Hello girls,
oooooooooooh... I needed to read your posts badly this morning. I don't feel too good at the moment.

But reading your posts and feeling your energy makes me feel better already.
I went at the clinic this morning. I can't say I was nervous, but I was on guard all the same. It's always a strange feeling, that "Here I am, sitting again in that waiting room"... But right away, I didn't like the way they welcomed me. I went straight to the ultrasound waiting room, because you never know how many people will be waiting there. But it was empty. The nurse saw me and asked me if I had paid for the treatment. I had planned to do that after the ultrasound, but she said, "Your file is at the front; go there, pay your fee and your file will be brought here. Then you can have your ultrasound, okay?"
She wasn't rude or anything, but that method, that approach was. Come on... you have my embies, of course I'll pay you. No need to use my file as bait!

So I paid the darn fee, and then I offered the secretary to bring my file to the ultrasound room. "Sorry madam, but I'm the one who'll do it, it's part of the procedure." Oh, come on! I know the contents of that file better than the doctors!

So I went back to the waiting room.
There were many new faces at the clinic. The nurse who installed me in the room was new, but whew... she needs to pile up more experience in a fertility clinic. You know, those nurses who are so sweet and motherly it makes you sick? Because you see it in their eyes that they pity you? And they make you feel like a child when you need to stay really strong and adult about the whole situation?

I really don't react well to that kind of nurse... Sympathy is wonderful, especially coupled with efficacy and straightforwardness. Love those nurses. Pity, yuck! I just hope I won't have that one next to me during ET. Bah, who cares.
Fortunately, it was my doc this morning, and he's always super nice with me because he knows my father and his wife, who are doctors too. He seemed happy to see me. So I had my surgery wound check; it's A-ok!

Everything looks clean inside, except for a small cyst on my left ovary. Not surprising, I've had ovarian cysts come and go for around 17 years now. My lining is around 9 cms; anything above 7 is good for them. Of course, I'm a little disappointed -silly cow- because last time it was 11cms. But I'll remember what I told another FETer just las week... my lining is medically viable for implantation, and it will keep thickening until transfer day. No worries allowed!
As for the transfer, it will be on Thursday. I've stopped sniffing Suprefact (yay!) and I'll start progesterone pessaries this afternoon. I'll keep taking estrace, but 2mg three times a day instead of 3mg two times. I'll keep taking baby aspirin too. The antibiotics I had to take gave me the worst yeast infection of my life (I'm really not kidding); I took Diflucant and it should take care of it (two Canesten treatments did not do the job properly!!!!). So needless to say, nookie is nowhere in sight, and we're embarking on 2 weeks of abstinence... *sigh* If it's what it takes, eh?
Sorry guys... I need to vent, that's all. It's wonderful to have a place where to do it!

I don't know... my mood has shifted in such a strange way... yesterday, I could still say I kept my mind on other things and I was calm. But now, it seems more real and I fully feel the possibility that I might have to face yet another BFN again. Mind you, I still think our chances are higher than they have ever been, with the surgery and all, but it's like I want to become pregnant, but I don't feel like facing a disappointment again.
Well, one day at a time. I must keep busy, have fun, keep my mind off IVF as much as possible. Talk about other things. My good mood will come back in no time.

After all, I do have to plan the decoration on my birthday cake for Sunday evening...

:D:D:D Here's a happy place!
Okay, let's get personal:
Nimble,
Hang in there baby!!! We're still all thinking about you. LOL, love the "pushing for England" idea! Ah, so you love the outdoors too! Hehe, my husband is a chemist, and because of that we have to work in big cities... but one day, we'll move to the country. We both LOVE that lifestyle, and Britanny would be perfect for that. One day, we'll buy a nice house near the broceliand forest, and we'll spend the rest of our days there. How did you hear about Oz? I didn't know the English had such a different lifestyle compared to French. Tell me more...?
wishful,
awwww man, sorry to hear it rained so much! It seems like you'll NEVER get dry when you're camping in the rain! Do you have another trip planned for the summer? Hiking maybe?
Happy Monday Pisces! How are you doing?
Miracle,
Hehe, thanks for your wonderful energy, as always!
Lots of kisses ladies, and have a grrrreat day!
Sophie xxox