Hi Ladies,
How are u all? So sorry for being MIA lately, been taking some well needed time out for myself and DH.

I have been reading and trying to keep up, so have seen the messages some of u have left for me. Thank you so much for those and for thinking about me xxx
I’m not doing tmt this mth after all.

Going to give it a miss an wait until next AF (should be around end Sept) I still haven’t had my Aug one yet (a week late) so wont actually start d/r until Oct. Seems far away but I’m sure it will pass as quickly as the past few weeks have
I think this IVF lark has taken its toll on me, physically and emotionally – I know it does for everyone else too – I’m tired of it being constantly on my mind, an just want this last tmt over with so we can get on with our lives with or without children together. I know that sounds harsh cos I know I will be devastated if this last go doesn’t work, but I also know that I
WILL get over it an learn to live without having a child with DH.
I have been thinking of all the things we can do together – DD is off to Uni (providing she passes her A-levels – Results tomorrow!) and the eldest DD we hardly ever see as she at her b/f’s more often than not. I will have a spare bedroom to keep
allllll MY clothes in, kinda like a walk in wardrobe (would much prefer a nursery – but this is a list of things we can do without a baby in our life yes???) I can come an go as I please, nip down the shop instead of loading the car with baby an taking half hour to get ready to go an get 5lb of potatoes

we can have a new puppy (although DH has already said no to that one – I’m sure I cud coax him hehe

) we can go on holiday when we like an for how long we like to nice warm hot places (ok, I don’t like to fly – but I cud get used to it lol) we can nip off for a quickie when we like

can have a nap when we like, we can do lots of things together with DD’s or on our own, We can look fwd to DD’s having their own children an spoil the grandchildren … …. I’m sure there are plenty more I can add to the list too. So,
IF this doesn’t work (i havent given up yet!!) that is what I am going to do, I’m going to embrace life with DH, the man I married and will love for the rest of my life.
I turned the big 4 zero last Saturday – wasn’t looking fwd to that either, so I embraced it with a huge party with about 50+ guests. It was DD’s 18th birthday the same day so we shared the party and ended up with a BBQ, Karaoke and Adult Assault Course Bouncy Castle – what a scream! Best laff I hav had in a long long time
So ladies, if I don’t come on as often, its not because I’ve forgotten all about u all, but simply cos I need a break

You have been my lifeline for the past 2 an half years (god THAT long!) I have laffed with u an cried with u, I have made friends with some of the nicest women I will ever dare to meet …. Strong determined women who don’t give up without a dam good fight.
Don’t ever give up ladies ….
Speaky soon my friends
Becky Xxxxx
P.S - NIMS: Hope u are well and are finally a well deserved mum - was gonna text u, but tht i wud leave it - dont want to intrude, will text Shantala instead, she will know LOL (mind u-she prob aint got money in her phone to text me back LOL) sending much love Xxxxxxxx