Nicki,
Hoping today is a better day for you sweetie! I can't begin to possibly understand the pain you've been suffering over the last several years- & I promise I won't pretend to. I have had my own share of struggles & turmoils minus the inability to conceive - I've realized life just goes on with or without you. You can hop that bus of self pity & be miserable or you can get up & make the best of it. It's the quality of life that is important- nobody else is going to change how we feel or make it all go away. You are a strong woman - reach inside for some of that strength & focus on & enjoy what you DO have in your life every minute of everyday. Remember the simple things that use to make you happy. Allow them to make you happy again. read enough? I can keep going Nicki I really can. You're lucky you are able to try again. Why don't you, what are you waiting for? Get the ball rolling. What is stopping you??? Don't let fear run your life.
Is that the kick in the --- you needed?
I may need that same sermon.
Sabi XXOO
Awaiting Treatment
HI ladies,
Well well well, lots of action on the UK side, none in North America! Ahem!
Lee,
Hope you enjoyed your Easter weekend! Did you do something special with DH or with your family?
Carolyn,
CONGRATS on being PUPO, this is amazing news! Just imagining you with your feet up, reading in the sun in a beautiful garden fills me with joy! I hope you have a safe and uneventful trip back home darling. If I remember well, you go back to work next week?
Sabi and Nicola,
It's amazing that you joined the thread. I'm so sorry that the blues hit you sometimes... I think you can never be indifferent to the struggle, the roller coaster... and in those times, I've always found that starting a new project to keep me entertained and busy really helps. Sending you big hugs!!!!!
Angie, Angel, Traci and all the others, I hope you enjoyed the long weekend! As for me, my sisters and brother visited us for 24hrs, it was fun. It's always too short, but at least my sister will come back in two weeks for the weekend. I'm waiting for our workman; he'll sand the drywalls today and put a coat of primer... we'll do our best to isolate the staircase with plastic sheets so we don't end up with dust all over the house, but that darn little dust as the knack to sneak into every crack and hole... ah, well. At least tomorrow I'll be able to give the house a good clean up; the other coats of paint should not mess up the house as much!
And in a couple of days, we'll be done with the renovations for a while!
Take care ladies,
Sophie xxox
Well well well, lots of action on the UK side, none in North America! Ahem!
Lee,
Hope you enjoyed your Easter weekend! Did you do something special with DH or with your family?
Carolyn,
CONGRATS on being PUPO, this is amazing news! Just imagining you with your feet up, reading in the sun in a beautiful garden fills me with joy! I hope you have a safe and uneventful trip back home darling. If I remember well, you go back to work next week?
Sabi and Nicola,
It's amazing that you joined the thread. I'm so sorry that the blues hit you sometimes... I think you can never be indifferent to the struggle, the roller coaster... and in those times, I've always found that starting a new project to keep me entertained and busy really helps. Sending you big hugs!!!!!
Angie, Angel, Traci and all the others, I hope you enjoyed the long weekend! As for me, my sisters and brother visited us for 24hrs, it was fun. It's always too short, but at least my sister will come back in two weeks for the weekend. I'm waiting for our workman; he'll sand the drywalls today and put a coat of primer... we'll do our best to isolate the staircase with plastic sheets so we don't end up with dust all over the house, but that darn little dust as the knack to sneak into every crack and hole... ah, well. At least tomorrow I'll be able to give the house a good clean up; the other coats of paint should not mess up the house as much!
And in a couple of days, we'll be done with the renovations for a while!Take care ladies,
Sophie xxox
1st and 2nd IVF = BFN 1st FET BFP! m/c at 7 weeks. 2nd FET BFP! 3rd FET BFN
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
Good Afternoon
Nicola I am sorry you are feeling so down at the moment, sometimes we just feel crap and nothing makes it better, but you will come back up again, remember the carefree, happy go lucky kinda gal, she is there somewhere. I tried this long old journey for 7 years before we came to the end of our IVF route and it feels sooooooooo long a time to be waiting and waiting and having disapointment after disapointment but each new day is a new beginning and I guess we go on for as long as we need to before we look to other things. Are you feeling nervous about this new try in case it doesn't work?? You get all your hopes, fears, frustrations and whatnot out on here, we have all been where you are from time to time we will try and pick you up along the way and move you along through it in all our individual ways. You came to a good thread!!!!
So you have had crappy weather I think I followed the sunshine round the country!!! We went up North through the rain and then it stopped and shone all weekend and we followed the rain back home and then it stopped and the sun has shone all day so far!!!
Sophie we went to my grandmothers for a few days, we had an easter egg hunt for my nephew he was so sweet, I love it when they still think the easter bunny is real!!! Then in the afternoon my grandmother took took us all on an hour walk down her memory lane. She did not even get out of breath and she is 3 yrs off her 100th birthday!!! She wants me to take her down to the woods and the river next time, AMAZING!!!!!!!!! I never get tired of listening to stories of her past, she is our last link in our family to the 'olden days' !!!
Wayhayyyy your renovations are nearly all done does that mean you will be putting your feet up to wait for the arrival of your bundle of joy??? Any news on your friend??
Carolyn so how was the wheelchair ride??? Did DH push you really fast and spin you around?? HaHa!!! Hope you have had a nice delay free return journey. How are you feeling???? Have you got sunshine in your part of the country?? We drove past your side yesterday on our way home so I gave you a thought and waved as we went past!!!
Traci, Angie, Angel hope you are all enjoying the easter break, do you guys over there have a break?? We have 2 weeks off over here not that means much to me at the moment as I am off from everything, do I keep telling you guys that??!! Sorry its the first time in my life I have not worked for any other reason than 'I am having a break!!' By the time its sunk in I will be surrounded by children again!!!!
So Sabi what is your story?? You don't have to share it if you don't want to, are you a UK buddy or are you across the water??
Well I have really got to do some studying, I passed my last module and have not returned to it since so I am going to sit and do some now whilst I am in the mood, god self directed study is toooooooooooo hard on my motivation at the moment!!!!! I want to be out doing fun things but it won't do itself so off to school for me for a couple of hours.
See ya laters
Lee xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Nicola I am sorry you are feeling so down at the moment, sometimes we just feel crap and nothing makes it better, but you will come back up again, remember the carefree, happy go lucky kinda gal, she is there somewhere. I tried this long old journey for 7 years before we came to the end of our IVF route and it feels sooooooooo long a time to be waiting and waiting and having disapointment after disapointment but each new day is a new beginning and I guess we go on for as long as we need to before we look to other things. Are you feeling nervous about this new try in case it doesn't work?? You get all your hopes, fears, frustrations and whatnot out on here, we have all been where you are from time to time we will try and pick you up along the way and move you along through it in all our individual ways. You came to a good thread!!!!
So you have had crappy weather I think I followed the sunshine round the country!!! We went up North through the rain and then it stopped and shone all weekend and we followed the rain back home and then it stopped and the sun has shone all day so far!!!
Sophie we went to my grandmothers for a few days, we had an easter egg hunt for my nephew he was so sweet, I love it when they still think the easter bunny is real!!! Then in the afternoon my grandmother took took us all on an hour walk down her memory lane. She did not even get out of breath and she is 3 yrs off her 100th birthday!!! She wants me to take her down to the woods and the river next time, AMAZING!!!!!!!!! I never get tired of listening to stories of her past, she is our last link in our family to the 'olden days' !!!
Wayhayyyy your renovations are nearly all done does that mean you will be putting your feet up to wait for the arrival of your bundle of joy??? Any news on your friend??
Carolyn so how was the wheelchair ride??? Did DH push you really fast and spin you around?? HaHa!!!
Hope you have had a nice delay free return journey. How are you feeling???? Have you got sunshine in your part of the country?? We drove past your side yesterday on our way home so I gave you a thought and waved as we went past!!!Traci, Angie, Angel hope you are all enjoying the easter break, do you guys over there have a break?? We have 2 weeks off over here not that means much to me at the moment as I am off from everything, do I keep telling you guys that??!!
Sorry its the first time in my life I have not worked for any other reason than 'I am having a break!!' By the time its sunk in I will be surrounded by children again!!!!So Sabi what is your story?? You don't have to share it if you don't want to, are you a UK buddy or are you across the water??
Well I have really got to do some studying, I passed my last module and have not returned to it since so I am going to sit and do some now whilst I am in the mood, god self directed study is toooooooooooo hard on my motivation at the moment!!!!! I want to be out doing fun things but it won't do itself so off to school for me for a couple of hours.
See ya laters
Lee xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Lee,
Here's my story: dh & I really really started trying last summer. I went to MD & OB/GYN to make sure "everything" was ok. Being 42 yrs old & never pregnant I was a little worried about the old time clock. OB said try naturally & come back in 6 mos if no pregnancy. Well, couldn't get a read on ovulation kits & every month BFN. Was getting restless..
Late fall/beginning of winter, there was a breakfast/seminar at the local hospital featuring a panel of some of Cleveland's best infertility specialists discussing the why's how's & what's of infertility.
I thought it wouldn't hurt to be educated. Left the seminar early in tears. Stats show woman over 42 less than 5% of conceiving on their own. dh & I made appt w/one of those Dr's. He suggested the Chlomid challenge test- Fertility drugs & blood test to read hormone levels. Took the pills, had the blood drawn & while waiting for a BFP the nurse from his office called on New Years Eve & said FSH too high -in my twilight of menopause & low egg reserve. Well, needless to say the beginning of 2009 was shitty. Went back to the dr. for further explaination & he said if I really wanted children I would need to consider donor eggs.
After many tears & sleepless nights we decided to ask my younger sister if she would donate. She said yes but to find out she has a lot more health issues that we were not aware of- not a good candidate. More tears & sleepless nights. End of discussion. We really want children so decided on donor eggs. Found brokers found donor. Fell in love with the donor & she's proven. She has had her 1st screening appt & so far no news- no news is good news- our appt is next monday. So I am "in waiting" So we are in the beginning stages of the IVF.
All the posts have really helped me. Your stories touch my heart. I find strength on this thread. I'm so grateful. Yes, I am across the pond. USA in the state of Ohio. Sorry for rambling...
Sabi
xxoo
Here's my story: dh & I really really started trying last summer. I went to MD & OB/GYN to make sure "everything" was ok. Being 42 yrs old & never pregnant I was a little worried about the old time clock. OB said try naturally & come back in 6 mos if no pregnancy. Well, couldn't get a read on ovulation kits & every month BFN. Was getting restless..
Late fall/beginning of winter, there was a breakfast/seminar at the local hospital featuring a panel of some of Cleveland's best infertility specialists discussing the why's how's & what's of infertility.
I thought it wouldn't hurt to be educated. Left the seminar early in tears. Stats show woman over 42 less than 5% of conceiving on their own. dh & I made appt w/one of those Dr's. He suggested the Chlomid challenge test- Fertility drugs & blood test to read hormone levels. Took the pills, had the blood drawn & while waiting for a BFP the nurse from his office called on New Years Eve & said FSH too high -in my twilight of menopause & low egg reserve. Well, needless to say the beginning of 2009 was shitty. Went back to the dr. for further explaination & he said if I really wanted children I would need to consider donor eggs.
After many tears & sleepless nights we decided to ask my younger sister if she would donate. She said yes but to find out she has a lot more health issues that we were not aware of- not a good candidate. More tears & sleepless nights. End of discussion. We really want children so decided on donor eggs. Found brokers found donor. Fell in love with the donor & she's proven. She has had her 1st screening appt & so far no news- no news is good news- our appt is next monday. So I am "in waiting" So we are in the beginning stages of the IVF.
All the posts have really helped me. Your stories touch my heart. I find strength on this thread. I'm so grateful. Yes, I am across the pond. USA in the state of Ohio. Sorry for rambling...
Sabi
xxoo
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Sabi - just love your positivity and that quote ' turn that frown upside down! - made me chuckle!! Wow you have had quite a whirlwind journey over the last few months but it sounds like evrything is finally fitting into place xxsabi wrote:Nicolamark,
Chin up sister!! Turn that frown upside down! Remember the old saying:"Any day above the ground is a good day" or something along those lines haha! We must be thankful for what we have- & we all have a lot.
Sabi
Lee - sounds like you had a good weekend - my mum said the weather up north had been good ... wow your grnadmother sounds like one strong lady - now we know who you take after
whats your next plans travel wise ??Nicki - hows you today hon - hope eastermonday brought you more cheer and you had a good day with your friends ?? what day is your docs appointment ?? - hugs to you ((())) xx
Sophie - oooo can feel some nesting coming on wanting to clean and tidy up
not long now honey is the bad packed ?? and whats the update on your friend ??Traci - hows you hon - did you have a good weekend ??
Angel?Angie - working too hard - neen up to anything nice ??
We got home last night aftr special assistance at the airport - you don't realise how ar you actually walk in those places - the weeelchair was provided with someone to push me
I felt like I was aboput 90 not just PUPO - but it is special cargo so got to take care !! - you could see everyone looking though thinking whats wrong with her and even better we go priority boarding without even having to pay extra !!!!Its DH birthday today and he is not at work so going to catch up on jobs, go for a nice pub lunch and then I have accupuncture tonight x
Catch you all later xxx
IVF 4 BFP
Good morning ladies,
How is everyone today? Ready to fight the bear another day?? Just want to apologize for the "preaching" & rambling I did yesterday. I must of been in one of those moods. I am the oldest of 8 so I guess it comes w/the territory- I meant no harm. I hope I didn't upset you Nicki I had only good intentions!!
Carolyn. glad you're home safe!!
FYI- there are only 3-4 states that help finance IVF & I don't live in one of
them, of course. So this is ALL out of pocket for me & dh. The total for the IVF & donor/broker will be some where around 30K. I'm so jealous that they help you across the pond- but as you know our health care is pretty screwed up here.
Gotta run, I'll catch up later.
Smiles!!
Sabi
How is everyone today? Ready to fight the bear another day?? Just want to apologize for the "preaching" & rambling I did yesterday. I must of been in one of those moods. I am the oldest of 8 so I guess it comes w/the territory- I meant no harm. I hope I didn't upset you Nicki I had only good intentions!!
Carolyn. glad you're home safe!!
FYI- there are only 3-4 states that help finance IVF & I don't live in one of
them, of course. So this is ALL out of pocket for me & dh. The total for the IVF & donor/broker will be some where around 30K. I'm so jealous that they help you across the pond- but as you know our health care is pretty screwed up here.
Gotta run, I'll catch up later.
Smiles!!
Sabi
Me: 44, DH:42
First IVF cycle BFP!
Twins! Due March 8, 2010
First IVF cycle BFP!
Twins! Due March 8, 2010
Good morning ladies,
Sabi,
Your story is very touching; it must have been quite a shock, and quite an adaptation. I'm very happy to read that you had a good contact with your donor and that things look good for your first round of IVF. I'm keeping everything crossed for you, and sending you lots of baby dust! Given what you said about not feeling alone and such, I'll just mention that there is an "over 40 crowd" and an "egg donor" thread in the general forum. So indeed sweetie, you're not alone! Keep up the good PMA dear, you're the sunshine of this thread right now!:D
Lee,
Hi sweetie! WOW your grandma is quite a character!
It's great, being able to look up at a role model like that. I have two grandmothers who have radically different personalities. One has been complaining about her little booboos since forever; very anxious and depressive too, and very passive. The other one does everything she can to remain mentally and physically active. She's not in good shape like your grandma, but she did pro bono work until last fall (her hearing is really bad, and she couldn't be as useful anymore...), she takes care of a garden each year and she reads several books a week. When I'm her age, I want to be like her... and her husband, my grandpa, who still drives people to their hospital every day; he was even decorated by the governor general last year because of his pro bono work. LOL and my grandma was sooooo jealous, she made all those grumpy comments about it, it was soooo funny! One thing I love about it also, is that I've been able to know the women behind my grandmas, not just the grandmas... I guess this is also what you're referring to when you talk about the good old times with your grandma. It gives you access to another side of them, and knowing that is quite priceless...
Carolyn,
Home sweet home! Must be great to sleep in your own bed! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DH!!!!:D:D Too bad there's one very nice gift he won't be allowed to unwrap and enjoy... Have fun at the pub dear! I must say, the mental image of you being rolled through the airport is quite funny... Oooh just to think that those little embies are curling up in a nice spot inside you as we speak... stick, little embies, stick to mama!!! When are you supposed to have your pregnancy test done? Oh, and nesting? Mmmh, I wish, but no. Imagine all, and I say all the floors covered in a thin layer of drywall dust, and 16 feet walking all over those floors (2 dogs, 1 cat, 2 adults) and you'll easily figure out why the whole place had to be vacuumed right after the workman left! My dog Daria, who is jet black, was slowly turning grey already!
Thanks to Lee and Carolyn to ask news about my friend. No progress... she's past her due date now, and she has her last apt today. They'll book an apt at the delivery room for early next week so she can be induced if nothing happened since then. I really hope that delivering that baby is going to help with her anxiety. She complains about the thought of being induced, but she also complains about not being active at all (walks her dogs 10 mins a day and that's it) and eating too much sugar, and she doesn't want to try any technique to try and start the labor (DH doesn't want to have sex because her cervix is open, she doesn't want to have an orgasm because last time she contracted non stop during an hour... and so on). Sorry to complain about this, but sometimes it's a bit of a burden, listening to her talking like that for an hour (complaining about her situation but not doing concrete actions to change it). So, we're waiting, and it's very possible that we might deliver on the same week... or day, who knows?
As for me, I'll also see the doctor this afternoon, right after my last session of self-hypnosis. Until then, I'll keep working on that cookbook. I really hope that the doctor tells me that things have progressed, it would be encouraging.
Take care ladies!
Sophie xxox
Sabi,
Your story is very touching; it must have been quite a shock, and quite an adaptation. I'm very happy to read that you had a good contact with your donor and that things look good for your first round of IVF. I'm keeping everything crossed for you, and sending you lots of baby dust! Given what you said about not feeling alone and such, I'll just mention that there is an "over 40 crowd" and an "egg donor" thread in the general forum. So indeed sweetie, you're not alone! Keep up the good PMA dear, you're the sunshine of this thread right now!
:DLee,
Hi sweetie! WOW your grandma is quite a character!
It's great, being able to look up at a role model like that. I have two grandmothers who have radically different personalities. One has been complaining about her little booboos since forever; very anxious and depressive too, and very passive. The other one does everything she can to remain mentally and physically active. She's not in good shape like your grandma, but she did pro bono work until last fall (her hearing is really bad, and she couldn't be as useful anymore...), she takes care of a garden each year and she reads several books a week. When I'm her age, I want to be like her... and her husband, my grandpa, who still drives people to their hospital every day; he was even decorated by the governor general last year because of his pro bono work. LOL and my grandma was sooooo jealous, she made all those grumpy comments about it, it was soooo funny! One thing I love about it also, is that I've been able to know the women behind my grandmas, not just the grandmas... I guess this is also what you're referring to when you talk about the good old times with your grandma. It gives you access to another side of them, and knowing that is quite priceless...Carolyn,
Home sweet home! Must be great to sleep in your own bed! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DH!!!!
:D:D Too bad there's one very nice gift he won't be allowed to unwrap and enjoy... Have fun at the pub dear! I must say, the mental image of you being rolled through the airport is quite funny... Oooh just to think that those little embies are curling up in a nice spot inside you as we speak... stick, little embies, stick to mama!!! When are you supposed to have your pregnancy test done? Oh, and nesting? Mmmh, I wish, but no. Imagine all, and I say all the floors covered in a thin layer of drywall dust, and 16 feet walking all over those floors (2 dogs, 1 cat, 2 adults) and you'll easily figure out why the whole place had to be vacuumed right after the workman left! My dog Daria, who is jet black, was slowly turning grey already! Thanks to Lee and Carolyn to ask news about my friend. No progress... she's past her due date now, and she has her last apt today. They'll book an apt at the delivery room for early next week so she can be induced if nothing happened since then. I really hope that delivering that baby is going to help with her anxiety. She complains about the thought of being induced, but she also complains about not being active at all (walks her dogs 10 mins a day and that's it) and eating too much sugar, and she doesn't want to try any technique to try and start the labor (DH doesn't want to have sex because her cervix is open, she doesn't want to have an orgasm because last time she contracted non stop during an hour... and so on). Sorry to complain about this, but sometimes it's a bit of a burden, listening to her talking like that for an hour (complaining about her situation but not doing concrete actions to change it). So, we're waiting, and it's very possible that we might deliver on the same week... or day, who knows?
As for me, I'll also see the doctor this afternoon, right after my last session of self-hypnosis. Until then, I'll keep working on that cookbook. I really hope that the doctor tells me that things have progressed, it would be encouraging.
Take care ladies!
Sophie xxox
1st and 2nd IVF = BFN 1st FET BFP! m/c at 7 weeks. 2nd FET BFP! 3rd FET BFN
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
Now let's spend the rest of our lives having fun together!
Hi Ladies!!
Man, I have been super busy. I am so sorry I havent been able to post lately. I took Friday and MOnday off for a long weekend. Yesterday I did all of my spring cleaning...smells great in my home!! DH and I went boating Saturday and stupid me didnt put any sunscreen on...who would have thought you need sunscreen in florida?? LOL 
So I am a little toasty. Not to bad though. Starting to ease up.
Carolyn....OMG...time sure does fly. TWO beautiful embies!! Baby I am so hoping this is your time love!!! When do you test?
Sophie...I cannot believe you are still hanging in there. I was hoping I didnt miss the birth of your sweet boy. Love the mess up with the computer...too funny. How is your friend? ANy baby yet?? How are your fur babies?
Nicola...man...so sorry to hear you are having a hard time of it. Trust me..I go through that too. A lot...You are not alone. Hugs lovely!!!
Sabi...WELCOME!!! SOrry I have missed out on ya. I will catch up, I promise. I am from the US too!!!
Hang in there ladies...are day will come, i know it!!!
Man, I have been super busy. I am so sorry I havent been able to post lately. I took Friday and MOnday off for a long weekend. Yesterday I did all of my spring cleaning...smells great in my home!!
DH and I went boating Saturday and stupid me didnt put any sunscreen on...who would have thought you need sunscreen in florida?? LOL So I am a little toasty. Not to bad though. Starting to ease up. Carolyn....OMG...time sure does fly. TWO beautiful embies!! Baby I am so hoping this is your time love!!! When do you test?
Sophie...I cannot believe you are still hanging in there. I was hoping I didnt miss the birth of your sweet boy. Love the mess up with the computer...too funny. How is your friend? ANy baby yet?? How are your fur babies?
Nicola...man...so sorry to hear you are having a hard time of it. Trust me..I go through that too. A lot...You are not alone. Hugs lovely!!!
Sabi...WELCOME!!! SOrry I have missed out on ya. I will catch up, I promise. I am from the US too!!!
Hang in there ladies...are day will come, i know it!!!
Miracle,
How are you girlie? Can't wait till you graduate, then we'll have a resident lawyer on this thread. Fab!!!!!! I'm so proud of you. Hows your friend doing? What else have you been up to? Is your plan for tmt on for this summer?
Your boating trip sounds fun. I'd love to see you all baked. Silly girl forgetting the sunscreen... Hope you're not in any pain though.
How are you girlie? Can't wait till you graduate, then we'll have a resident lawyer on this thread. Fab!!!!!! I'm so proud of you. Hows your friend doing? What else have you been up to? Is your plan for tmt on for this summer?
Your boating trip sounds fun. I'd love to see you all baked. Silly girl forgetting the sunscreen...
Hope you're not in any pain though.Nicola,
Didn't want to read and run. I think its completely natural to have those bad days and feel angry. Its especially frustrating when we don't have a plan in place that we can look forward to. I totally understand your frustrations with the NHS. Looking back, I realise that as soon as we had our plan, and knew when we were starting tmt, I was much calmer and threw myself into getting my body in shape for it. Mind you, I've never been slim, but I try to get into as healthy a state as possible. But after a failed cycle when we didn't know what was happening, my emotions would be all over the place. I recently had a mc, and I was at such a low point after which I decided that its really not worth living like that. Someone pointed out to me that I was probably punishing myself more than the hurt received from other people. Its taking a while, but I have now decided to enjoy the simpler things in life a bit. We don't want to think about the next round until I feel a bit more at peace. Don't get me wrong, the hurt is and always will be there. But I am trying not to let that rule my life.
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) - I hope that your appointment gives you some answers and a way forward. Planning for the next cycle may be just what you need.
Didn't want to read and run. I think its completely natural to have those bad days and feel angry. Its especially frustrating when we don't have a plan in place that we can look forward to. I totally understand your frustrations with the NHS. Looking back, I realise that as soon as we had our plan, and knew when we were starting tmt, I was much calmer and threw myself into getting my body in shape for it. Mind you, I've never been slim, but I try to get into as healthy a state as possible. But after a failed cycle when we didn't know what was happening, my emotions would be all over the place. I recently had a mc, and I was at such a low point after which I decided that its really not worth living like that. Someone pointed out to me that I was probably punishing myself more than the hurt received from other people. Its taking a while, but I have now decided to enjoy the simpler things in life a bit. We don't want to think about the next round until I feel a bit more at peace. Don't get me wrong, the hurt is and always will be there. But I am trying not to let that rule my life.
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) - I hope that your appointment gives you some answers and a way forward. Planning for the next cycle may be just what you need.
…….really Sophie,
How are things going with making your house an allergy free zone for DH? Are the cats getting used to sleeping away from you? Must say that I too used to suffer from dust allergies all the time. Summer made it worse. I always had a runny nose and watery eyes from all the sneezing. On the plus side, you get used to being in a relatively clean environment. Dusty files at work are a no-go for me, and I get away from client sites that make me sneeze. I'm fairly regular with my cleaning at home, but if I've slacked for any reason, my sneezing is a dead give away, even if we can't see the dust. So although my friends think I go overboard with cleaning, I have to do it for my well being.
How are things going with making your house an allergy free zone for DH? Are the cats getting used to sleeping away from you? Must say that I too used to suffer from dust allergies all the time. Summer made it worse. I always had a runny nose and watery eyes from all the sneezing. On the plus side, you get used to being in a relatively clean environment. Dusty files at work are a no-go for me, and I get away from client sites that make me sneeze. I'm fairly regular with my cleaning at home, but if I've slacked for any reason, my sneezing is a dead give away, even if we can't see the dust. So although my friends think I go overboard with cleaning, I have to do it for my well being.