Getting really freaked out

[bonita23]

Dh and I are finally getting close to our cycle. Hopefully we will have a date for his sperm retrieval today. Now I am thinking about everything that can go wrong. I am scared even though that the urologist things there is a 99% chance he is making good sperm, that we can fall into the 1% category. I am afraid I will have OHSS and have to cancel the cycle. I am afraid that we will get pregnant and I will miscarry. I am afraid that I will just get a negative. It;s not like TTC the natural way where if it doesn't happent his time, we'll just try again next month. Am I being irrational? I am admittadly a pessimist and always see what can go wrong, and not what can go right, basically because of my life experiences. Even my DH, who never thinks about the things that can go wrong has the same fears, which is totally unlike him. How do I alleviate these fears? It;s so nerve wrecking it's driving me crazy.

[sassynlv]

bonita: glad you are getting close to cycling. Dealing w/ IF is an emotional rollercoaster, THEN you add in hormones. Fear is a normal part of it. Please, though don't let it paralyze you. I find it easiest if i take things one step at a time (i.e., i think about my current stims instead of whether or not i will miscarry once preg). I deal w/things one at a time and trust that as the next step comes, i will deal w/that too. I used to (and sometimes still do) have a lot of anxiety about the outcome of my cycles, but found it was driving me insane. I know the fear, but believe also that there is hope.

i hope you stay on the boards as i have found them to be a lifesaver. The women here really understand what you are going through, and many have been exactly where you are. it is a place to vent and get feedback. Once you know when his sperm retrieval will be and when you might be cycling, I strongly suggest you join a thread that will be cycling close to the same time. The support is invaluable.

Everything crossed that the sperm retrieval goes well for you (and for dh!!) and that you are able to start cycling soon! Hang in there!!!

[madhusri]

Hello!!!!!. be positive. It is going to happen to us. it has just taken some time. Just concentrATE ON DAY to day activities. Dont worry what the future has. I am also on my first ivf cycle with less follicles. Tommmorrow is my er. I am very scared of needles and other stuff. But still iam hoping things will turn out positive. That is what we are all hoping for. All the best. Bye