanie