Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[little R]

Hey dear Octo-Jen,

I can totally understand how you feel. Believe me. The number of times I have felt exactly the same way....

It doesn't get any easier, I think.

My cousin is on the verge of having her baby and I know that I am supposed to be bathing in her enthusiasm, rejoicing and sharing her happiness, but honestly, it's overwhelming how much it reminds me of my own sad situation and our loss.

I am sending you heaps of hugs and positive vibes from sunny Dubai.
You hang in there, sweetie.

Try not to ponder too much on her and her "bump"...as it has now happened and it's only normal to feel the initial shock.
Then try and put your friend out of your mind and just try and focus and what YOU want and need to do for February...
We will be here to encourage you....

Don't let your doubts in this next cycle bring you down...have a cuppa of green tea and keep fighting

Take care

Much love,

Little R

[lolajones]

Oi Oi
Just a quick one for Jemla.
Just go with your feelings my friend. Its tough, our intrepid journey through ivf valley of hormone grove. Remember, you mostly feel ok. You mostly are cheerful n upbeat. The occasional lapse is just normal. DO NOT castigate yourself. Give yourself a break.
Maybe it was downer weekend - I too spent several hours ruining my weekend by wailing about the unfairness/pain/impotence of the whole shabang. Think it was due to AF finally arriving and hernia pain. I have so much anger knocking about these days - that and my fast mouth going to get me into trouble at work I worry. Anyhoo my lovely - the only thing to do is ride the wave safe in the knowledge that tomorrow will be better because it always is.
Right, I'm off, yet another scan - gallbladder (they tell me I'm too young (ha ha) and thin for gallstones but the camera never lies, maybe its an Oreo that took a wrong turn?) this time. My body is really p*ssing me off - it's holding me to ranson for all the abuse I put it through in my younger days. Payola time. If I have to have it taken out am going to have it made into a fetching change purse. Free biscuit with every one!

PS I swear I just saw Buffy n Arnie on a new show called Embryo Olympics on Paramount. Buffy was hefting a 10 ton sperm like a Russian shot putter. Go Girl!!!
And hey Steph, you trippin girlfriend, git yo sexy eyes offa my Demetrio. That hunk o lard, he awl man and he awl mine - y'dig?

Wecome back Little R!!! Have bailed on tv - went cold turkey and came off it. Have turned to books instead as main distraction. Glad to have you back!

Lola
xxxxx

[Walshy]

Ladies Ladies Ladies

How are we all going today?

All of you keep mentioning the Zita West book....Is it good? Is it like the bible of IVF. I havn't actually read that many books with IVF as I find i search the net and that I am becoming a bit obsessed with the whole thing and need to take a step back.

Jen - Bring on February I say, I hate the thought of wishing my life away but i want that BFP. I hear you when you had be positive for someone elses pregnancy. I asked my doctor was it normal to think that pregnant women were stalking me as they were every where I looked. He told me to go and rub myself against them their stomach to get some of their pregnancy gene...didn't take him up on that as I didn't want to be arrested. Here's hoping that your next cycle produces heaps of embies so you have heaps to freeze...

Lola - Would love to cycle with you in May is that when you are cycling? I'm trying to hold out to May but they said I can do back to back FET's. I just need a bit of break though but ask me in an hour and I change my mind and will do another cylce tomorrow.

Steph - Good luck with the FET. How many eggs are you getting put back in. I am hoping that you don't need a plan B as the Plan A will work.....

Camilla - How you feeling? When is your ultrasound? Are you going to find out the sex?

Litlle R - I will be cycling in May so I will be there cycling with you and maybe Lola??? I think May is going to be a great time for us and they will stick then. Over here it will be Autumn/Fall a lovely cool time so maybe they will want to snuggle into my uterus.

Well I am taking one day as it comes. I go to the Dr on Monday the 16. Have any of you heard anything about the ebryoglue? I have been reading alot about it and am going to check it out. I am also going to check out with the clinic on Monday the success rate for a blastocyst transfer as opposed to a 3 day transfer. Any thoughts?
Also have any of you ladies thought about when you do get pregnant that you will help out in the science side of things? My endocrologist was telling me how the purogen pen was made from the urine of pregnant women. So when i am pregnant I will call the place to donate my urine. I mean I used it and it only seems fair. Is it like that over wher you guys are from?
Until next time take care From Angela

[Inhale, Exhale]

Mornin Sunshine Octopoos!

Looks like the gangs all here!!

Little R- fantabulous to have you back luv! You were missed in the land of the crazies. Nice to have the family all together again.

Little R& Walshy- I can relate to the stories of the preggo mob squad following us. I think they are in kahoots with the stroller containing newborn mofia. My best friend, who has a 9 month old, called to tell me that number 2 is on the way! Lucky Girl. I took the news alot better than expected. I think because there is an end in sight. Having decided on adoption has been a big relief. I know that my baby will be here eventually- one way or another. Walshy- I would love to see you go up to complete stranger and give them a rub down! Although I am sure a rubber room will be soon to follow. Have to say- have tried that with friends and so far - nadda.

Walshy- I only have 2 frozens. However, they are super charged, unseen before strength embies coated in ultimate extreme sticky dust and ready to kick a little uterine booty. They will come out of the deep freeze with ease and sporting speedos. No worries. Arnie and Buffy- a new generation of snowbunnies!

Jen- AF is about a week off, then the countdown begins. Dum, dum, dum..... the drama, the suspense, the stress. Although the clinic did give me a warning about AF not showing when she is supposed to- fickle little b*tch.

Lola- Am still threatening to put you self contained protective bubble, stop the insanity! You inners are mounting a protest. I think it is time to tell them who's the boss- not Tony Danza, it's you Lola! You girl! Hoo-RAH. Buffy is on the medal stand, gold in hand and the Bif national anthem and flag being raised- represented on the flag is the logo of a pee stick and gynie table with stirrups...... I believe Demetrio has just winked at me
Although I had to tell him that my true love is Matthew McConaughey.

Toodles you Noodles
Steph

[lolajones]

Wink???? Get over yo bad self sweet cheeks, it was a caffeine-induced tick

[Inhale, Exhale]

Top of the mornin girls who live life sniffin, shootin and stirrupping! Ride em Cowgirls! Yee-hah!

Lola- Tick, I think not. It was shortly followed by an *ss grab- heck, why wouldn't he lust after me. I am very bendy. He, he. Just playin with ya. He is very devoted to his Lola Love Bug- I think protective bubble reminds him of little raft and better days of sunscreen rub downs.

Well Bikinis! The kitty claws came out this morning aimed at DH's heart! I think AF's witchy cousin PMS has arrived. Which means that AF is on her way- afterall, where PMS goes AF is sure to follow! Am excited at AF's arrival to get the FET underway. However, also saddened. DH and I decided to give this cycle on last natural hoorah. One for the gipper and all that. They say after pregnancy it sometimes is easier and the first 6 months after lap for endo is best timing. So, I figured why not. It was perfection timing! The holidays made it easy to pants off when needed. But, alas- like every other time, nadda. Oh well, I feel better knowing that when FET is over we have tried it all. No regrets for lack of trying. So, now onto the FET!! Putting all emotional power and full on focus on that- superman rays coming out of eyeballs at present- my concentration skills are incredible!

So girls- how's it hanging with the rest of the crew? Entertain me lightning bugs. Will be slow day at the waterin hole known as work.

A bit devilish today,
Steph

[Jen1d]

Thanks girls for your encouragement. Life is a downer this month. Ignore me, its just the Jan blues.

Anyway have been waiting for the dreaded AF to appear. Have never been late in my life and now finally after a late 5 days it is here. Was a bit annoyed it is late as i will now have to wait until probably the beginning of March to start the medi, but hey whats 5 more days when our life is on hold already eh.

Just wanted to say thanks for listening and i'm thinking of you all. Will catch up with you all soon when i can pull myself out of this mood.

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Little message for chicky babe Jen!! Cheer up Girl Scout.

Think of AF as a beginning to the cycle that will bring you a BFP!! and big fat smiley. What a great site it will be when our names our posted with cheeries instead of buh-hoos.

Very important advice incoming- if it is pouring rain and windy.... an umbrella probably won't help. Loves.

Steph

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Bunnies and Bubbles!

Was very excited to check in this morning to catch up on the latest..... but as you can see I am the last poster, therefore, there is no latest! No stories, no worries, no "my Dh is an idot" rants... I got nothing! So, either your lives are so exciting at the moment you have no time to type OR your lives are so utterly boring that you have nothing at all to say. I have experienced both and I prefer the boring humdrums....But, because I am putting off beginning my work I am posting anyhow.

I think Special Agent Lola must be away on super secret world saving mission. Hey Love- if you see Sark give him a kiss for me. I always thought he should be kissed and often- it must be the bad boy factor. Yummy.

So, have you chiquita bananas ever gotten those friend surveys on e-mail? Well, it's a bunch of question you pass around and answer to get to know the inner most desirables of your chums.... So, I will start and add new questions everyday. Participate if you like, no pressures. (Can you tall it is a slow work week for me?)

1. Do you wish on stars? I wish on anything that doesn't move.
2. What is your favorite drink? non-alcoholic I like Diet Pepsi with Lime, alcoholic- toss up between Riesling and mango margaritas.
3. Favorite way to spend spare time? Well, if I have spare time I am usually found in the yoga studio or on my couch reading a good smutty novel.
4. What can be found in the trunk of your car? At the moment my DH has a poker table in there. But usually a yoga mat, my bag with yoga music for when I teach and hiking poles. Also miscellaneous stuff that should be taken out, but isn't.- magazines and the like.
5. How do you vent anger? Usually I yell at DH- poor DH. or call a friend or work it off at the gym or eat something really yummy- I have several avenues!

see, very easy.

See yas.
Steph

[lolajones]

Special agent Lola was away on a weep mission. I have been feeling great then suddenly yesterday, wham, out of the blue, much sobbing and "I am a failure"ing n "you'd be better off without me"ing. Both of which are PATENTLY NOT TRUE and so therefore I can only conclude that YES! I have been inoculated with some sort of emotional dump serum by evil wrongdoers planning to take over the world. Why they are starting with me and how I fit into their mendacious plan I have yet to find out BUT I will keep you all posted.
So how is everyone? Better than the teary carcrash I am I trust. Y'know I said my body was p*ssing me off and essentially sabotaging me? Well, as if to prove its STUPID point today I awoke with 2 swollen eyes and rings of tiny haemorrhages over my eye lids. Like a super hero who'd forgotten to take off his mask. What is happening? More serum from the dark side? Do I have an allergy to my own tears now??? Man alive. Everyone at work was all "have you been crying"? No! I have gammy eyes you morons!!!
Anyyyyhoooooo
Steph clearly working her gorgeous fingers to the bone lets do your quiz
1. Do you wish on stars? I wish for stars, like Benicio Del Toro, does that count?
2. What is your favorite drink? vodka lime n tonic
3. Favorite way to spend spare time? with my folks n friends in Wales, or going to a park with dh, good book n a frisbee
4. What can be found in the trunk of your car? everything I won't let dh bring into the flat - computer parts, random clothes, a frisbee and a cake, strangely
5. How do you vent anger? husband baiting, swearing at pedestrians who clearly have no clue about pavement etiquette.

Positive vibes to all the surviving octobubs!
I'm off for some highly vinegared fish n chips YUM!

Love, Lola
xxxxx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hello my lovely little loonies!

Lola- you seem to be the only one hanging out lately so I will have a chat with you. I have threatened the bubble long enough- it is time. Climb on in. I draw the line at weird eye mishaps. Now, the rules of the bubble.... , no smoking, pet dander,germs, bacterias, pollins, sickly looking people or anything that could possibly contain a serum of evil doing. Things that are allowed in the bubble- computer, alcohol, spyware, Demetrios with little rafts, Buffy DVD's and conjugal visits. There will be a tube piping fresh oxygen into the bubble and a sprinkling system that emits babydust at 10 minute intervals. No heavy lifting. No stupid people pointing out the obvious.
I will let you know when it is safe for you to exit the protective bubble.
I hope you are feeling better today lovey. Don't cry for me Argentina! When you are teary Demetrio gets very sad and turns to cheesy fries for comfort.
The bad days tend to sneak in though- little b*stards.

Well margaritas! As for me- the witchy woman AF showed her stinkin, ugly face today. Moment of sadness and anger as was still holding hope that a miracle natural conception would occur, as timing of lovin was perfection. However, it seems I would have better chance of being the next virgin mother to ride about on donkey in search of manger and bright star. So sistas, had tearies and flash of anger and why does this have to happen to me's boo-hoos. Then I surrendered to the God's of - this is going to get me know wheres- and let it go, peeking forward at positives sunshines. It is day one for me of FET cycle! Baseline ultrasound will be tommorrow. Transfer around day 18. I hope Buffy and Arnie have had good training at frozen tundra bootcamp as I am soon comin to get there cute little snowbunny booties. I am picturing them in full fight positions- Charlies Angels style.
This is it for me. Last cycle of stress, craze and rollercoaster sickness.

How are the girls today?

Feeling Om today.
Steph

[little R]

Hey Octobuddies!

Sorry have been offline.......it seems the Internet connection bill was not properly processed
Anyway, back on now and ready to share....

It seems that the faithful Steph and Lola are regularly showing up for their daily chats....

Are the rest of you guys all right?

Sorry wasn't part of the question/answer round...so here goes:

1. Do you wish on stars?
I wish on anything and everything at this point as long there is a baby at the end of it all! Pathetic I know
2. What is your favorite drink?
I don't drink as such...so I would have to say, Schweppes Bitter Lemon, although the downside of that beverage is that it tends to go flat if not drunk rapidly........a bit like me?????
3. Favorite way to spend spare time?
Reading in bed with DH when he is trying hard to concentrate on a book and I do everything in my power to distract him ...this often leads to interesting conversations ; chatting with friends or family over a cup of tea...I can't chose, too many different ways of spending spare time with family and friends!
4. What can be found in the trunk of your car?
Hmm.... a cooler for all the groceries so that they don't decay in the fiery heat! Nothing of interest really...aside from a large amount of brown IKEA bags
5. How do you vent anger?
Usually turn on some loud music and dance around the flat until I have exhausted myself (if this is possible), write mean e-mails that I never send , or better yet, get in the car, drive aimlessly and insult unaware drivers

Here's a question for you....to be answered honestly if possible....

6. Do you actually see yourself pregnant at some point in your life?

Sorry about the question.....I am going through a bad patch..... it seems as if everyone is preggers except me....
Can't even read a trashy tabloid without being bombarded with the likes of Gwyneth Paltrow and Angelina Jolie's happiness featured in large captions.
ARGH! "You can run but you can't hide" seems to be the name of the game.....

I think this city that must foster pregnancy...after all it's a desert... perhaps that reproduction is the only thing on the menu.

Sorry but needed to vent my frustration..... my pregnant cousin has still not given birth and she is "bored" with the situation....hmmm, no comment. Really none

I'm a little lost at the moment....going to do the housework to change my mood...hopefully my next post will have more PMA in it

Much love and kisses,

Little R

[little R]

Go, Steph, go......go Arnie & Buffy, to warmer climates and greener pastures you are being sent!

How exciting

Congrats on beginning your FET, my fabulous friend.

I am sending you my last lot of PMA (last drops being squeezed out of me ).... it's all gone now...

Take care of yourself,

Little R

[little R]

I guess it is my turn to say...."Hello, anyone out there?"

Earth to Octobuddies, do you read me?

Just wanted to touch base and see how you were doing Steph.
I am really excited for you..... can you give me an exact date for the ET?

Lots of hugs to you all,

Little R

[little R]

Hey there Octobuddies..... helllloooooooo?

I'll be away from my computer for a couple of days.
Perhaps when I return, someone will be around!

Steph: hope all is going well with you...my fingers are crossed!

Lola: still a smile on your face I trust?
I have just finished reading an amusing novel which is spot on---- Ben Elton's Inconceivable. Have you ever read it? I think you have a smashing sense of humour and therefore may enjoy it.

Much love,

Little R