Hi, I'm so glad you are feeling happy again. Its an awful thing to have gone through and however many times people say its normal and you'll be fine etc etc when its happening to you, its a completely different matter. As you say - there must be a reason, they just don't have the ability to find out and it really does help to have a reason when things go a bit off track.
Wow, you'll have you work cut out finding AND moving into a house - don't leave it too late before moving, its hard enough and stressful enough when you arn't pregnant !!
We are going to have to actually build in order to free up our existing office to make a nursery. Chris is very handy like that (hes building a house at the moment for his brother) so a small extension shouldn't be too much trouble. Problem is hes so busy at the moment it'll have to wait till spring, so we won't be decorating until after we know the sex, but I was thinking along the lines of cream / yellow anyway, so it wouldn't really matter. Benjamins room was and still is vibrant orange as we were told babies couldn't distinguish pastels and bright colours

were stimulating, but to be honest its a bit bright for me and I'd prefer something a bit more babyfied this time !!
The scans just under 3wks away, I'm trying not to think about wishing the days away, but it feels like forever. I've got a blood test for rubella and toxoplasmosis this week. Its just standard, the toxo is every month - they are really hot on it here as obviously the french are big into rare meat and also being in the countryside theres a lot of contact with animals in most families (not ours though !) and although I do love rare beef I'm steering well clear.
The weather here is wet and miserable, pouring with rain and howling gales, so not much walking being done ! Hopefully it'll pick up soon. You'll have to forgive my ignorance but roughly where is Denver (top left / right / bottom ??)
Well, I'm shattered and must go to bed (8pm !!) Take care and take it easy loads of love Wendy xxx