BigJ, So sorry you are feeling so yuky. It must be wierd to feel so bad and so good all at the same time! WILD! Yes, I will keep you company, even though I feel a little awkward over here.
My sweetie asked me yesterday how I'm feeling about everything and we had a long talk about how I am keeping a tight grip on my excitement. He has been thinking that I was feeling dread and I corrected him. I've been reserved about the possible reality of being pregnant in a few weeks because I'm afraid of disappointment if we fail. Come to find out, that hadn't even really occurred to him - failure.
He got teary eyed when I explained about some of the heart-wrenching disappointments some of my IVF friends have endured this past year. We talked at length about how any of those fates could await us and how would we deal with it. It was a good heart-to-heart.
I think his eyes are a little more open now. Might not soften the blow much, but it can't hurt for him to be better aware of all the possibilities.
Another reality that hit him was that if we get lucky and get pregnant this first round, I will be 45 when the baby is born - 45!!!!

It's like he still thinks of me as 39 (the age I was when we met).
Okay, enough from me. I'm not even pregnant and I'm rambling on and on over here. Is it really just down to you and me, BigJ, on this board?