Awaiting Treatment

[Hope644]

Hi Ladies -

I have been out of town for a while, helping take care of my grandmother who is ill. I've missed out on a lot - I will try to catch up as I can, but I wanted to wish Becks lots of BFP dust and send you tons o' hugs! Sounds like you've had a bit of a rough go, but things are turning in your favor, sweetie - believe it!!!!

Stay strong girlfriend!!!!



and...

Stick EMBIE STICK!!!

[ICSI GIRL]

hey ladies!! ya'll are right about it being quiet over the weekend...... wow!!! i think you're right beck --- with the weather finally breaking and starting to be nice outside -- everybody is out & about!!!

beck -- how ya feeling??? you didn't say (even after several of us asked) WHEN IS YOUR TEST DAY??????!!!!!!!! are you back to work today???

carolyn --- yippeee!!! the dr has begun! and for the record - it sounds as if you're the second longest d/r EVER!! (only behind our beck)....... what is it w/ your docs over there??!! or maybe i'm just confused (like that would be a first!! ha, ha!!) guess i don't fully know what is considered "DOWNREGGING".......is it all the times leading up to ivf procedures where doc has put me on bcp's?? is that d/r??? if yes -- then i guess mine has been long too.........anyway --- YAY for you being well on your way!!!

hope --- nice to see ya sweetie!! are you finally over your m/s??? or your lil one still making her presence known??? so is it sassy that you went to take care of??? i thought she was doing really well?? lots of love to you and her!

hello to all my other lovelies as well!!! happy monday to ya all!!! as for me --- AF arrived yesterday.....and while i was admittedly a bit sad ---- i'm really ok......in fact, the more cycles we go thru -- the more i'm feeling like i'm not so sure i'll go thru another ivf round.....has consumed a lot of my (our) lives to date and there are plenty of times when i feel as if God is trying to tell me that this is why he blessed me w/ 2 dss's so we'll see..........the bottom line at the moment is that we're still forging ahead in hopes of the super-sperm to kick in!!!

gotta run - but as usual, will be popping in/out as much as i can to make sure you're all playing nice!!!

[Welshgirl38]

beck -- how ya feeling??? you didn't say (even after several of us asked) WHEN IS YOUR TEST DAY??????!!!!!!!! are you back to work today???

Oooooo slapped wrists lol - im sure i did say, i test the day before DH's 40th birthday - May 30th - jeeze cant u count woman - its on my ticker lmao!!!!!

Feeling very bloated, very hungry and very achy below .... when does embryo implant - is it 6-10 days yes??????

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So just to remind you - its MAY 30th THAT I TEST LOLOLlololol

Sorry to hear ur AF arrived hun - sounds like u and DH have been doing a LOT of talking, which is good i know that u will both come to the right decision thats best for ur family ..... xxxxxxx

[Hope644]

Hi girls -

Angie - so sorry about af showing her ugly head. i love your pma, though - keep giving those super-spermies the chance to grow stronger!! i know that feeling of thinking God is going to bless me with my DSSs - which are a blessing - but keep your PMA strong, girlfriend. I know you are going to be a fantastic mother and can't wait to see how GORGEOUS your child with DH will one day be!!!!!

Thanks for asking about my grandmother - yup - it's Sassy. She had pretty much gotten over the broken hip and was walking even better than before the break - then all of a sudden, boom! She was having more problems with her other leg (sciatica) and went to get an epidural for the pain and discovered that she was severely dehydrated and going into acute kidney failure. That turned into many other problems including a blood clot in that same leg discovered in the hospital and now, she was just diagnosed with lymphoma. UGH. It's been one horrible thing after another. Actually though, she's doing well in the spirits dept now that they have given her a "name" for what she's experiencing. I think it was the worst to not know - like that awful 2ww! The stress and anticipation is worse than knowing - no matter what... so she's now on chemo and we hope it's going to work - she already beat breast cancer and we know she's a fighter!!

Yup - still dealing with m/s - strangely getting used to it.

Carolyn - congrats on D/R! How long do you d/r?? I know it seems to take FOREVER! Good luck and hope you have no side effects!!

Becks - how's it going in the 2ww??? Glad you're feeling all the normal signs now!! Sounds like implantation to me!!! Keep up the PMA.

How's my little Angel??! I miss you sweetie!!!

Is Mir back from her cruise?! I haven't seen any posts, but admittedly, I haven't caught up yet, just browsed.... hope you had a blast, sweetheart! You deserved a fabulous break!!

Chriss - how are things with you? Thinking of you... hoping all is going well with the new RE and the counselor... hugs!

How's newbie (or not so-newbie anymore) Bichon?? Hope you are well also.

Hi to everyone else - I know I missed some... hugs to you all.

Hope this is the beginning of a FANTASTIC new week for everyone!!!

[chriss]

Hi girls,

Just a quick hello to tell you that I have not forgetten you all.
Hope, thinking about Sassy.

Thinking about you too Becky.

Also... anyone know how Steph(1) is? Seems like I have not seen her name anymore. I haven't been on awaiting treatment Part 2 much. Has she shown up on there? Hope she's ok.

-chriss

[Angel505]

Hello ladies,

Hope you all had a great weekend. I have been thinking about you, but working in an awkward place at the moment with loads of people around me. I started typing a long post yesterday and I kept on getting interrupted - aaaarggghhhhhhhh I was ready to scream!!!

Anyways, here goes again…….

Hope - Its great to hear from you again. We missed you. Sorry to hear about your grandmother. Sounds like shes been through so much already. One thing about the older generation - you've got to admire their strength though to go on and fight whatever circumstances throws them. I hope for a speedy recovery for her. Hows the ms? I know it can't be nice, but in a strange way its probably reassuring to have it, right?

Becky - Read about your scare. Glad the bleeding has stopped. I'd love to see you walking around your office with a cushion around your belly. Is the bloating still bad? Make sure you take things easy and get plenty of rest.

Angie - sorry about AF hun, sounds like you were prepared for it. Like you said it does take at least 3 months for the vitamins to have an effect. How was your do on Friday?

Carolyn - hows the dereg going? I was on burselin too. I really admire you for giving yourself the injections. I'm a total wimp and had to have DH do every single one of them. How long do you dereg for?

Chriss - Good to hear from you. How are things with you?

Miracle - Where are you? You should be back from your cruise now. We miss you.

BM - you seem to have gone underground too.

As for me, I had another attack of feeling unhappy and down in the dumps. I hate this waiting around. Ideally I would have like to go for a number of cycles this year and then if it didn't work out by Dec, give up and look into adoption. But my RE very strongly suggested a break. My doctor also said that I'm very run down and need to get myself back up even for normal routine let alone IVF. So I am going to have to listen to them and take a break. This whole uncertainty makes things more difficult. I almost wish I was at that stage where I felt strongly about giving up and moving on. At the moment, I just feel like everything has come to a halt and whether or not we have a baby will determine other things in life. Ok, I'm probably not making any sense at this point so will stop rambling.

[Welshgirl38]

Angel hun ...

Completly understand the way ur feeling hun xxxx I know i found it hard waiting to get on the ride again, theres nothing worse cos u feel like ur in limbo - u cant plan anything in case it messes with ur cycle etc.
All i can say is, take ur time, get urself better and on par ready for ur next cycle - if it take 3 mths - then so be it - if it takes 6 then so be it - just make sure YOUR ready. You need to go into this fighting fit and raring to go ....

Sending you lots of love and hugs sweetie Xxxxxx

[ICSI GIRL]

awwwww -- sorry you're feeling blue angel...........((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))))))) i SO know how you feel........... it just hits you like a ton of bricks on some days -- doesn't it??? no matter how 'well' you think you're doing --- it just sneaks right up!! is kinda how i felt over the weekend when af arrived ---- seemed that everywhere we went - there was the cutest little baby.......and my dss's (bless their hearts) seemed to pick up and comment on EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!!! you know -- the whole "awww --- do you see that cute lil one??" i'm like "of course i see it --- i dream it, i eat it, i live it, i walk it, i talk it ---- you think i didn't SEE IT???????" course i didn't act that way toward them -- is what i was feeling inside though.....and then lets not forget the gal i work with -- her daughter is pregnant (1st grandbaby) and let me just tell you that i would love nothing more than to slap her silly!!! (the preggo)......she's 21 - newly married - didn't want to work, so got herself pregnant (which - i know it takes two -- but still.....when she blatently says thats her plan........) she's due any moment now and is all pissed off cuz the baby may arrive on HER birthday --- she sounds like such a snotty little brat!!!!!!!!!!!! of course i think us women who endure so much more to even GET pregnant are a lot more sensitive to crap like that!!! little *****!! anyway angel -- was simply trying to say i can relate.......i think we all can.....

beck -- how ya feelin??? and for the record -- yes i can count....but i can't see your ticker!!! it's just an empty box......maybe is just my stupid computer???!!!! silly girl........you already SOUND pregnant!!! (YIPPEEEEE)

hope -- sorry to hear about sassy....is never easy dealing w/ family stuff like that.......my heart goes out to you hun!!!! will keep you and your family in my prayers

carolyn -- how goes the dr??? feeling any different??? are ya getting a case of the nasties w/ your dh yet?????

chriss!!!!! always a pleasure my dear......you sound well....... you've got to be about done for the summer eh??? do you take summers off (cuz you're a teacher...right???)

well -- i go back to see doc today.....must go in for my "clomid check" -- apparently is standard procedure to make sure no cysts or anything before next round of clomid.....get to go SPREAD 'EM for the doc a little later -- my excitement is overwhelming!!! ya know, i was also a little surprised at how they were counting my cycle days too.....so i told nurse that i started spotting on sunday and she says "ok - sunday is day one" --- i always thought day one was first full day of "flow".....????? thoughts anybody???????

[Angel505]

Thank you for you kind words Angie and Becky. Angie its true that going through this makes us super sensitive to things around us and even the poster of a baby is enough to make you cry. People who don't know don't mean to hurt our feeling intentionally. But it seems that everytime I feel like that I come across even more pregnant women or new mothers.

I know we're all probably fighting with the same emotions. That why we can understand each other so well. Hugs to you all.

Becky - Hope you're feeling better hun. Do let us know whats happening with you.

Angie - good luck with your scan. Regarding day 1, my RE says you have to count it from the point that the proper flow starts, not just spotting. And if your flow starts after 6.00pm, then you count the next day as Day 1. But I guess you have to go along with your nurse.

Anyone heard from Mir? Should she not be back from her vacation?

[Welshgirl38]

Morning Ladies

ICSI: Hey hun, how u doing? Did u get to the Dr yesterday for ur clomid check?? So, u spread em for the wee dildocam then - oh the joys lol, dont ya just love it hee hee. I always thought u had to count full flow as day one, as i wud normally spot for a day or two, then the full flow comes, maybe im doing it wrong i dunno???? How are u finding the clomid, a friend of mine took those and she said the side effects were terrible, she reckoned when she was meant to do the dirty with her hubby, she was not in the mood - and laying there scrunching her face just wasnt doing it for him ha ha! Mind u, she had 1 go at IUI and got pregnant first time, so weather the clomid helped get her cycle and insides back to normal - who knows?? U seem to be ur usual normal happy go lucky self on it anyhow - dunno what ur like in bed mind - but from ur chats, i bet ur a right wee minx lmao xxxx

Angel: Hey sweetie - hows it going?? How are u feeling today? So sorry ur feeling so down in the run up to ur tmt. It is so hard to try and be happy for other people when u urself are standing still - i know i found it hard enough, so i cant imagine what it is like for u hun - sending lots of big hugs and lots of love ur way xxxx

Chriss: How u doing hun? Hope u are well, are u up to anything exciting - come on, tell us, we need some excitment in our lives lol xxx

Carolyn: Woooooo, so how is the down regulating going? Any bruses yet? Now i know ive asked this before (am gonna have to write it on my calander here at work lol) when is ur scan and whats ur schedule??? You asked about my race for life - well its 1st June (Sunday) 2 days after my pregnancy test - so, as im feeling so shite and not able to train - my beautiful eldest DD is doing the run for me - she is amazing and is training her wee heart out. I told her we would all go down and support her over the line and i would have a wee surprise waiting for her (any ideas??) So i know u sponsored me hun and i really appreciate it - but the race is still going ahead and the cash is still going for cancer research ... xxxx

BM: Hope ur enjoying ur holiday (vacation!!) still cant get used to calling it that lol, where did u go to? Sorry if u mentioned it before, ive got a memory like a sieve lolxxx

Miracle: Well hiney, what about u? Are u STILL on ur cruise? You cant be surly - iof u are then ur a jammie cow lol - what a fab long 'vacation' wish i was there .... so where abouts did u cruise to? Any exotic places?? xxx

Hope: What a beautiful sparkley big bear hug u sent me thank u - its lovely to hear from u, and great to see that u are popping by keeping ur wee eye on us thank u for that xxx Sorry to hear about ur grandmother hun, she sounds like a real fighter - just like her grand daughter Sending much love to u and ur family xxx

As for me ladies, well im not feeling too optimistic at the moment (hoping it will soon pass) been getting really sore tugging pains down below in my ovary dept for the past few days, and today the aches are starting to raise up more into the surrounding areas – really feels like AF pains – I know I know I shouldn’t be thinking like that, but its so hard not to. No other symptoms to report really, apart from im still really bloated – ive had to come to work wearing joggers and im mortified walking about dressed like this. Im the reasonable smart/casual dresser for work, always black trousers/skirt with boots or healed shoes, and today im wearing navy joggers, a baggy white top and a pair of trainers!! I lok a right site lol ….

[ICSI GIRL]

awww beck -- you poor dear!! maybe you should wear joggers like this --- and then you'd feel much better!!! you get your head back in the game -- you hear me???!!!! all this AF talk is not good for the baby..........he's going to feel unwanted --- and ya don't want that now do ya??? PMA sweet pea!!!!!!!!! you can do it.......i know you can -- i've witnessed it! you've got a real fighter in there --- just like his momma!!!

hello girls......to all my other girlies out here!!!! miss ya guys.....have been crazy busy w/ work and i'm still on strike for fixing my computer at home........want my dss's to learn lesson about playing w/ porn on the pc!!! went for my clomid check/scan yesterday.....everything a-ok to start another round!!! i was SO fearful that i would have a giant cyst or something that would prevent me from being able to use it this month....hell -- dont' even know if it "works" for me!!!???? guess i shouldn't say that as its only been one cycle --- what do i expect -- miracles???!!!!! (well actually -- that WOULD be nice right about now!!) anyway....will start another round of clomid tomorrow.....and beck - to answer your question --- yeah, the clomid doesn't seem to have an affect on me as far as negative side affects.....atleast it didn't w/ round 1..... and i have a really good friend that took it and it turned her into raving beeeaaaattch!!!! i was all "OMG - i do that well enough on my own, i certainly don't need any help in that dept!!!" ha, ha!! and if dh knew that was one of the POTENTIAL side affects -- he probably would not let me take it!!!!! ha, ha, ha!!! anyway......oh yeah - i did have some night sweats going on -- but nothing major..........

ok my sweets!! hope ya'll

[wishfull27]

Hello ladies -= hope your all ok ... we seem somwhat depleted in numbers???


Becky - glad you got checked out and that all appears to be ok - I will forgive your PUPO brain - although I have told you before - baseline bloods 2nd June - then start stimming - follie scan on FRIDAY 13th - then if all goes to plan ER following week - doing well with injections - have surprised myself - no bruises yet - still plenty of time though - just feel bloated no other side effects - thank god

So pleased you DD is doing run for you - at least you can cheer her on - sending you big hugs and lots of sticky baby dust xxx

Angel - so sorry you are feeling so down - this whole thing is a nightmare - but agree with others if docs think you are run down you ned to be in tip top health to cope with a cycle - so you and DH concentrate on you feeling better - PMA will help a ton with your next cycle - sending you a couple of sacks of PMA and hugs((())) xx

Icsi - yeh to the legs in stirrups you just love it - bet you just went in your over coat!!!!! - at least all was ok and can get rock and rolling again on the clomid - heres to hoping DH spermies have become a bit more super this monthxxx

Anyone heard from Mir or Peq .. think they have abandonned us???

Hope - thinking of you - hope Sassy is ok and you are maaging to control your MS x

Shantanla and Rachel - you 2 mummies are far too busy to come and play with us now - sending you lots of love and hugs xx

and anyone else I missed - off to get organised for tom and then watch the Apprentice!!!

carolyn xx

[Ems1971]

Becks - just a quickie to say I've still got my beadie eye on you!!! You sound really positive honey - keep up that PMA!

Thinking of you and willing that little fighter to stick, stick, stick!!!

Lots of love xx

[Angel505]

Helloooo,

How are we all doing today? It’s a lovely day here, isn't it? Hope it stays that way. So glad we have another long weekend coming up.

Becky - how are you? Your bloating sounds a bit excessive. Can your clinic not do anything about that. Its not been an easy cycle for you, has it? But when you get your BFP, you'll forget all about that. Thanks for your kind words and support. Its just that when I was already feeling down about things, I got a couple of comments at work about "don't you want kids" and "wait till you have a baby"……I know they don't mean to be unkind, but when you are already down about it, it feels like being pushed down even more. Anyway, September will be here soon and I will be stressing about the injections.

Angie - So love the jogging pants. Can you get some for me?? Its great that you got an all- clear for the next round. Give yourself and DH's swimmers some decent time. I do know what you mean - even though we are fully aware of the realistic outcomes, we can't help but hope. You need to come out and play some more girl. All that work ain't gonna bring a smile on your face - we will.

Carolyn - so can you feel your follies growing? When are your scans? Tentative ER????? Hope the bloating is not excessive. Give us more info so we know when do do a follie dance for you. Did you watch the Apprentice yesterday? I missed it cause of the footie game. It was quite nerve wrecking. Will watch the re-run. I read that Raef aka posh boy got fired.

Anyone else around?????? Where is Miracle?

[Welshgirl38]

I dont beleive the crap im getting on this 2ww -

I just rung my clinic to see if i could take anything for my heartburn (acid reflux, ive suffered for years with it) and was chatting away to my nurse who ive had thru out the treatment, and she asked me how it went when i went into admissions the other night (Monday) (thread on main board about that lol)

I told her what the Dr there had told me - not to drink too much water cos it wud make OHSS worse, and that i was still swollen and she went mad - told me that i SHOULD be drinking plenty to help with the swelling, and that i still shouldnt be this swollen - so i have to go back in the morning again for another scan now

I dont want an internal one - im scared it may harm anything that might be going on in there

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh