MARCH-CYCLE BUDDIES

[Mrs B]

HEY Sonya how you doing honey?

[kia1973]

Rae – what lovely pic’s. The baby bump is so cute, and the scan well it brought tears to my eyes. I can’t wait to have our scan.

Quita – hi honey, your bed socks are nearly finished, how you feeling??? Hope all is well, have you had a scan yet??

Mrs B – wow they are high numbers you have, I don’t know if it’s a good or bad thing not knowing what my numbers are, knowing I’m sure would give me something else to worry about!!! Hope your feeling well.

Mama – I don’t know what to say about your numbers as I don’t know to much about it, seeing as my clinic never do them I have not really looked into it. I’m sure the ladies around her have given you sound advice. I really hope your not stressing too much; you’re in my thoughts honey.

Anie- hope you get that BFP today babe. Thinking of you. Xx

Sonya – glad your doing ok honey, has it sunk in with you yet??? We are still walking around in a dreamland here, DH just cant stop smiling when we talk about the baby, oh bless him. I wont rest till I have seen that scan, and then I don’t think I will rest!!!!! It’s all worry worry, will it ever stop? How did you bloods go today??

Marcia – how you doing on the 2ww, good news about the faint pos, can’t wait to hear of your official BFP.

Stephanie – how you holing up sweetie? Hope your appointment goes well for you.

Fiji – PMA and lots of it honey, it only takes one!!!! Good luck.


Nimble/ Nerms – hope your doing ok your both in my thoughts xxx

[MamaCardenas]

Rae you are great!!!! I feel like you just took a huge weight off my sholders, Im sitting here thinking what I could do for the next 4 hours until I get my results from the clinic to make this time go by fast and after reading your post I think I can actually fall asleep considering that I wasn’t able to last night!!!! Thank you so much for taking the time and looking into all this you’re a great person!!! Now in response to you I always thought my clinic was so wonderful and they are in certain aspects but your totally right after the phone call last night I thought who asks “ do you feel pregnant” what kind of question is that when last week I was telling them I didn’t feel anything and they said “ oh that’s totally normal its too early for you to have pregnancy symptoms really anyway” then last night she also says have you been urinating frequently?? Well yah but Ive also been drinking a ton of water??? Well last night I only got up once to use the restroom so that also scared the shit outta me, but that can’t mean anything for sure right?? Well the lady I talked to last night I don’t really care for her anyway , there is another nurse who is great and really positive so this morning I decided I would go in and talk to her when I did the lab work, well right when I walk in she comes around the corner and see’s me and just hugs me and say’s “ Im so sorry” Im like what is this??? What do u mean your acting like something has already happened?? And My after my first beta of 150 my clinic didn’t even want to test me again it was me that wanted to test just for my own piece of mind so Im confused as to why they acted like as long as I was over 150 to begin with things should be fine, and now that my numbers haven’t shot up there’s a problem and they are so sorry?? I don’t get it!?? So yes I agree with you right now and think they are stupid!!!! But basically what they told me today was that my first test was on Thursday 4/12 and that was 195 and my second one was on Monday 4/16 that was 481 but I guess between Thursday and Monday it should have gone up more , I said I thought it was supposed to double or at least go up every 2 days and she said yah well you also had an extra day and your kinda just at a stand still right now?? Then I go into the lab and the lab girls are like “your back again, how come they keep testing you you have 4 something right? I said yah 481 and I said they are saying I had one extra day cause my test was Thursday and they go oh oh I see, Im like what do you see I don’t get it, as far as I thought the numbers aren’t going down so that’s good right?? They are going up ?? im lost as to what is SO bad ??? SO again I left in tears , ever since last nights call ive been crying and feel so stressed and then stressing more because I know stress isn’t good for the baby, and then I think wow im really emotional aren’t pregnant women emotional?? =) I still have hope I just don’t think its possible that something bad could happen after all this time things have been so perfect for us we have had nothing but good news through this whole thing and we were told we had text book perfect embryos so where could something have gone wrong?? I have been the most positive person ever I started thinking I was pregnant the day of the transfer, but when my clinic is being negative I don’t know how else to think??? THANK GOD FOR THIS CHAT BOARD!!!!!As far as symptoms I had one morning of sickness that didn’t last very long and wasn’t very strong so I don’t think anything has really changed or gone away like you said that’s not the case for me, and also like you said a lot of pregnant women don’t even get symptoms this early I read about 6 to 8 weeks so it was strange that I even got the sickness at 4 weeks, could that be bad?? SO basically you feel that as long as the numbers are going up even if they are going slow there isn’t anything huge to worry about?? And of course as long as they are not going down? I had to work this past weekend and I was really busy and I run around a lot so last night im thinking of everything of done and what I could have done wrong to make this pregnancy fail and I just don’t understand it all That’s fine if my clinic is just being thorough in doing a 3rd beta but it’s the way they have been so negative and the stupid questions like do you feel pregnant that are really bothering me!!! SO do you think I should ask to speak with the Dr or the embryologist? I havnt seen my OB yet but after talking with you I wish I had just to get another opinion on in outside of the IVF office, Thank you again so much knowing that you are 15wks and you went through the same thing gives me more hope then you can imagine!!!! By the way nice ultrasound picture and belly pic, you are so tiny though !!! I have a friend who is small and also 15 weeks and you look about the same so congrats to you!!! DO you have a myspace?? I also just called my DH and read your post and he was like wow what a relif so now its just a matter of hoping my numbers go up today or at least not go down!!!!

Sonya – thank you as well, I agree as long as numbers are going up and not down things should be fine even if they aren’t jumping up, that’s what they told me at first too and now for some reason they are making me think I need to worry, so thanks!

Mrs B- thanks for the support as well you all have helped me get this negativity out of my system so me and baby can relax !!!! I hope!!

Kia- Thank you as well, your clinic doesnt test beta numbers?? well consider yourself lucky like you said it would give you something else to stress about that we dont need during this time!!!!

[MamaCardenas]

Sorry for such a long message

Personal Question
How are your shot areas?? is everyone doing progestrone on their hips?? well the whole time ive been getting bumps and that seems normal but now i actually am getting bumps on the outside of my skin almost like a rash? anyone have this?? it's been itching me alot and just really hurting does this seem normal? last night when DH was giving the shot he said it felt like the needle was comming out like my butt was pushing it out, and alot of the progestrone oil leaked ???

[Mrs B]

MAMA when do you get your results? Im so sorry you are going through this im sure everything is alright your numbers are going up i really can't belive your clinic are being like this maybe you should talk to your RE. Please try not to stress i know its hard im am thinking of you darling.

[MamaCardenas]

well the results are in, Today My HCG is 921!! Which I am so excited about, I think it's great right?? However the nurse that called was still really negative she said Im hardly doubling, and it's just not enough, she doesnt want to give me false hope to think everything is fine with the pregnancy??? I told her I told get it you want me to double and Im doubling , the numbers are going up maybe not crazy fast but they arent going down thats what matters right?? and she said yes but again they arent going up enough, they are just barely making it, SO now once again Im confused, Im keeping a PMA because from everything Ive read on here and online in general I think Im fine but its really hard to be positive when the clinic is being so negative!!! SO what do you girls think 921??

[Anie2007]

Well it's BFN for us, I just coudn't believed it, my RE told us everything was perfect my lining was perfect, and we transfered 2 excellent blast, what the hell is the problem I don't know. This really sucks.. I thought I'm pg because I have lots of symptoms but we can't really trust our body because of all of this meds we took. At least we have 4 frozen embryos. I have Dr appoinments on May 2, we gonna discuss the procedure for our FET. Can anyone share to me thier FET success?

Thank you all ladies for all the support.

[MamaCardenas]

Annie- So sorry to hear about your BFN , In your case I dont know what could have gone wrong everything sounded great. This is such a rollercoaster ride and it's horrible to go through this, I hope you and DH can comfort each other and get through this together, sounds like you have as much of o PMA as possible right now looking foward to the next cycle

[sokru8]

Mama: I think your numbers are great! They are doubling and everything that I have been told is that is what you want. I know that my clinic told my to be cautiously optimistic. You are still early in your pg and they want to be up front with you.
Take Care try not to read into the numbers too much! What a pain huh!

XOXO

Sonya

[sokru8]

Anie: I posted on your other site. I am so sorry sweetie. My heart goes out to you and your dh.....

Kia: I am the same way I cant rest until I see the scan!! I have another blood test tomorrow! The days pass soo slowly dont they!!!

Mrs B. I am doing good! I finally had a day without being sick! Woo hoo. I am soo tired though! Hey you are exactly 3 weeks a head of me!! Cool huh! How are you babe?


Well I did it! I quit my job yesterday! I was working for the owner of the real estate firm that I am with and I decided to go out on my own full time! My boss unfortuntley did not take it so well and totally freaked out! I gave her 2 weeks notice but she wanted me to be done today! She is a B**CH which is one of the reasons I wanted to get away from her! But now I get to work from home and try to take care of these lil ones!!! I have my 3rd beta tomorrow! Fingers Crossed!

XOXO
Sonya

[rae76]

Anie, I'm so sorry about your BFN

Natalie, I'm glad if anything I was able to tell you helped, even a little bit. That's what these forums are for, right Now hearing that you had FOUR days in between your tests I can see why they wanted your numbers to go up a little faster - the rise is borderline compared to the known stats, but of course no one can say for sure where the limit goes. Your new result sounds very good, though - you're now definitely within the normal limits for HCG rise - so I'm having a very hard time understanding why your clinic is so unhappy with this... The first rise was a bit low, yes, but it seems to be picking up now - I don't know what they're expecting! maybe they just want it to shoot through the roof... When I had my "extra" beta the HCG had gone up even slower than the first time - and they said it was fine, they just wanted to check that the first slow rise wasn't because it had first gone up and then already started coming down - and the continued rise, albeit just 67% in two days, showed that it was not going down or rising super-slowly (e.g. going from 420 to 500 would indicate an almost certain problem). And they explained (because I had of course hoped for the numbers to shoot through the roof the second time...) that it's not likely - I'm going at my pace and that's fine - as long as there is that doubling every three days. Which turned out to be so true.

I'm glad you've been happy with your clinic so far, but now they are not being professional at all - all those I'm sorrys and insisting that you double and then when you finally do saying it's not enough... makes me so angry for you, you don't deserve that kind of uncertainty and confusion!! Now I'm obviously not a doctor, so I can only tell you what I've found out from reliable (medical) sources and what both my doctors told me when I was going through a similar thing. I hope it helps and gives you hope, but I strongly recommend that you now demand to talk to your doctor and make him/her really explain to you what they're expecting, what is happening, what are the chances etc. Don't let him/her off the hook before you feel absolutely certain that all your questions have been answered in a satisfactory manner. At the same time I would recommend giving, nicely and politely of course, feedback on the strange practices of their staff and nurses - how they give people news, how they explain that news, how they SHOULD NOT come and commiserate with you when you don't even know what's going on yourself. I know it's not always easy to give negative feedback but this is important - they should not do this to you or anyone else ever, and they're professionals and have to be able to receive feedback on their work. Plus, if you're like most others here, you're probably paying an arm and a leg for this service - service that you're not getting now. Demand your rights because no one else will do it for you!!!

I truly hope this will turn out alright for you. Like I said, to me your last numbers sound fine, but your doctor will be able to tell you more. Don't talk to the nurses anymore, they are clearly just making it worse. There are obviously no guarantees of a successful pregnancy (there aren't any even if your HCG is going up "perfectly") but I'm very hopeful for you. Hang in there, I know it's extremely tough.

A big hug!!! Oh, and don't stress about being stressed - I did too for a little while but finlly it got too overwhelming. A little stress won't kill the baby but stressing about it more will just make you feel worse. I'm not going to say think positive because that's annoying, but try to do something really pleasant every day, even if you don't really feel like it. It will, eventually, allow your mind and body rest a bit. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!!!

Sorry, I don't have a myspace.

Sha, thanks - and can't wait for your scan news! Oh, what a beautiful thing it is, seeing the little thing for the first time....

[MarciaL-OurHope4Baby]

Hi girls

Oh Anie, I'm so gutted . I just had to see how things went today, and I was expecting you to say otherwise.

I don't know what to say really . I really wish I could give you a real hug .

[MarciaL-OurHope4Baby]

I feel weird about posting this now, but I wanted to show you what I posted on my charting site, as I really appreciate your help as well girls.

We've waited 8 years & 10 months for this...but we've just got an unafficial :BFP:.

I'd been testing out my trigger shot and I had a neg and then a light pos on hubby's birthday, which was 2 days ago. I'm at the end of my LP normally 13 days, and I'm 15 days past my trigger shot, and 12dpER. We transfered a grade 2, 5 celled Embryo and a grade 2+ 7 celled embryo with our 1st IVF. Grade 1 and 2 are the best at our fertility hospital, and the official test day is Monday 23rd.

We're over the moon and then some right now, and I can't believe we've had lighter and lighter tests, then a Neg and then a light test that's gotten darker.

The first test was an internet cheapy, and then the test looked darker than Monday's I tested with this one not long ago, and it's clear as anything, a much darker line than before. The trigger has been out of me since Sunday so here's the pic

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Who knows what the beta's gonna be like, but I'd like to thanks every woman that's every left me a supportive message over the last 6 years of being on FF. My other names used to be Freya1 or OurHope4Freya incase you recognise those names instead.

You've all been a great inspiration of courage and strength when I've needed it, and it's been a joy helping so many of you when you've had failures and I helped you through it, (you girls know who you are), and to see you having families and now extending those families has always been a joy for me, and never a sorrow. I'm sure I'll still need your shoulders to lean on, as you know me, I don't take my own advice to well lol, but after a blighted Ovum, 3 early m/c's and an Ectopic, going through clomid, injectables, a cancelled IUI last year, we've got a Pos from our IVF. And I really think this a fantastic start to a good thing, and pray it'll carry on that way.

So once again thank you all for your help and support to all the new ladies I've recently met also, you're all beautifil, and I thought you'd like to share in our news :kissfriend: :kissfriend: :kissfriend: .

Carry on the fight ladies.

[fijibabie]

Hi girls

Ohh - Anie sorry about BFN - best wishes coming your way.

I called the Embryologist this morning to see how our embies went overnight. She tells me that two of the three are definites and the other one is a probably. Feel a bit better about that now.
Tomorrow she will call be again to let me know how they are going. Transfer is Saturday - so excited and nervous!
Off to the dentist tomorrow to check everything up - just in case we get a BFP.
Talk later.

[sokru8]

THIS IS OUR GROUP



AMANDA: Missouri, US (age26)
ANIE: (33yrs)
ANNA: Ohio, US (age33)
BRIDGET JONES: Surrey, UK (age45)
CARBEV aka Caroline: Singapore
CHVONNE: Essex, UK
COCO: Winter wonderland, US (age37)
COOKHOLMES: California, US (25)
HOLLY: The Netherlands. – now Miss Piggy
FIJIBABIE: South Island NZ
IDONVITO aka Lisa: New York, US
JENN: Toronto (age28)
JILL (jstandlund): Minnesota, US (29)
KANDICE: (26)
KAREN (moonk): Connecticut, US (28.)
KARIA:
KARINA: Northern Ireland
KARINA1: Aberdeen, Scotland
KARMA_K: San Francisco Bay (age35)
KAT: Tallinn,Estonia (age 30)
KIA aka SHA: Portsmouth UK (age33)
MAMACARDENS (Natalie) California (age 22)
MANDEEQ: London, UK
MARCIA: Coventry, UK (age33)
MELLY: UK (Age 33)
MRS B: Reading, UK (age25)
NELLYA:
NERMS: Middlesex, UK (age32)
NIMBLE (Jackie): Surrey, UK (age38.)
NICKI: Suffolk, UK (age31)
PEP23 (Steph): Indianapolis, US (age28.)
QUITA
RAE: Dallas, US (age30)
REACH AEJ: Charlotte, NC (Age 35)
RILES:
SHANTALA: Berkshire, UK (age21)
SMATTISON: Texas
SOKRU (Sonya): N.Carolina, US (33)
VICKY: Florida, US (age29)
Yarnista: Connecticut (32)



CONGRATULATIONS!!!! BFP!!!




Mrs B
?dpt?dt = 168
23 Mar beta = 458
10 Apr – 1st scan

Steph
9dp3dt = 98
11dp3dt = 263
1st scan 12th

Chvonne
1st Scan 18th April

Cookholmes
1st Beta 198
2nd Beta: 528!!!! Possible Multiples!!

Quita
1st scan 26th April

Amanda
1st Scan April?

Mama Cardenas
1st Beta= 195 1st Scan April?

Miss Piggy
16DPT= 377 1st Scan April?

sokru8
16DPT= 460 1st Scan 2 May

Kia 1973
1st Scan ?May

RAE Natural BFP due 8th Oct 07
12 week milestone 29Mar
Carbev Natural BFP due Nov 07


On the 2WW



Marcia : 2 little ones snuggling in – testing 23th April





DOWN REGGING, SCANS,INJECTIONS

Karia – waiting for AF





Karma K Starting Injections!



STIMMING & FOLLICLE COUNT







EXPECTED EGG COLLECTION






Embryo Transfer




21Apr – Fijibabie
24Apr – Vicky (FET) (est.)


FET



End Apr—Vicky --FET


Expected Test Dates



Marcia—23 April



We are thinking of you….And we are here for you.
Bridget Jones we are thinking of you
Katt we are thinking of you
Shantala we are thinking of you
Anna we are thinking of you
Yarnista we are thinking of you
Kandice – your in our thoughts and prayers
Karma-K we are thinking of you
Nerms- Thinking of you
Nick- Thinking of you. Hope you feel better soon.
Nimble-Thinking of you sweetie!
Jstrandland- Thoughts of you and your dh
Smattison-Thoughts of you
Anie- We are thinking if you.



IN WAITING

Mandeeq: postponed waiting for lining test results
Lucy – not starting til May/June
Nick: Waiting on more information.
KarmaK: Ready to start again. Shots Starting!!
Nimble: Starting a new round of IVF in May!!!




FUN STUFF…… NON-IVF RELATED STUFF THAT’S OCCURING!


April—Karen -- 29th birthday this month
01 Aug Sonya—B’Day
02 Oct—Nicki -- B’day!!!