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lara312 · Post by **lara312** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 5:39 am

Jen no words can help right now but i'm so sorry this ivf is so unfair we are here for you when you need us {{huge hugs}} for you and dh take care
lots of love Rachel x x

squeezan · Post by **squeezan** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 6:53 am

Hi Pequele

I've been wondering how you are doing. Good to see you're on the go at last.
Love your ticker
Su

CarolynB · Post by **CarolynB** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 7:47 am

Dear Jen

My IM buddy. I cannot stop thing of you. This is way too hard & way too unfair.

As the girls have said, we are heartbroken for you & your dh.

Nothing that I can say or write to you now feels adequate. No more sparkles.........

You know where I am. Just wish I was close so I could nip round and give you a huge hug and cry with you.

Try to be strong. Try to focus on the fact that you do have some frosties. But I know right now thinking about the future will be so very hard after all you have been through.

Small steps. The pain will ease a little as each day passes. We are here for you every step of the way. You know that babe.

Much love
Carolyn
xxxxxx

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 10:29 am

After i took the test yesterday i couldnt cry, just sat there saying told you it wouldnt work, why did we think it would. Then i got to my bed and once i lay there i couldnt stop. The pain of seeing dh so sad and knowing i am the cause of it, just breaks my heart as i feel so guilty

Then this morning i couldnt stop again but i have decided i am bloody lucky to have frosties waiting on their mum and dad to collect them and i have to be strong. Dont get me wrong, i feel so sad, emotional drained and really negative about any other cycle because if grade 10's dont work then how can i think any other cycle will but i have another 2 chances and feel so fortunate about that, I have to try.

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR HELP AND SUPPORT, DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT YOU GIRLS TO CHAT TO.

Will write to you all soon once i get some strength from somewhere.

Love Jen x

Welshgirl38 · Post by **Welshgirl38** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 10:48 am

Welshgirl38 · Post by **Welshgirl38** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 10:52 am

beachbaby · Post by **beachbaby** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 11:01 am

Hi Ladies,

Jen1d, As already said, i am so sorry, glad your getting back on the wagon and getting mentally prepared for another go, hugs to you and DH. please don't blame yourself, it's not your fault and i'm sure your DH would never blame you. We were lead to beleive ours was a male factor problem, and i have never once thought about it being his fault, we are in this together end of. As ot happens i now have a contributing problem. Take care.

Su, congratulations on the IUI, from what you've said you should be well on the way now to that bfp. Good luck.

pequele, happy peeing on a stick, hope all goes to plan this month. Good luck.

Nicky, well done on the weight loss, it's going in the right direction.

Rachael, hope your not feeling too ill, take it easy.

hugs and baby dust to everyone i've missed.

well as for me AF has arrived, bang on time. So i will ring the clinic Monday to book my day 21 appointment, so this should be friday 28th September, when i will get my downreg shot for FET. Lining check should be Oct 12th, and transfer week commencing 15th Oct. woo hoo, lets pray that the aspirin will let the embies stick, i don't know how i'll deal with another bio-chemical, or having to go through another fresh cycle.

well back to work, take care ladies.
jayne

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 11:23 am

Becky - Love your big hug picture thanks for that, wish i could have it.

Jayne - Its interesting to hear how you feel about dh not being able to have kids. I feel so guilty but dh has never blamed me once so i have no reason to feel this way but cant help it. Am going to try and tackle this one in counselling but i just get to upset when i think of it.

Love Jen x

beachbaby · Post by **beachbaby** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 12:27 pm

Jen1, I know what you mean, just because he is there for you never stops you feeling guilty, its only natural. i used to laugh and joke about the fact we maybe would struggle to have kids as DH parents took 5 years to conceive him and his brother never came along for another 14 years. if i'd known maybe we would have started trying sooner. hinsight is a wonderful thing.
hugs
jayne

pequele · Post by **pequele** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 1:45 pm

Finally starting to catch up on things. So sorry Jen for your story! But glad to see u have your frosties to think about! You're in my thoughts!

squeezan · Post by **squeezan** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 5:18 pm

JS200632...
July 3rd - Beta 780...
July 9th - Beta 6915...
July 20th - Scan - Saw 1 perfect heartbeat...
Latest Scan – 3 perfect Heartbeats!! Fantastic news!!
Aug - Very sadley lost 1 beanie - so sorry JS

Rachel/Lara312...
Natural BFP ... Woooo Hooooo!
How fantastic is THAT!!!
Midwife Appt – Friday 24th Aug
First Scan ...13th Sept

Shantala...
23rd Aug ....BFP Wooooooo Hoooooooo
Beta ....343!!
First Scan ...6th Sept.... 1 perfect heartbeat
Second Scan .... 20th Sept

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Jen1d........... Sadly BFN - we are all here for you Jen - hugz xxxx

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Gill12 ... .......................

3 Perfect embies snuggling in

Squeezan ... .................

Testing 21st Sept

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Lady's having Treatment...

JB(Jen)...25th Aug BC pills
BabyBlue (Kim)...BC pills - Sept 5th; Start down regging - Sept. 16th

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Lady's Awaiting Treatment...

Nimble/Jackie…. Holiday to Mauritius…. Sept
Welshgirl38/Becky... On NHS waiting list for IVF
Andreak60... On NHS waiting list for IUI
Karia …Aug AF
JackieG...Oct….Start Cycle
ShazB...Sept AF
BeachBaby …Start down regging in approx 6 wks
Charlie78... August AF
Sassynlv...Aug: Cancelled ...Sept AF
CarolynB...19th Sept … Appt in Barcelona
Pequele...I.U.I - Oct
6Yrs (mom20)…Jan 08
AuntyPebbles... Taking time out to GET BETTER
Angel505... ?
Nickyz ... On waiting list
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Where are you ladies…....

Melissa112... June Start Clomid
Green... July
Curlydoo...10th May..AF Due?
Geckogirl... Nov/Jan - Donor egg

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In our thoughts and prayers

Nimble/Jackie... Very sadly lost her beautiful beanie

thinking of you xx
CarolynB... Very sadly AF has arrived, BFN

So very sorry
JS... Very sadly lost 1 Beanie

So very sorry
Jen1d........... Sadly BFN - we are all here for you Jen - hugz xxxx

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For Aunty

Last but by no means least, i thought we should have a section for our dear friend Aunty ..... Debz we are all thinking about you and praying hard for you ...

You know you can beat this .... I'm always here for you hun, take care Xxxx

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squeezan · Post by **squeezan** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 5:25 pm

Becky
I hope you don't mind me being cheeky and updating myself on the list. I was intrigued to see if I could work out how. I've figured out tickers, sparklies and this all in a couple of days - quite impressed with myself. Anything to keep my mind busy

Su

gill12 · Post by **gill12** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 7:41 pm

Hi

Right, where the hell do I start!!!!, so much has been going on this last week or so.

Shantala- Fantastic news about your scan. Seeing the heartbeat must have been such a wonderful experience . Take it easy now so you can get back to full health.

Rachel- Hope the morning sickness is not too bad and sorry that you are feeling so tired. I bet you are so excited about your scan on thursday!

Su- Glad the iui went well and that you are feeling so positive about it all. Welcome to the 2ww! Well done on your ticker too.

Nickyz- Well done on the weight loss! I wish I could lose some but Im hopeless

Pequele- Glad af came and that you can have your iui this month.Im sure you must be so excited!

Jayne- Great news about af arriving and starting your tmt. 15th Oct will be here before you know it.

Becky- You have done an absolutly fantastic job with your weight loss, you should be proud of yourself! Everybody needs a break so dont be too hard on yourself hun x

Jen- Hope you are bearing up, you know Im here for you babe x

Carolyn- Hope you are ok and that you had a good time last night.

JenB- Hope you are having a great weekend and that the sun is shinning for you.

Hi to all those I have missed there is just so much going on on this thread at the moment, its difficult to catch up!
Take care everyone
Lots of love
Gill xxx

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Sun Sep 09, 2007 9:57 am

Hi

We went out to see our friends last night after dreading it for hours but i'm glad we went, it was a change and felt good not to be sitting drowning in my own misery

On the drive there, dh then announced that he wants to try with the frosties, then again if it doesnt work. I was amazed as he always said after one trip to Barcelona that would be it but he said 'whats money'. He thinks we are only here on earth once and only get one go at life so we will find another £7000 from somewhere and try again if the frosties dont work

-----------we'll see

I am going to call the hospital where i had my first 4 cycles tomorrow and ask about the hysteroscopy and also my Dr. I am just presuming this is what i need done, IM might suggest another test?? More waiting i suppose

I do think that it is probably better getting it done in IM, as they are the ones doing the treatment now and it better sticking with the same clinic so they can investigate everything. Its so frustrating, if i knew there was something stopping the embies implanting, then we could move on but all these cycle and never getting pregnant---i now think it wont ever work and am more negative than ever.

The only thing that is keeping me going is thinking of our embies waiting on us in Barcelona. Strange how i feel so attached to them and just want them home.

As Lola my OctoBud just said to me 'Octos never give up, we only pause'----like that.

I am due back to work tomorrow and dreading it, just dont feel ready but cant sit at home and be miserable. Once i'm there, it will be fine. Just hate everyone feeling so sorry for me.

Carolyn - Dont cry for me babe, you will have to go through buckets before i get a bfp and you need all your strength for your trip.
So glad you are feeling positive about all the tests being done. Dont spent to much money today

Speak later and please dont stop the sparkles, they cheer us all up.

Gill - Hope you had a nice outing yesterday and the pampering is still continuing from dh today

JenB - Thanks for keeping me going. The days are getting closer to patches and ET

Aunty - Still thinking of you lots, hope you keepng strong.

Shantala, Rachel, Su, Nicky, Pequele, Jayne, Becky etc thinking of you all and thanks for your support you have been fab.

Love to you all

OH I FEEL SO SAD

Love Jen x
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AuntyPebbles · Post by **AuntyPebbles** » Sun Sep 09, 2007 10:24 am

Jen im so sorry i know how your feeling right now....i love your hubby's attitude mine is convinced now that what is going on wit me is because of ivf

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Can i ask you a question?...have you always done fresh cycles or have any of yours been FET? i hear your frustration with all this and will be keeping you in my prayers...

This will happen for you...love Aunty

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