my crazy news.. urban 'myth' comes true for me- i'm PG

[karenvancouverisland]

aww.. thanks margi and anna and chris for remembering.. but ugh, it's been a hard few days. i started bleeding on monday, ran out for bloodwork, but numbers had doubled up to 29000...so that was encouraging, phoned obgyn tuesday= they sent me for immediate u/s.. by then i was only spotting scantly.. u/s good- heartbeat 120 and measured 6 wks 2days.. i was elated.. but wait- wednesday- just when i thought it had stopped- at least a cup of bright red blood came out of me. ugh. then more spotting bright red.

well... the ob's office had accidently kept the originally scheduled u/s for today (they were supposed to cancel when they made tuesdays) so i went expecting bad news... embie's still there, still beating away at 120..

gawd, what a rollercoaster, i spent most of last night crying, expecting to m/c. so the ob said my chances of m/c now that the heartbeat is confirmed is about 2%- even with my bleeding, which the tech said to expect to continue- cause she could see it on the u/s.

i had almost forgot how hard it can be to be pg. i relish the old days when i used to think the 2ww was the 'worst'.. not that it's 'better' than this'....this is just more of the same. they should call the first trimester the 12 ww. i long to be one of those normal women (like 2 of my friends right now) who are early pregnant, and carefree. i almost asked one of them yesterday if she had bled at all yet, but i knew better... of course she wouldn't have!.... ugh. hope that doesn't sound awful.

i'm reassured by my ob's words, but i have to admit, knowing i'm going to bleed again brings anxiety. it's better than expecting not to- if i am, i want to know. but bleeding is not reassuring. and i've been on both sides of the 2% thing before- for good and bad.

thanks ladies for all your support.. chris- what\s happening with you?? are you in cycle yet?

[riogirl71]

Hi Karen,

Sorry to hear about your scare but so happy to hear that you got a heartbeat - congratulations! If it is any comfort, my mom bled for 3 mos and thought she was having periods, she wasn't she was pregnant with me! So lot of girls here have healthy babies after bleeding. Super good luck, I know what you mean about it being worrysome every step of the way! We are 13w and now all the genetic scare stuff!

[LYD10]

Hi Karen - i also bled in early 1st trimester. they told me it was a subchorionic hematoma. i was scared , very scared. but after about 2 weeks of bleeding it stopped. they followed the bleed on U/S and my doctor who is super conservative had me on bedrest for a week. the bleed was kind of close to the embryo so he was being extra careful. Good luck!!!! what does your doc think about taking it easy for a while?

http://www.justmommies.com/articles/sub ... toma.shtml

[margi26]

Oh Karen, what a scare. But so glad there is a good strong heartbeat. As RIO says, lots of girls here seem to have bleeding and then go on to have a healthy pregnancy. I hope all goes well with you...we are all here for you!!! Take extra good care of yourself.

[to_have_fun08]

YEY!!! Congrats on one beautiful heartbeat!!

[angelaezra]

Karen - I am so happy that you heard a great heartbeat! Congratulations ... I agree with the other ladies about taking it easy until the bleeding eases up or stops.

Angela

[SueQiwi]

Karen! wow! I am just now reading about your exciting news of a natural pregnancy!!!! Get out of town, girl! Fantastic. I usually get so mad at people who tell me a might just get pregnant naturally after all I have been through. But maybe it is really true?

I am thinking of you! Congrats again. And I hope everything goes smoothly.

[karenvancouverisland]

aww thanks sue !! and its SO nice to hear from you.. really really makes my heart smile right now.

and yes, i used to get REALLY mad when people would suggest i could be like the many movie characters/ these 'unknown' women who could just get pregnant... lol.. guess the universe just taught me a lesson in miracles.

so i have had some bleeding and overall i've been an anxious freak about being pg. it is NOT much easier the second time. that being said, my son is such a blessing that he can see me through the worst of times and ultimatley i'll be grateful for the gift i already have\

so i have an u/s today at the fert clinic. i'm majorly nervous. if it goes well, i'llbe optimistic about making it through this '12 week wait'..

big, giant hugs to you!!

[LYD10]

aww thanks sue !! and its SO nice to hear from you.. really really makes my heart smile right now.

and yes, i used to get REALLY mad when people would suggest i could be like the many movie characters/ these 'unknown' women who could just get pregnant... lol.. guess the universe just taught me a lesson in miracles.

so i have had some bleeding and overall i've been an anxious freak about being pg. it is NOT much easier the second time. that being said, my son is such a blessing that he can see me through the worst of times and ultimatley i'll be grateful for the gift i already have\

so i have an u/s today at the fert clinic. i'm majorly nervous. if it goes well, i'llbe optimistic about making it through this '12 week wait'..

big, giant hugs to you!!

good luck Karen! let us know how it goes. I am doing ER next week for my #2 as well.

[margi26]

Exciting Karen! Can't wait to hear results of today's u/s!

(AFM-gearing up to start an IVF cycle. I am totally excited!)

[karenvancouverisland]

thanks margi and lyd and everyone else.. so u/s today was good.. and thank god for that. i was kinda a wreck going in. but the babe measuring 7.5 wks, RE said the baby's growth is 'great', heartbeat 140, which is great, but there is still a 'large hemoraging area right beside the embie'... and it's 'very concerning, although the baby seems so far unaffected'..

so he cautioned me to get as much rest as possible and acknowledged the bedrest topic is controversial, but his experience is that it helps. and so far i can say that when bleeding started and i rested, it lessened.. so i'm listening to this.

i've only had a bit of spotting this week and it hasn't 'bled' in 10+ days.. which is great. i'm quite optimistic.. but lol., i'm on that 'post-u/s' high.. how many days will it take for me to enter withdrawals??

so margi when will you start stims?? i'm so happy your cycling again, and you're at that exciting 'pre' stage, which i remember is a great feeling..
and lyd- good luck with ER next week, do you have much of a follie report yet? i'd love to hear it..

and sue- what's going on with you?

much love to all you ladies out there, thanks for being my cheerleaders right now i got your back too

[SueQiwi]

Karen--thank goodness the ultrasound looks good with a strong heartbeat!!! Get off your feet and take it easy, girl. I say bedrest, bedrest, bedrest--it certainly can't hurt. Take care of your little miracle : )

I am still struggling with the niggle of wanting another baby vs not wanting to get on the IVF roller coaster again. I kinda was hoping for a huge happy surprise like you got! But I really don't see it happening as we have been together for seven years never using birth control and the only pregnancy I've ever had was the third round IVF. I worry I may be way too old by now anyway as I am already 41! sheesh--where did the time go? I am so envious of all these young Moms who get to "complete" their family in their own time!!!

I love my baby girl so much and she is just wonderful. And my husband and I are so happy with the three of us. Sometimes I think we are just perfect right now and and a new baby would throw us off. But then late at night I start daydreaming about having another dear baby, different but just as special as the first and I wake up wanting to do IVF again!

I have never felt so waffly about something so important and I fear I am wasting valuable time just trying to decide what I really want. I think I am afraid to do IVF again because I'm scared it won't work again. And maybe that is why I can't decide. Because what if we go for it and we fail? I'm getting choked up just thinking about it.

[riogirl71]

Karen I hope the bleeding goes away and you can rest and enjoy your pregnancy!

Sue - the decision to have another child is easy, the decision to go through IVFs again is the brutal part. Emotionally, phisically and financially. If you can pull it off, I think it is worth it. Being an only child is great but also great to have siblings! Good luck!

[karenvancouverisland]

oh sue, i feel for you.. when our FET last fall failed, we had sort of decided before that, that if it didn't work, we'd be ok.. but really i just assumed it'd work, and then i was devastated!! which was my sign, that we needed to cycle again.

it wasn't an easy decision, because of the money/debt, combined with just being grateful for what we already have (i think i worried that wanting another meant i wasn't grateful enough for our boy- which isn't true)
... but, i was SO heartbroken, when i said to my DH "if it wasn't for financial reasons, i'd try forever"... and he said 'if it's only money holding us back- let's just do it'... wow, husband of the year at that moment.

and ultimately, i based the decision to cycle again on what i've always based it on : "will i feel like i'm living with regret if i don't try again?".. and the answer was clear.

my DH was happy to just be the three of us too.. but he's pretty happy now also

i hope your decision comes to light and that once you make it, you don't feel torn.. my advice would be to either jump in with both feet, or jump out the same way. much love to you <3

[brit1612]

Karen- I was reading through ya'lls thread and read your story. I thought I would pop in and mention that you could have a subchorionic hemhorrage. I think someone may have mentioned it before, but you may want to ask your doctor about it. I had a very large one with my successful pregnancy. It was really scary for a while, but everything turned out good. The only reason you would really need to know if you have one is because sometimes they will put you on bedrest depending on where it is. They will also monitor you more. I'm not trying to scare you, it is just something to rule out. They are very common and typically do not harm the pregnancy. Mine was not visible on my normal ultrasounds, but when I went in for the NT is was clear and pretty large. Good luck to you!