NOV/DEC 2009 -- Cycle Group

[jenice]

Hi everyone - It's official "I'M PREGNANT" my beta was 88 which was good they said. I'm going to tell everyone and my DD as soon as we can.I still can't believe I got pregnant this cycle with a 2-cell and 4-cell embies, I just figured it would fail. I was even thinking about January and what we would be doing and when to start a fresh cycle. I guess you never know with IVF

Turtle- I read your post and it is devastating to get canceled but look @ me I did the antagonist protocol (by the way it was my clinic 1st time with it during an FET, didn't exactly boost my confidence this cycle and I'm PREGO !!!!!) I'm a high responder and they couldn't suppress me @ all E2 went soaring. They tried to cancel me a 3rd time but knew my E2 went nuts and went with it. Then I was borderine OHSS then BFN then post allergic reaction on my bum This time I thought it would just be the same but it worked in my favor and one day it will for you just keep trying I know I told my DH I didn't know how many more cycles I do, it is so stressful and I always felt like someone kicked me in the face , nothing seemed to go RIGHT!!!!!! Sometimes I wonder how come some people have it so easy having babies and others struggle for years of torment. I am lucky already have a DD and even had problems then having DD. I think I appreciate things alot more in life and my DD who by the way is so spoiled. I think you find this inner core of yourself and definitely do some soul searching through all of this. Sometimes I felt like I was loosing myself in IVF it consumes you every thought . You are in my thoughts and try and enjoy the holidays

[jenice]

To everyone - It is official I'M PREGNANT beta was 88. I'm going to tell everone and of course DD

[Skylar]

Jenice I am sorry happy for you, this forum really needed a pick me up and you did it for me. Congratulation for you and dh (also DD)

[syanna]

Just want to wish you lovely ladies a Happy Thanksgiving!! Get your grub on!!

Franny - I know its hard. Let it all out and take your time. But just know it is definetly not your fault. Don't be hard on yourself and enjoy your thanksgiving (and whatever naughty thingy your about to do *wink wink)

My hubby said to me the other night...that in a couple of years, if I dont give him a child, he's gonna leave! Some pressure huh?? I told his ass, by the end of THIS year if he don't give me a child, Imma cut his useless balls off! What now?! Then I'm gonna get with a hot guy that has good lil soldiers that are capable of penetrating my eggs! Guess who was the sad one that whole night mmm hmmm.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!

[teachermom]

2010- PUPO!! YEAH!!! So excited for you. Now that waiting begins!!

Honey34bunny- I’m so so sorry to hear your news. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you do continue on your journey. In the end it will be worth it.

Franny- you should never feel guilty about infertility! It is NOT your fault. You’re time will come. It will. You are still making eggs. I just know that once they figure out the right doses for you and get you to retrieval you are gonna have a BFP. I just know it. They just have to work out the dosage that’s going to work for you. I am blazing angry at your RE for suggesting donor eggs after just 2 cycles!!! That’s incredulous!!! How dare he!! Does he not want to have to do a little work to figure out what will work best for you?? Please please please don’t give up hope. You do have much to be thankful for- please take comfort in those things this weekend. Love you!!

Dodo- You’re PUPO!! WOO HOO!! Hope you are enjoying your bedrest!

Claud- super progress you’re making. When do they think you’re ER will be?

Syanna- great follie numbers!! Don’t rush it. Sometimes it just takes longer to make the perfect eggs.

Me2009- I’m praying for your line to get darker. As for caffeine, I have switched to decaf when I started trying again. I know some dr’s say it’s ok in moderation, but anything I can do to help I will do.

Ashley- Yeah Turkey Day Retrieval! Sounds good to me!!

Happier- I’m so sorry to hear your news. I was hoping we would all celebrate. I’m glad to hear you are staying positive and looking forward to your next cycle.

Katie- LOVE the happy thanksgiving animations! So cute!

Amysbabies- I am praying for your little miracle growing inside of you.

Jenice- YIIPPPEE!! Congratulations!!

AFM- ME TOO!!!!! Beta came back at 762!!!
RE thinks it may be twins!
I cannot thank each and every one of you for your support during this extremely difficult time. It has meant the world to me to have women who know exactly what this all feels like. I have so much to be thankful for this thanksgiving- and you all are a big part of it! Can't wait to hear everyone else's good news as it comes along.

[katie99]

OMG!! I thought it was safe to get the house ready for tomorrow, make pie & cornbread stuffing - I come to do a quick check on you all & holy moly - ITS TWINS !!!!

Nanine -Good Lord woman!! I'm doing a happy dance!!!!
OMG! 762!!! Someone's having twins I think - I am SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Jenice -CONGRATULATIONS!!! This was a long awaited & well deserved victory! I'm SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!

Amy -CONGRATULATIONS!! I've heard that FET can be late implanters -I'm SO HAPPY for you! I'm sorry that we have to be cautiously happy til your 2nd beta - waiting to do the happy dance for you too!

Ashley -Good luck tomorrow! wish you many healthy eggs!

Syanna -Tell DH that his joke was NOT FUNNY! That had better have been a dopey joke! OOHH - this boy is in for it when you start stims, girl, I cant wait!

Skylar -prayers for the both of us for this last cycle

I'm doing the list as soon as I deal with these hungry dogs!

[amysbabies]

Thanks for the congrats Katie99 ~ unfortunately it wasn't a FET ..it was a 3dt ... but still praying to God that he makes my embie strong and healthy.

Teachermom : WOW...that is an amazing beta!! if it isn't multiples...that's one healthy embie!!

Jenice: congrats! 11/25 is a good day

[katie99]

Julia78 -estrogen 11/28 - u/s 12/15 - FET 12/21
Brooklyngirl -stims 12/10 - ER 12/22 (my birthday)




Miyaya -BCP
Teacher2bmom -BCP
Lou -BCP - lupron 11/25 - FET 1/6/10
Katie99 -estrace - stims 12/3 - ER w/o 12/14
BRMommy2b -BCP - FET 12/16 - beta 12/26



HJW (Hazel) -syneral - stims 12/3 - ER w/o 12/14
Motherhoodhopes -lupron - FET 12/11





Claud -stims 11/18 - poss ER 11/29
SarahRuth -stims 11/20 - ER 12/2 or 12/3
TC4474 -stims 11/21 - ER 12/3
Skylar -stims 11/21 -ER w/o 12/1
Mommieof2 -stims 11/23 -ER 12/3 or 12/5
Syanna -stims 11/27 - ER ?
Justwannabeamom-stims 11/26 - ER w/o 12/7



Ashleyncsu77 -ER 11/26 - PGD testing - FET in Jan
Bethanyneedsluck -ER 11/25 - ET 11/30




Olim78 -ET 11/16 -PUPO! beta- 11/28
Cheekyone -YAY 6 fert! PUPO! ET 11/16 - beta- 12/1
Lulu -ET 11/17 PUPO! - beta 11/30
Me2009-ET 11/18 PUPO! - beta 12/2
Albany -ET 11/20 PUPO! beta 12/1
Kerribell-ET 11/22 PUPO! beta 12/4
Supergenius -ET 11/23 -PUPO! - beta 12/2
2010 -ET 11/23 - PUPO! - beta 12/4
Dodo928 -ET 11/23 PUPO! - beta ?



Firefly -BFP! our first one!
Lou -bfn - FET in jan
10bear -bfn
To_have_fun -bfn
Karenthescorpio -bfn
Honey34bunny-bfn
Turtle (Franny) - cancelled try in jan
Happier -bfn FET in dec
Jenice -BFP! beta 88
Amysbabies -BFP! next beta 11/27
Teachermom -BFP! Holy moley! beta 762!

[Skylar]

Katie99 Thank you for the post, I cannot wait until there are more than . Also prayers for you too since this is our last try.
Syanna I love the fact, when men start to say something smart, then we come back with something more smarter and powerful than them, they don't say anything, Checkmate.
Honeybunny I am so sorry for your news, my prayers go out to you.
Teachermom congrats, those numbers are wonderful, will you be our first twin on this forum?

[justwannabamom]

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[justwannabamom]

Honeybunny
I am so sorry for your news I hope things somehow work out for you. My DH refused to do IVF at all then after time agreed and we got BFN so he said no more ever and I believed he would stick to that. He doesn't really even want kids but guess what, here I am so hang in there things may turn around for you! Best of luck!
Happier
So sorry for your news also it just breaks my heart to hear of all these BFNs. Many of us have been there and it just plain sucks! Best wishes to you.
Franny
You just bring tears to my eyes a complete stranger. I am so so sorry for how bad you are feeling please hang in there and take a break to clear your head! ((((HUGS)))))

AFM I had my baseline ultrasound and labs today. RE said I may have less AFC than normal and judging from past IVF he doesn't expect a lot of eggs but then of course says we only need 2 great embryos! Argh!! I really wanted to hear a more positive answer! I am only 29 so I guess I at least expected that to be on my side but apparently not! Oh well I guess ready or not here we go.I just jumped on the rollercoaster!! RE seemed so much more positive when I first met him.The nurse called later with my labs and said they were fine but does anybody know what normal is? Estrogen was 33 FSH was 6. Are these ok, so so, or great? The last RE never told me so I don't know what they should b but u ladies are so knowledgable any help would be great. So I start my gonal f in the morning and menopur tomorrow night I don't go back for another ultrasound till next wednesday. Does that seem right to stim for 6 days before next us and bw? Last time it wasn't that long!I thought the 2nd time doing IVF would be easier but I think its worse cause I know I already had BFN before and this is my last chance due to my DH not wanting to do it ever again! Lots of stress here and actually just plain scared to be positive.I really look up to you guys who have such PMA!!! Well sorry to write a book. Thanks for listening! Happy thanksgiving to you all and good luck to all you PUPU's and congrats to the new BFP's!!!!

[katie99]

Jeez its just one of those days that I cant stay away!

Justwannabeamom - your numbers look great - you want E2 (estrogen) under 50 at baseline. Your FSH varies month to month, but you want it less than 9 (actually the lower the better) - so you're good there too. Are you on thyroid meds? My clinic will do u/s & b/w on day 5 of stims then its every other day til you start getting close to trigger, then its every day. So then its you, Skylar and myself in the "last try club" - prayers for us all!

[turtle0619]

ok well how the hell can i be a debbie downer anymore after this page of posts?????

katie thank you for yelling at me..i really needed it (and probably will afew more times) i went into this really dark place that is soooooo not me. i am not giving up. you are so amazing and strong. one day we will have a baby play date with each other ok? i have so much love for you its crazy. i dont know what i'll do once you get your BFP this time and leave me in the dust!!

nanine ummmmmmm HOLY FREAKIN SHIT!!!! hahaha OMG OMG OMG!! i am just so thrilled beyond belief for you. i know its been a long long road for you as well, and you give me hope that it will all work out! 762?? are you kidding me?? if you have triplets can i have one??? ((((((((((((((((((((love)))))))))))))))))))))))

jenice WOOOOHOOO!! katie is right you deserve this moment!! you are PREGNANT!! how does that sound??? amazing!!! you also give me hope!

amy i know you have to be cautious right now, but right now you are also PREGNANT! i think you need to enjoy the feeling and know that on friday your beta is going to be big!!

syanna thanks for your words...you crack me up, which is hard to do this week!! my first cycle i had to wait 5 days between my basecheck U/S and starting stims. i also lowered my lupron from 10 to 5 units during that time too. you must be very easy to stim because i believe thats the most basic common protocol for ivf. thats really good news. enjoy your turkey, and then your stims on friday!! i have everything crossed for you!

skylar thank you so much for your words. they really help! thank you for taking the time to respond to my crazy rant.

me2009 did you POAS again?? i hope that line gets darker!!

albany hows the 2WW going? i hope you are eating extra turkey tomorrow cause you're eating for 2 now!!

happier i am soooo sorry.

afm DH came home from work and he has a way to make me feel better like nobody else. he is the only one who can make me giggle like i used to before all of this crap. i am so sorry if i brought everyone down with me. that is not what i am usually about. i try to be positive and upbeat as much as i can so this week has been very unlike me. even when i found out i had stage 4 endo i still tried to put a positive spin on it because atleast i finally knew after 2 years of TTC there was a reason behind it and we werent crazy. so now i am slightly embarassed by my post because those feelings come from the deepest darkest parts of my soul which nobody really see's (damn my fingers for going off!!)

i just baked a sweet potato pie, and DH made a big pot of chili (a thanksgiving tradition for him....dont ask...i have no idea haha but its super good) i am looking forward to waking up and spending the day with DH and the dog cooking, watching the parade, and dancing around the kitchen to some good music.

happy thanksgiving everyone!

[albany07]

Good evening girls! Just checkin' in, I have been running around like crazy. Picked my grandparents up from Indiana yesterday, shopping in this wonderful city today, cooking, wining (not me) and dining everyone. Getting myself ready for a night full of potty breaks (I'm up to 4 a night) and a wonderful day of reflection, laughter and love!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sticky baby dust, follie growth powder and wonderful positive thoughts!

[albany07]

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sticky baby dust, follie growth powder and wonderful positive thoughts!